October 13 2025 Columbus Day/Indigenous People’s Day: the Bifocal Vision of History as Tyranny and Authorized Identity Versus Seizures of Power and Liberation Struggle

    History as authorized identity has always been key to the idea of nation and the power of the state. Today we celebrate a unique holiday, a contested ideological ground of revolutionary struggle against divisions of exclusionary otherness which are designed to create a disparity of wealth and power by those who would enslave us, a holiday which forces decision and sets each of us in an arena of competing and mutually exclusive narratives of American identity.

   Myths of colonialism, fictive inventions of national origin, racism and the roots of fascisms of blood, faith, and soil are embedded in our triumphalist narratives of the European Conquest of the Americas celebrated as a national holiday as Columbus Day. The same events are mourned as a national shame and origin of historical legacies of genocide and the theft of a continent as Indigenous People’s Day. We live now in both nations simultaneously, our two souls riven asunder by history and locked in a titanic struggle across generations and centuries as epigenetic trauma.

     What I find most interesting about the dual visions of national identity valorized by these competing narratives is that both were founded as antiracist holidays versus specific intrusive threats to national identity; Columbus Day to stop anti Italian and anti-immigration hysteria, first in reply to our nation’s most massive lynching and nationalized by Roosevelt in 1934 versus fascist subversion, Indigenous People’s Day as an anti-colonialist counterbalance to valorizing narratives of the European Conquest and white supremacy. What happened in the meanwhile between these two anti-racist holidays was first that Italians were reimagined as white in a process of assimilation common to European immigrants notably including the Irish and Polish, and here I mean the word as it is used in the Star Trek mythos by the Borg “You will be assimilated; you will service us”, and the eclipse of the ideas of Manifest Destiny, the legitimation of colonialism on the basis of civilizing savages with all of the white supremacist ideology this authorizes, and of Orientalism applied to our indigenous peoples. In this case the unfolding of history has been one of liberation struggle and movement toward diversity and inclusion.

      We dwell in two realms which are discontiguous, defined by power asymmetries and the echoes of tragedies and atavisms of instinct which we drag behind us like invisible reptilian tails.

    Monet once said, “Man has two eyes through which he sees the world. One looks outward, but the other looks inward, and it is the juxtaposition of these two images which creates the world we see.” He meant this literally, as metaphysics, and his art was an attempt to demonstrate the processes by which consciousness creates reality, but his primary insight applies equally to the narrative function of identity.

     The great struggle for ownership of ourselves between autonomous individuals and the ideas of other people as authorized identities imposed by state force and control is driven by three principles; each of us must reinvent how to be human, humans create themselves over time, and humans create themselves through other humans.

     We are the stories we tell about ourselves, to ourselves and to other people. The question we must ask of any such story is simple; whose story is this?

     As written for National Geographic; By Debra Adams Simmons, Executive Editor, HISTORY; “Today is a federal holiday in the U.S., but what are we celebrating?

     The first national Indigenous Peoples’ Day honors “America’s first inhabitants and the Tribal Nations that continue to thrive today,” President Joe Biden said, highlighting the resilience of native people and recommitting to honor the government’s treaty obligations to Tribal Nations.

     Biden also issued a Columbus Day proclamation acknowledging the contributions of Italian Americans as well as “the painful history of wrongs and atrocities” that resulted from European exploration.”

     The dissonance in the two proclamations is hard to fathom. In recent years there’s been a pivot away from recognizing Columbus Day and toward Indigenous Peoples’ Day (pictured above, an early celebration in 1992 in Berkeley, California). In the move, the origins of Columbus Day at times have been lost. Erin Blakemore writes about how the day came to be:

     “In 1890 anti-Italian sentiment boiled over in New Orleans after police chief David Hennessy, reputed for his arrests of Italian Americans, was murdered. In the aftermath, more than a hundred Sicilian Americans were arrested. When nine were tried and acquitted in March 1891, a furious mob rioted and broke into the city prison, where they beat, shot, and hanged at least 11 Italian American prisoners.

     None of the rioters who lynched the Italian Americans were prosecuted. It remains one of the largest mass lynchings in the nation’s history,” Blakemore writes.

     This soured U.S. diplomatic relations with Italy. In an attempt to appease Italy and acknowledge the contributions of Italian Americans on the 400th anniversary of Columbus’ arrival, President Benjamin Harrison in 1892 proclaimed a nationwide celebration of “Discovery Day,” recognizing Columbus as “the pioneer of progress and enlightenment.” Eventually, the nations mended their relationship and the U.S. paid $25,000 in reparations. In 1934, President Franklin D. Roosevelt designated it a national holiday.

     For many, especially Indigenous people, the Columbus Day holiday is offensive—a celebration of invasion, theft, brutality, and colonization. The arrival celebrated by some as a day of triumphant discovery was the beginning of an incursion onto their homeland.

     Columbus and his crew enabled and perpetrated the kidnapping, enslavement, forced assimilation, rape, and sexual abuse of Native people, including children. The Native American population shrank by about half after European contact.

     Today, 21 states and many cities celebrate Columbus Day. Others, including Columbus, Ohio—the largest city named for the explorer—have shifted to Indigenous Peoples’ Day. It is now a paid state holiday in Alaska, Iowa, Maine, Minnesota, New Mexico, Nevada, North Carolina, Oregon (which celebrates both Columbus Day and Native American Day), South Dakota, Vermont, and Wisconsin.

     “We must never forget the centuries-long campaign of violence, displacement, assimilation, and terror wrought upon Native communities and Tribal Nations throughout our country,” Biden said in his proclamation. “

     As written by Howard Zinnin Jacobin magazine, in an article entitled The Real Christopher Columbus:  There was no heroic adventure, only bloodshed. Columbus Day should not be a celebration. Republished from A People’s History of the United States.”; “Arawak men and women, naked, tawny, and full of wonder, emerged from their villages onto the island’s beaches and swam out to get a closer look at the strange big boat. When Columbus and his sailors came ashore, carrying swords, the Arawaks ran to greet them, brought them food, water, gifts. He later wrote of this in his log:

     They brought us parrots and balls of cotton and spears and many other things, which they exchanged for the glass beads and hawks’ bells. They willingly traded everything they owned. . . They do not bear arms, and do not know them, for I showed them a sword, they took it by the edge and cut themselves out of ignorance. They would make fine servants . . . with fifty men we could subjugate them all and make them do whatever we want.

     These Arawaks of the Bahama Islands were much like Indians on the mainland, who were remarkable (European observers were to say again and again) for their hospitality, their belief in sharing. These traits did not stand out in the Europe of the Renaissance, dominated as it was by the religion of popes, the government of kings, the frenzy for money that marked Western civilization and its first messenger to the Americas, Christopher Columbus.

     The information that Columbus wanted most was: Where is the gold? He had persuaded the king and queen of Spain to finance an expedition to the lands, the wealth, he expected would be on the other side of the Atlantic — the Indies and Asia, gold and spices. For, like other informed people of his time, he knew the world was round and he could sail west in order to get to the Far East.

     Spain was recently unified, one of the new modern nation-states, like France, England, and Portugal. Its population, mostly poor peasants, worked for the nobility, who were 2 percent of the population and owned 95 percent of the land. Like other states of the modern world, Spain sought gold, which was becoming the new mark of wealth, more useful than land because it could buy anything.

     There was gold in Asia, it was thought, and certainly silks and spices, for Marco Polo and others had brought back marvelous things from their overland expeditions centuries before. Now that the Turks had conquered Constantinople and the eastern Mediterranean, and controlled the land routes to Asia, a sea route was needed. Portuguese sailors were working their way around the southern tip of Africa. Spain decided to gamble on a long sail across an unknown ocean.

     In return for bringing back gold and spices, they promised Columbus 10 percent of the profits, governorship over newfound lands, and the fame that would go with a new title: Admiral of the Ocean Sea. He was a merchant’s clerk from the Italian city of Genoa, part-time weaver (the son of a skilled weaver), and expert sailor. He set out with three sailing ships, the largest of which was the Santa Maria, perhaps 100 feet long, and thirty-nine crew members.

     Columbus would never have made it to Asia, which was thousands of miles farther away than he had calculated, imagining a smaller world. He would have been doomed by that great expanse of sea. But he was lucky. One-fourth of the way there he came upon an unknown, uncharted land that lay between Europe and Asia — the Americas. It was early October 1492, and thirty-three days since he and his crew had left the Canary Islands, off the Atlantic coast of Africa. Now they saw branches and sticks floating in the water. They saw flocks of birds.

     These were signs of land. Then, on October 12, a sailor called Rodrigo saw the early morning moon shining on white sands, and cried out. It was an island in the Bahamas, the Caribbean Sea. The first man to sight land was supposed to get a yearly pension of 10,000 maravedis for life, but Rodrigo never got it. Columbus claimed he had seen a light the evening before. He got the reward.

     So, approaching land, they were met by the Arawak Indians, who swam out to greet them. The Arawaks lived in village communes, had a developed agriculture of corn, yams, cassava. They could spin and weave, but they had no horses or work animals. They had no iron, but they wore tiny gold ornaments in their ears.

     This was to have enormous consequences: it led Columbus to take some of them aboard ship as prisoners because he insisted that they guide him to the source of the gold. He then sailed to what is now Cuba, then to Hispaniola (the island which today consists of Haiti and the Dominican Republic). There, bits of visible gold in the rivers, and a gold mask presented to Columbus by a local Indian chief, led to wild visions of gold fields.

     Columbus’s report to the Court in Madrid was extravagant. He insisted he had reached Asia (it was Cuba) and an island off the coast of China (Hispaniola). His descriptions were part fact, part fiction:

     Hispaniola is a miracle. Mountains and hills, plains and pastures, are both fertile and beautiful . . . There are many spices, and great mines of gold and other metals . . .

     The Indians, Columbus reported, “are so naive and so free with their possessions that no one who has not witnessed them would believe it. When you ask for something they have, they never say no. To the contrary, they offer to share with anyone. . .” He concluded his report by asking for a little help from their Majesties, and in return he would bring them from his next voyage “as much gold as they need . . . and as many slaves as they ask.”

     Because of Columbus’s exaggerated report and promises, his second expedition was given seventeen ships and more than twelve hundred men. The aim was clear: slaves and gold. From his base on Haiti, Columbus sent expedition after expedition into the interior. They found no gold fields, but had to fill up the ships returning to Spain with some kind of dividend.

     In the year 1495, they went on a great slave raid, rounded up 1,500 Arawak men, women, and children, put them in pens guarded by Spaniards and dogs, then picked the 500 best specimens to load onto ships. Of those 500, 200 died en route.

     Too many of the slaves died in captivity. And so Columbus, desperate to pay back dividends to those who had invested, had to make good his promise to fill the ships with gold. In the province of Cicao on Haiti, where he and his men imagined huge gold fields to exist, they ordered all persons fourteen years or older to collect a certain quantity of gold every three months. When they brought it, they were given copper tokens to hang around their necks. Indians found without a copper token had their hands cut off and bled to death.

     The Indians had been given an impossible task. The only gold around was bits of dust garnered from the streams. So they fled, were hunted down with dogs, and were killed. When it became clear that there was no gold left, the Indians were taken as slave labor on huge estates, known later as encomiendas. They were worked at a ferocious pace, and died by the thousands. By the year 1515, there were perhaps 50,000 Indians left. By 1550, there were 500. A report of the year 1650 shows none of the original Arawaks or their descendants left on the island.

     The chief source — and, on many matters the only source — of information about what happened on the islands after Columbus came is Bartolome de las Casas, who, as a young priest, participated in the conquest of Cuba. For a time he owned a plantation on which Indian slaves worked, but he gave that up and became a vehement critic of Spanish cruelty. Las Casas transcribed Columbus’s journal and, in his fifties, began a multi-volume History of the Indies.

     In book two of his History of the Indies, Las Casas (who at first urged replacing Indians by black slaves, thinking they were stronger and would survive, but later relented when he saw the effects on blacks) tells about the treatment of the Indians by the Spaniards. After a while, Spaniards refused to walk any distance. They “rode the backs of Indians if they were in a hurry” or were carried on hammocks by Indians running in relays. “In this case they also had Indians carry large leaves to shade them from the sun and others to fan them with goose wings.”

     Total control led to total cruelty. The Spaniards “thought nothing of knifing Indians by tens and twenties and of cutting slices off them to test the sharpness of their blades.” The Indians’ attempts to defend themselves failed. So, Las Casas reports, “they suffered and died in the mines and other labors in desperate silence, knowing not a soul in the world to whom they could turn for help.” He describes their work in the mines:

     . . . mountains are stripped from top to bottom and bottom to top a thousand times; they dig, split rocks, move stones, and carry dirt on their backs to wash it in the rivers, while those who wash gold stay in the water all the time with their backs bent so constantly it breaks them.

     After each six or eight months’ work in the mines, which was the time required of each crew to dig enough gold for melting, up to a third of the men died. While the men were sent many miles away to the mines, the wives remained to work the soil, forced into the excruciating job of digging and making thousands of hills for cassava plants.

     Thus husbands and wives were together only once every eight or ten months and when they met they were so exhausted and depressed on both sides . . . they ceased to procreate. As for the newly born, they died early because their mothers, overworked and famished, had no milk to nurse them . . . Some mothers even drowned their babies from sheer desperation. . . .in this way, husbands died in the mines, wives died at work, and children died from lack of milk. . .and in a short time this land which was so great, so powerful and fertile . . . was depopulated,

     When he arrived on Hispaniola in 1508, Las Casas says, “there were 60,000 people living on this island, including the Indians; so that from 1494 to 1508, over three million people had perished from war, slavery, and the mines. Who in future generations will believe this? I myself writing it as a knowledgeable eyewitness can hardly believe it. . .”

     What Columbus did to the Arawaks of the Bahamas, Cortes did to the Aztecs of Mexico, Pizarro to the Incas of Peru, and the English settlers of Virginia and Massachusetts to the Powhatans and the Pequots. They used the same tactics, and for the same reasons — the frenzy in the early capitalist states of Europe for gold, for slaves, for products of the soil, to pay the bondholders and stockholders of the expeditions, to finance the monarchical bureaucracies rising in Western Europe, to spur the growth of the new money economy rising out of feudalism, to participate in what Karl Marx would later call “the primitive accumulation of capital.” These were the violent beginnings of an intricate system of technology, business, politics, and culture that would dominate the world for the next five centuries.

     How certain are we that what was destroyed was inferior? Who were these people who came out on the beach and swam to bring presents to Columbus and his crew, who watched Cortes and Pizarro ride through their countryside? What did people in Spain get out of all that death and brutality visited on the Indians of the Americas? As Hans Koning sums it up in his book Columbus: His Enterprise:

     For all the gold and silver stolen and shipped to Spain did not make the Spanish people richer. It gave their kings an edge in the balance of power for a time, a chance to hire more mercenary soldiers for their wars. They ended up losing those wars anyway, and all that was left was a deadly inflation, a starving population, the rich richer, the poor poorer, and a ruined peasant class.

     Thus began the history of the European invasion of the Indian settlements in the Americas. That beginning is conquest, slavery, death. When we read the history books given to children in the United States, it all starts with heroic adventure — there is no bloodshed — and Columbus Day is a celebration.”

     As I wrote in my post of November 6 2023, Native American Heritage Month: A Reading List; Freud defined civilization when he wrote; “The first human being who hurled an insult instead of a stone was the founder of civilization.” The idea of civilization as the degree to which we have abandoned the social use of force and a measure of a society’s equality, diversity, and inclusion, expressed by Gene Roddenberry in Star Trek as “infinite diversity in infinite combination”, is central to the American experiment toward creating a true free society of  equals as democracy.

     The consequences of failure to act as each other’s guarantors of our universal human rights can be seen now in the ethnic cleansing of Gaza and the terror and tyranny of Israeli imperial dominion and Occupation of her neighbors, an echo and reflection of the European Conquest of the Americas along with many other conflicts of faith and ethnicity weaponized in service to power throughout history and the world, wherein colonial powers conquer, enslave, and erase in genocidal terror indigenous peoples, and the heroic Resistance of all those who refuse to be subjugated, assimilated, commodified, falsified, and ultimately become nothing, silenced and erased like the lost languages of stolen histories.  

     Both on national and personal levels we ourselves may be measured by our embrace of otherness and our solidarity in resistance to authority and the weaponization of fear in service to power, to divisions of exclusionary otherness and hierarchies of belonging, and to fascisms of blood, faith, and soil. 

     So also are we forged by how we bring a reckoning for the historical legacies and epigenetic multigenerational trauma and harm of inequalities and injustices which we drag around behind ourselves like an invisible reptilian tail, especially those of colonialism and imperialism, racism and patriarchy, and the systems and structures of oppression which still persist.

     But we are also shaped by our seizures of power and the limits of our vision in the reimagination and transformation of ourselves and our civilization; how to be human together and the limitless possibilities of becoming human.

     In the end we are defined by what we do with our fear and how we use our power; do something beautiful with yours.

                Behold the Man; Columbus, a reading list

The Nine Lives of Christopher Columbus, Matthew Restall

Columbus: The Four Voyages, Laurence Bergreen

The Last Voyage of Columbus: Being the Epic Tale of the Great Captain’s Fourth Expedition, Including Accounts of Mutiny, Shipwreck, and Discovery,

Martin Dugard

Christopher Columbus and the Conquest of Paradise, Kirkpatrick Sale

The Real Christopher Columbus, Howard Zinn

https://jacobin.com/2016/10/the-real-christopher-columbus-2?fbclid=IwY2xjawNaFpJleHRuA2FlbQIxMABicmlkETFlcURSN3RyODg3alIxNExxAR7_XSYbTl007oRWicQYG0xwyNO9roPEI5VgXU2g_F9KaMa3pIW5NtPn9hyZpQ_aem_uDjpbpEVwdL4y7OmH4oTjg

1492: A Novel of Christopher Columbus, the Spanish Inquisition and a World at the Turning Point, Newton Frohlich

The Catalogue of Shipwrecked Books: Christopher Columbus, His Son, and the Quest to Build the World’s Greatest Library, Edward Wilson-Lee

                           Native American History

     500 Nations: An Illustrated History of North American Indians, Josephy

     The Conquest of Paradise, Kirkpatrick Sale

      Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee: An Indian History of the American West, American West, Dee Brown

      The Heartbeat of Wounded Knee: Native America from 1890 to the Present, David Treuer

     Native American Testimony: A Chronicle of Indian-White Relations from           Prophecy to the Present, Peter Nabokov (editor)

     The Inconvenient Indian: A Curious Account of Native People in North America, The Truth About Stories: A Native Narrative, Thomas King

     Native American Mythology, Hartley Burr Alexander

     Pocahontas, Paula Gunn Allen

     This Land is Their Land, David J. Silverman

     The Cherokee Nation; a history, Robert J. Conley

     One Vast Winter Count, The Indian World of George Washington, Colin Calloway

     Blood and Thunder, Hampton Sides

     Empire of the Summer Moon, S.C. Gwynne

     The Comanche Empire, Lakota America: a new history of indigenous power, Pekka Hamalainen

     The Killing of Crazy Horse, Thomas Powers

     Crow Dog: Four Generations of Sioux Medicine Men, Leonard Crow Dog

     Ojibwa Warrior: Dennis Banks and the Rise of the American Indian Movement, Richard Erdoes

     The Apache Wars, Paul Andrew Hutton

     The Serpent’s Tongue: Prose, Poetry, and Art of the New Mexico Pueblos, Nancy Wood

     The Trickster: A Study In American Indian Mythology, Paul Radin, Karl Kerényi, C.G. Jung

                    Native American Literature

    Secrets from the Center of the World, How We Become Human: poems 1975-2002, Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings: poems, Soul Talk Song Language: conversations, Crazy Brave, Joy Harjo

     Where White Men Fear to Tread: The Autobiography of Russell Means

     Lakota Woman, Mary Crow Dog

     Black Elk Speaks

     The Man Made of Words: essays, stories, passages, N. Scott Momaday

     Night Flying Woman, Ignatia Broker

     Fool’s Crow, James Welch

     Love Medicine, The Beet Queen, Tracks, The Bingo Palace, Louise Erditch

     Our Stories Remember: history, culture, & values through storytelling, Joseph Bruchac

     Ceremony, Almanac of the Dead, Storyteller, Turquoise Ledger, Leslie Silko

     Blue Highways, William Least-Heat Moon

     Firesticks, Primer of the Obsolete, Stone Heart: A Novel of Sacajawea, The Reason for Crows: A Story of Kateri Tekakwitha, Uprising of Goats, Designs of the Night Sky, The Mask Maker, Stories of the Driven World, American Gypsy: Six Native American Plays, The Dance Partner, The Dream of a Broken Field, Diane Glancy

     The Journey of Crazy Horse, John Marshall III

     Houdini Heart, Ki Longfellow

     You Don’t Have to Say You Love Me, Blasphemy: new and selected stories, Sherman Alexie

     Two Old Women, Bird Girl & the Man Who Followed the Sun, Velma Wallis

     The Voice of Rolling Thunder, Sidian Morning Star Jones

     Spirit and Reason: the Vine Deloria, Jr Reader

     Aurum, Santee Frazier

      Postcolonial Love Poem, Natalie Diaz 

     As I wrote in my post of November 25 2023, History, Identity, Power: On Native American Heritage Day, Falsification, and the Echoes of the Conquest In Our Lives;  The Gordian Knot of history, memory, and identity as a function of narrative has always been a ground of struggle between autonomy and authority, between the masks that others make for us and those we make for ourselves, in which power silences and erases the voices of those it wishes to enslave and uses sophisticated techniques of disinformation and propaganda to falsify the identities of those it claims to represent as well as those it disavows.

     The torturer and his prisoner are both victims of authority, and the instruments of unequal power and divisions of exclusionary otherness with which it sets them against each other in subjugation to an elite hegemony and dominion.

     It only gets worse from there; unless it begins to get better.

     Our story, of America and of humankind, is a lamentation, a howl of loneliness and despair, of unutterable pain, disconnectedness, horror; but also of survival of those horrors, and the roar of defiance against fathoms of darkness and unanswerable force, of the triumph of the unconquerable will to become.

     Who resists becomes Unconquered and free.

     This is the forge of the spirit, this place beyond fear of death or hope of victory, and those who live here are transformed and liberated by our seizure of power over the ownership of ourselves as autonomous and self-created individuals.

     Each of us who refuses to submit to authority and its laws which serve power becomes a living Autonomous Zone.

     And this is why we will make a better future than we have the past; because tyrannies of force and control have no power over us unless we consent to give it to them. Each of us who in resistance is beyond compulsion opens the door to limitless unknowns and possibilities of becoming human, and this no authoritarian regime can survive. For authority must colonize, assimilate, falsify, commodify, and dehumanize us, and if it cannot it has failed.

     This is the great secret of power; its emptiness. Power requires complicity, for it is stolen from those it subjugates and enslaves.

    As to Native American Heritage Day, let us reclaim our stories and our ownership of identity. Thanksgiving is one notable example of lies and illusions designed to serve state power and create a national identity of imperialism; as written in Time by Olivia Waxman, “early days of thanks celebrated the burning of a Pequot village in 1637, and the killing of Wampanoag leader Massasoit’s son”. 

    Such stories are numberless as the stars in the heavens; time to reclaim the truth behind the illusions, and free ourselves from the grip of authorized histories and identities.

    I have often written that we in the sacred pursuit of truth, including those truths written in our flesh and immanent in nature in the discovery and creation of our uniqueness and of truths made for us by others against which we emerge in struggle, often against vast historical and systemic forces and inequalities, confer twin responsibilities and rights upon us all which are both seizures of power and duties of care for others as guarantors of each others universal human rights and our inherent freedom to create ourselves and how we choose to be human together as we ourselves decide to construct human being, meaning, and value; remembrance and reckoning. 

    For only this offers escape from the Wilderness of Mirrors; lies and illusions, rewritten histories, alternate realities, falsification, dehumanization, and theft of the soul whereby those who would enslave us enact our subjugation.

     So for the legacies of our history from which we must emerge; the truths we must keep and those we must escape in liberation struggle, and if we are very lucky they are not always the same.

     Of our many possible futures I can only say this; all is not yet lost, nor is anything past redemption when the will to resist and to become can be found.

     So I leave you with the words of Alan Moore from V for Vendetta; “Since mankind’s dawn, a handful of oppressors have accepted the responsibility over our lives that we should have accepted for ourselves. By doing so, they took our power. By doing nothing, we gave it away. We’ve seen where their way leads, through camps and wars, towards the slaughterhouse.”

      As written by Kisha James, The Lilly, in Popular Resistance, in an article entitled My Grandfather Founded the National Day of Mourning; “ I’m Carrying On His Legacy.

     Every Year, I March To Tell The True History Of The European Conquest Of The United States.

     On Thursday, millions of families across the United States will celebrate Thanksgiving without giving much thought to the truth behind the heavily mythologized and sanitized story taught in schools and promulgated by institutions. According to this myth, 400 years ago, the Pilgrims were warmly welcomed by the “Indians,” and the two groups came together in friendship to break bread. The “Indians” taught the Pilgrims how to live in the “New World,” setting the stage for the eventual establishment of a great land of liberty and opportunity.

     In the usual narrative, no further mention is made of the Native people, as if they all faded away. By sanitizing the English invasion of Wampanoag homelands, the Thanksgiving myth blatantly disregards the true history of the Pilgrims’ arrival in America and the centuries of violence and oppression that Indigenous peoples have endured as a result of the colonization of the Americas.

    I know the Thanksgiving myth well. For my entire life — 22 years — I have gathered annually with hundreds of other Native Americans and supporters in Plymouth, Mass., on the fourth Thursday in November. We gather and march to challenge this myth, to tell the true history of the European conquest of the United States, to speak about the devastating and continuous impacts of colonization on Indigenous peoples. We gather to declare Thanksgiving a National Day of Mourning for Native Americans.

     The protest was founded in 1970 by my grandfather, Wamsutta Frank James, a member of the Wampanoag Tribe of Gay Head (Aquinnah).

     His story of the founding of the National Day of Mourning goes like this: In 1970, the Commonwealth of Massachusetts invited my grandfather to give a speech at a banquet celebrating the 350th anniversary of the arrival of the Pilgrims. However, when state officials saw an advance copy of his speech, they refused to allow him to give it, labeling it as too “inflammatory.” My grandfather had revealed in his speech the truth about the Pilgrims and their treatment of the Wampanoag, the often-unnamed “Indians” in the Thanksgiving myth.

     He described how the English even before 1620 had brought diseases that caused a “Great Dying” — nearly decimating our people — and how they took Wampanoag people captive, selling them as slaves in Europe.

     The meal Thanksgiving dinner is modeled after is misremembered, too. Although there may have been a meal provided largely by the Wampanoag in 1621, it was not a “thanksgiving”; and the Wampanoag people certainly weren’t invited. Rather, the first official “thanksgiving” has its origins in 1637, when White settlers massacred hundreds of Pequot men, women and children on the banks of the Mystic River in Connecticut.

     Within 50-odd years of the arrival of the Pilgrims and other Europeans, the Wampanoag and many other tribes had been nearly wiped out because of warfare and disease, and had been dispossessed of most of their ancestral lands. Those who resisted were killed and their families enslaved.

     State officials offered to rewrite my grandfather’s speech to ensure that it presented a more sanitized version of history, but he refused to have words put into his mouth and was disinvited from the banquet. His suppressed speech was printed in newspapers across the country.

     But that wasn’t enough: My grandfather and other organizers decided that something had to be done in Plymouth to ensure that the truth about the Pilgrims would be loud and clear.

     On Thanksgiving Day in 1970, Wamsutta Frank James, along with other Native activists and allies, gathered on a hill above Plymouth Rock to speak about the true history of Thanksgiving, the violent history of the European settlement of the United States, the lasting impacts of colonization, and the social and political issues faced by Indigenous peoples.

     They declared it a National Day of Mourning for the millions of Indigenous peoples killed as a result of European colonization. United American Indians of New England (UAINE), the organization that my grandfather founded and led for decades, has continued for more than 50 years to organize National Day of Mourning and challenge the mainstream Thanksgiving narrative, as well as highlight the modern-day struggles faced by Indigenous peoples.

     My grandfather was heroic, and I am proud to be his granddaughter and help lead UAINE as we continue our work. But I also have noticed over the years, and especially while going through old newspaper clippings, that for decades the media often focused solely on the men as spokespeople and organizers of National Day of Mourning.

     Women from the Boston Indian Council and other organizations played a key organizing role from 1970 on. My grandmother Priscilla helped write my grandfather’s 1970 speech. A Native activist, Judy Mendes, was attacked by police dogs in 1972 for wearing an upside-down American flag.

     My mother, Mahtowin Munro, has been a major contributor to the National Day of Mourning and a tireless advocate for Indigenous rights. She and my late father, Moonanum James, became the co-leaders of UAINE in 1994. My twin brother and I learned from a young age how to patiently explain to non-Native peers and adults why we did not celebrate the U.S. Thanksgiving holiday. We are not against giving thanks or family gatherings, I’d tell my classmates; in fact, we are taught to give thanks every day. But we will not give thanks for the invasion of the Pilgrims and other Europeans, nor for the ongoing colonialism and genocide that our communities continue to face.

     Now, I am the co-organizer of the National Day of Mourning along with my mother. I feel a great sense of pride in my family’s role in the Indigenous rights movement and in sharing the truth about Thanksgiving, and I look forward to continuing to raise awareness about contemporary front-line Indigenous issues such as climate justice, the preservation and expansion of tribal sovereignty, and the ongoing demand for the return of our ancestral lands.

     In recent years, my mother and I have worked to ensure that women’s voices, as well as those of Two-Spirit and LGBTQ people, are amplified at the National Day of Mourning. When I look at the Line 3 struggle or at the Indigenous people who were on the streets in Glasgow demanding climate justice, I see Indigenous people of all ages, and especially women and Two-Spirit leaders, as part of a continuum of resistance leading into the future.

     Women have long been at the center of Indigenous activism, and are respected and revered within many traditional Indigenous cultures as leaders and culture-bearers — even if they were silenced by settlers. That’s why it’s crucial for our voices to be amplified within modern-day movements, especially because settler-colonial violence continues to disproportionately impact women, as evidenced by the ongoing epidemic of Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women in the United States and Canada.

     On this National Day of Mourning, I am honored to walk not only in the footsteps of my grandfather, but also in the footsteps of all the Indigenous women who have led the way for my generation.

     We will not stop telling the truth about the Thanksgiving story and what happened to our ancestors.”

    Here is the speech that turned the tide of history for lies in the service of white power to truth which offers equality, diversity, inclusion, remembrance and possibly hope for a Reckoning:

    “THE SUPPRESSED SPEECH OF WAMSUTTA (FRANK B.) JAMES, WAMPANOAG

     To have been delivered at Plymouth, Massachusetts, 1970

     ABOUT THE DOCUMENT: Three hundred fifty years after the Pilgrims began their invasion of the land of the Wampanoag, their “American” descendants planned an anniversary celebration. Still clinging to the white schoolbook myth of friendly relations between their forefathers and the Wampanoag, the anniversary planners thought it would be nice to have an Indian make an appreciative and complimentary speech at their state dinner. Frank James was asked to speak at the celebration. He accepted. The planners, however, asked to see his speech in advance of the occasion, and it turned out that Frank James’ views — based on history rather than mythology — were not what the Pilgrims’ descendants wanted to hear. Frank James refused to deliver a speech written by a public relations person. Frank James did not speak at the anniversary celebration. If he had spoken, this is what he would have said:

     I speak to you as a man — a Wampanoag Man. I am a proud man, proud of my ancestry, my accomplishments won by a strict parental direction (“You must succeed – your face is a different color in this small Cape Cod community!”). I am a product of poverty and discrimination from these two social and economic diseases. I, and my brothers and sisters, have painfully overcome, and to some extent we have earned the respect of our community. We are Indians first – but we are termed “good citizens.” Sometimes we are arrogant but only because society has pressured us to be so.

     It is with mixed emotion that I stand here to share my thoughts. This is a time of celebration for you – celebrating an anniversary of a beginning for the white man in America. A time of looking back, of reflection. It is with a heavy heart that I look back upon what happened to my People.

     Even before the Pilgrims landed it was common practice for explorers to capture Indians, take them to Europe and sell them as slaves for 220 shillings apiece. The Pilgrims had hardly explored the shores of Cape Cod for four days before they had robbed the graves of my ancestors and stolen their corn and beans. Mourt’s Relation describes a searching party of sixteen men. Mourt goes on to say that this party took as much of the Indians’ winter provisions as they were able to carry.

     Massasoit, the great Sachem of the Wampanoag, knew these facts, yet he and his People welcomed and befriended the settlers of the Plymouth Plantation. Perhaps he did this because his Tribe had been depleted by an epidemic. Or his knowledge of the harsh oncoming winter was the reason for his peaceful acceptance of these acts. This action by Massasoit was perhaps our biggest mistake. We, the Wampanoag, welcomed you, the white man, with open arms, little knowing that it was the beginning of the end; that before 50 years were to pass, the Wampanoag would no longer be a free people.

     What happened in those short 50 years? What has happened in the last 300 years?

     History gives us facts and there were atrocities; there were broken promises – and most of these centered around land ownership. Among ourselves we understood that there were boundaries, but never before had we had to deal with fences and stone walls. But the white man had a need to prove his worth by the amount of land that he owned. Only ten years later, when the Puritans came, they treated the Wampanoag with even less kindness in converting the souls of the so-called “savages.” Although the Puritans were harsh to members of their own society, the Indian was pressed between stone slabs and hanged as quickly as any other “witch.”

     And so down through the years there is record after record of Indian lands taken and, in token, reservations set up for him upon which to live. The Indian, having been stripped of his power, could only stand by and watch while the white man took his land and used it for his personal gain. This the Indian could not understand; for to him, land was survival, to farm, to hunt, to be enjoyed. It was not to be abused. We see incident after incident, where the white man sought to tame the “savage” and convert him to the Christian ways of life. The early Pilgrim settlers led the Indian to believe that if he did not behave, they would dig up the ground and unleash the great epidemic again.

     The white man used the Indian’s nautical skills and abilities. They let him be only a seaman — but never a captain. Time and time again, in the white man’s society, we Indians have been termed “low man on the totem pole.”

     Has the Wampanoag really disappeared? There is still an aura of mystery. We know there was an epidemic that took many Indian lives – some Wampanoags moved west and joined the Cherokee and Cheyenne. They were forced to move. Some even went north to Canada! Many Wampanoag put aside their Indian heritage and accepted the white man’s way for their own survival. There are some Wampanoag who do not wish it known they are Indian for social or economic reasons.

     What happened to those Wampanoags who chose to remain and live among the early settlers? What kind of existence did they live as “civilized” people? True, living was not as complex as life today, but they dealt with the confusion and the change. Honesty, trust, concern, pride, and politics wove themselves in and out of their [the Wampanoags’] daily living. Hence, he was termed crafty, cunning, rapacious, and dirty.

     History wants us to believe that the Indian was a savage, illiterate, uncivilized animal. A history that was written by an organized, disciplined people, to expose us as an unorganized and undisciplined entity. Two distinctly different cultures met. One thought they must control life; the other believed life was to be enjoyed, because nature decreed it. Let us remember, the Indian is and was just as human as the white man. The Indian feels pain, gets hurt, and becomes defensive, has dreams, bears tragedy and failure, suffers from loneliness, needs to cry as well as laugh. He, too, is often misunderstood.

     The white man in the presence of the Indian is still mystified by his uncanny ability to make him feel uncomfortable. This may be the image the white man has created of the Indian; his “savageness” has boomeranged and isn’t a mystery; it is fear; fear of the Indian’s temperament!

     High on a hill, overlooking the famed Plymouth Rock, stands the statue of our great Sachem, Massasoit. Massasoit has stood there many years in silence. We the descendants of this great Sachem have been a silent people. The necessity of making a living in this materialistic society of the white man caused us to be silent. Today, I and many of my people are choosing to face the truth. We ARE Indians!

     Although time has drained our culture, and our language is almost extinct, we the Wampanoags still walk the lands of Massachusetts. We may be fragmented, we may be confused. Many years have passed since we have been a people together. Our lands were invaded. We fought as hard to keep our land as you the whites did to take our land away from us. We were conquered, we became the American prisoners of war in many cases, and wards of the United States Government, until only recently.

     Our spirit refuses to die. Yesterday we walked the woodland paths and sandy trails. Today we must walk the macadam highways and roads. We are uniting We’re standing not in our wigwams but in your concrete tent. We stand tall and proud, and before too many moons pass we’ll right the wrongs we have allowed to happen to us.

     We forfeited our country. Our lands have fallen into the hands of the aggressor. We have allowed the white man to keep us on our knees. What has happened cannot be changed, but today we must work towards a more humane America, a more Indian America, where men and nature once again are important; where the Indian values of honor, truth, and brotherhood prevail.

     You the white man are celebrating an anniversary. We the Wampanoags will help you celebrate in the concept of a beginning. It was the beginning of a new life for the Pilgrims. Now, 350 years later it is a beginning of a new determination for the original American: the American Indian.

     There are some factors concerning the Wampanoags and other Indians across this vast nation. We now have 350 years of experience living amongst the white man. We can now speak his language. We can now think as a white man thinks. We can now compete with him for the top jobs. We’re being heard; we are now being listened to. The important point is that along with these necessities of everyday living, we still have the spirit, we still have the unique culture, we still have the will and, most important of all, the determination to remain as Indians. We are determined, and our presence here this evening is living testimony that this is only the beginning of the American Indian, particularly the Wampanoag, to regain the position in this country that is rightfully ours.

Wamsutta

September 10, 1970”

https://time.com/5725168/thanksgiving-history-lesson/

https://popularresistance.org/my-grandfather-founded-the-national-day-of-mourning-to-dispel-the-myth-of-thanksgiving/?fbclid=IwAR3NKhIQCRx2a1jf0p-5qQhh6J4Lv_aLU-eJfKRp2MaYTQvW6i5vK1adID4

http://www.uaine.org/suppressed_speech.htm

https://scoop.upworthy.com/six-native-american-girls-explain-real-history-behind-thanksgiving?fbclid=IwAR2wzyDkBLE9z1SGUEa_uNCmhMaHntTzFGXdeL8A8PSXeHglriRjbHs10Yo

https://www.npr.org/2021/11/25/1059262045/the-mashpee-wampanoag-want-you-to-know-the-full-history-behind-thanksgiving?fbclid=IwAR07Tz4guMmeKrNNEIhm4iK9E4tss6gQhFC_WsaiFYfdwfFp4Mat_5JsQFs

Tribe That Helped Pilgrims Survive First Thanksgiving Regrets It 400 Years Later

https://www.wbur.org/hereandnow/2020/11/25/native-americans-thanksgiving-mourning?fbclid=IwAR1YwfcsntYGqpgGnbxAbyOWWtmDCvqDFB7fLp2cXQimzmSvhVaDHry0YG0

https://popularresistance.org/6-thanksgiving-myths-and-the-wampanoag-side-of-the-story/?fbclid=IwAR08-9JiLkCGyZrcdxPhOh1CONj_58cSqJHMNgggvA8tPxoTOBZWErQKYpc

    And finally, on the principle of Virginia Woolf that “if we cannot tell the truth about ourselves, we cannot tell it about anyone else” here follows my interrogation of my own Native American ancestry; November 2 2023, Native American Heritage Month and the Hidden Costs of Unequal Power in the Falsification and Erasure of History as Authorized Identities: Day of the Dead Part Two, Case of the Phantom Ancestor

      In contemplation of the echoes of our past as multigenerational history and of our ancestors as ghosts who possess us, literally as our DNA and metaphorically as family stories, I find intriguing the effects of falsified and erased history on self-construal and the creation of identity.

     We bear the shape of our stories as a prochronism, a history expressed in out form of how we have made choices in adaptation to change across vast epochs of time, under imposed conditions of struggle.

     How if intrusive forces impose conditions of struggle which interfere with this process as assimilation, silence and erasure, or internalized oppression?

     Here I have a ready example in the case of a phantom Native American ancestor substituted for an erased African one as internalized oppression under conditions of survival and resistance to slavery.

     November is Native American Heritage Month, a subject shaped by vast historical forces of conquest and resistance and the ambiguous and often violent relationships between indigenous peoples and European empires as a ground of struggle which authorizes identity, here I shall begin the questioning of my own historical identity as an example.

     As Virginia Woolf teaches us; “If you do not tell the truth about yourself, you cannot tell it about other people.”

     As I wrote in my post of January 25 2021, The Search for Our Ancestors and a Useful Past: Family Histories as Narrative Constructions of Identity; One of the great riddles of history is untangling the knots of meaning, often shaped by erasures, silences, lies, and misdirections, which arise from the motives of our sources.

     Today is my sister Erin’s birthday; I sent her a greeting which referenced some of the Defining Moments of her personal history as I remember them; “I remember our family’s discovery when you were in seventh grade that you were writing poems and stories in some of Tolkien’s invented languages, had puzzled out his sources and taught yourself a working knowledge of several ancient languages in order to write in them (Old Norse, Old Welsh, Gothic, and Old English), when you gave the Valedictorian Address for the International College at UC Santa Cruz as a graduate in Soviet Foreign Policy and Russian Language,  and then became Pushkin Scholar at Kalinin University near Moscow, when Rolling Stone called your reporting on the Fall of the Soviet Union the best political writing in America, and when we celebrated your six hundredth publication. I have always been glad that in writing and the world of literature you have found your bliss.”

     Among the messages which followed Erin posted a photograph which symbolizes her search for belonging, membership, and connection through the family history of our ancestors, a typically American quest for meaning as many of us share a trauma of historical abandonment and displacement, and  pathologies of identity falsification and disconnectedness from relationships with families and communities, anchorages which in traditional societies nurture wellness and growth. These maladaptive disruptions and obfuscations often result from intentional breaks with the past as liberation on the part of new immigrants who wish to create themselves in no image but their own; but often they are legacies of assimilation, denial, silencing, and erasure by authority as well.

     Our family history claimed Cherokee as the identity of an ancestor who we recently discovered was not a Native American but African, and probably a slave of the Cherokee, the descendants of which the tribe refuses to recognize as tribal members. As the only nonwhite General in the Confederate Army was a Cherokee, this erasure of disturbing history and inconvenient truths is unsurprising; and authorized lies can become truths when there are no counternarratives.

     It is also possible that this ancestor was among the Haitian professional revolutionary soldiers whom an ancestor of mine fought alongside in the War of 1812; an origin which would explain the family faith of my father being Voodoo.

     And an entirely different ancestor of mine became Shawnee by marriage during the American Revolution, making me Shawnee by blood through a many-greats grandmother, this one historically authenticated by the Shawnee tribe though no less complex than my phantom ancestor.

     The truths with which authority is uncomfortable are the ones which are crucial to seizures of power and liberation, and it is to the empty spaces in our narratives of identity, the voices of the silenced and the erased, and to stories which bear the scars of rewritten history, to which we must listen most closely.

     The Four Primary Duties of a Citizen are Question Authority, Mock Authority, Expose Authority, and Challenge Authority.

     Erin has claimed Native American Cherokee as her racial and historical identity since childhood, enthralled with the story of an Indian great grandmother, studied traditional drumming and made pilgrimages to pow wows, learned to the point of obsession what vestiges of Cherokee language and culture she could find, and as an adult went to the tribal archives in search of our ancestor.

     There she hit a wall of silence; no records of such a tribal member exist. Worse, no living speakers of Sa La Gi could be found; when asked where the native language speakers were, the curator of the tribal historical archive pointed to an old vinyl record which held the voices of the last known bearers of an extinct language. All was dust, lost on the Trail of Tears.

     No crime against humanity can be more terrible than the erasure of an entire people and civilization, as the United States of America perpetrated against many indigenous peoples both on our continent and throughout the world as imperial conquest and colonial dominion. Like slavery with which it is interdependent and parallel, colonial imperialism is a central legacy of our history for which we have yet to bring a Reckoning.

     Like many tribes and peoples, the Cherokee had been eaten by our systems of unequal power as human sacrifices, and had no truths or songs of becoming human to offer. Here was an unanswerable tragedy of loss of meaning and belonging, which finds echo in our modern pathology of disconnectedness.

     Or was deliberate obfuscation; what didn’t they want known?

     Like many Americans, Erin pursued our elusive history and ambiguous identity for decades through genealogical research and recently the Pandora’s Box of DNA testing, where she struck gold; her test revealed no discoverable Indian ancestry, but instead an intriguing African heritage. Near her fifth decade of life, suddenly she was no longer Native American and Cherokee, a discovery which must have been a life disruptive event, but one balanced with the gift of an unlooked-for membership and belonging.

    More importantly as regards race and other constructions of identity, who decides? And what happens if those you claim do not in turn claim you?

    Of Non-European DNA; 1.2% sub-Saharan Africa, including: .9% Ghana / Liberia / Ivory Coast / Sierra Leone and .3% Senegambian and Guinean. There is also an Islamic Diaspora component; .7% North Africa, including: .2% Egypt and Levant and .5% broadly West Asia and North Africa, and .5% Central and South Asia including: .2% North India and Pakistan and .3% South India and Sri Lanka. These probably represent two different lines of descent, occurring at between five and eight generations of separation respectively.

     Who were these mysterious and wonderful ancestors, and where was the cherished Native American heritage? Like much of nature, DNA is tricky; each generation is a total randomization of information potential, so you can inherit traits from ancestors anywhere in your history back to the dawn of humankind, in virtually any proportion of traits from any combination thereof.

     On average, you will have a quarter from each grandparent at two generations of separation, and if grandmother only passes on 20%, grandfather must pass on 30%. Sometimes gene sequences are not passed on, so its possible for a known ancestor to be unconfirmable by a DNA test, and for siblings to have differences. I look like our mother, of Austrian family with hazel eyes though sadly I did not inherit her glorious red hair; my sister looks like our father whose black hair fell in tight wringlets around his shoulders.

     At seven generations distance you will probably inherit less than one percent from each of the 128 ancestors in that generation, or be undetectable; the percentages are 12.5 for great grandparents at the third generation from you, 6.25 at the fourth, 3.12 at the fifth, 1.56 at the sixth, and .78 at the seventh.

    DNA tests from cousins can be used with a family tree to triangulate and identify which DNA components came from which ancestors; a female cousin from Jean, one of my father’s two brothers, tests as 70% Northwestern Europe and England/Wales, 19% Ireland and Scotland, 6% Sweden, and 5% Norway. A male cousin from my father’s second brother Dean tests as 1% Benin and Togo and 1% Cameroon, Congo, and Southern Bantu peoples, an approximate match with my sister’s Sub Saharan Africa descent, the remainder being 47% Northwestern Europe and England/Wales, 32% Norway, 11% Ireland & Scotland, and 4% Sweden. My sister’s European DNA tests as 44.7% French & German, and why some of these groups are scientifically identical boggles the imagination, 24.8% British & Irish, 19.5% broadly northwestern European, .2% Scandinavian, and 5.8% southern European, which includes 3.1% Italian and 1.1% Spanish and Portuguese.

    Illustrative of the vagaries of inheritance are the differing proportions among three first cousins, two of whom inherit nothing from a paternal grandmother shared by all three, whose family came from Genoa Italy after the Napoleonic Wars. They were still living in an enormous stilt house in Bayou La Teche built from their ship, guarded by ancient cannon, when my mother visited them in 1962.

     But the best way to discover our origins is through family history, which can be consistent over great epochs of time. So we come to the origin story of the photograph and of my family in America, well documented as Kentucky and Revolutionary War history whose dates can be confirmed precisely by public records, of how a mixed and diverse community of Revolutionary War survivors came to be living in Cape Girardeau, Missouri.

     A direct patrilineal ancestor of mine, Henry, had been captured along with much of his family in the June 21 1780 British assault on Ruddle’s Fort during Bird’s Invasion of Kentucky. One hundred fifty British Regulars of the 8th and 47th Regiments, Detroit Militia, and six cannon of the Royal Regiment of Artillery, with one thousand or more warriors from the Shawnee, Huron, Lenape, and other tribal allies of Britain, compelled the surrender of the fort by cannon fire and a guarantee of status as British prisoners of war offered by Bird, who when the gates were opened broke his word and loosed the native troops to sack the fort and take slaves.

      Over two hundred pioneers were killed in the attack; the remains of twenty of them were later put in iron caskets specially made in Philadelphia and sealed in a cave by a descendant of one of my family’s survivors who had moved back near the site of Ruddle’s Fort, where they remain today. The inscription on the stone archway on a cliff overlooking the Licking River reads, “Please do not disturb the rest of the sleeping dead, A.D. 1845”. I have often wondered what was so terrifying about ones own family that they needed to be entombed in iron and sealed in a cave, and why they are called “the sleeping dead’.

     Near the site of the burial chamber was The Cedars, a stone home rebuilt in 1825 at a cost of $40,000 by Charles Lair, a Ruddles Fort descendant using one of the many variants of our family name. The Cedars burned in 1930; it had fifteen rooms including six bedrooms and two kitchens, a drawing room with a carved mantel, dining room, library, and a hall with a staircase.

     Henry and his brothers George Jr and Peter were listed among the 49 men of the Ruddle’s Fort garrison, and many had their families with them. Survivors were marched with those of other raided forts, four hundred seventy in all, to the heartland of the Shawnee nation in Ohio and to villages of their captors along the way, though Bird still had 300 prisoners with him when he reached his base at Fort Detroit, six hundred miles from Kentucky; some were then sent another 800 miles to Montreal. Britain did not release its prisoners until fifteen years after the war, and many never found their families again.

     Henry was held as a slave and/or prisoner of war until he married into the tribe four years later, making him fully Shawnee under tribal law though he was by modern constructions of race an ethnic European. His story is interwoven with that of his childhood friend and neighbor Daniel Boone, and he was among those with whom Boone discovered a route through the Cumberland Gap and explored Kentucky. I like to imagine Henry as the hero in the film Last of the Mohicans, a fictionalization of the July 14 1776 abduction and subsequent rescue of Boone’s daughter Jemima and two daughters of Colonel Richard Callaway, Elizabeth and Frances, from Chief Hanging Maw of the Overhill Cherokee, leading a mixed band of Cherokee and Shawnee.

    Henry joined George Washington’s army, possibly during the retreat from the Battle of Long Island in the fall of 1776, fought in the Battles of Trenton and Princeton that December, at Brandywine on September 11, 1777, and in the victory at the Second Battle of Saratoga on October 7 1777 which nearly ended the war and brought help from France.

    Among the family members at Ruddle’s Fort were Henry’s two brothers. Peter, who was killed in action, his wife Mary who was captured with their two daughters, of whom Katarina was rescued in 1786 and another is mentioned as married and living in Sandwich Canada in an open letter written by Mary published in the Kentucky Gazette on April 7 1822 to their third child Peter, who vanished after the battle and whose fate is unknown. It reads in part; ”I was taken at Fort Licking commanded by Captain Ruddle, and was brought into upper Canada near Amherstburgh (Fort Malden) where I now live having been 16 years among the Indians. Your eldest sister is now living in Sandwich, but the youngest I could never hear of. Now, my dear son, I would be very glad to see you once more before I die, which I do not think will be long, as I am in a very bad state of health, and have been this great while. I am married to Mr Jacob Miracle (fellow captive from Ruddle’s Fort Jacob Markle) for whom you can enquire.” These are the words of a woman who had been coerced into marrying one of her captors by torture and had a son by him whom she raised with her youngest daughter by a husband who died defending her and their children from capture, two of whom had vanished in the cauldron of war and whose fates she never learned, though her youngest daughter was safe with George Jr’s family.

     Also present were Henry’s second brother George Jr and his wife Margaret, who were captured and later freed, and their children Johnny, George III, Eva, Margaret, and Elizabeth. Johnny, 1776-1853, four years old when captured, was raised with Tecumseh and fought at his side as a British ally through the War of 1812. He married Mary Williams in 1799; they had eight children. Of Margaret we know only that she survived to marry Andrew Sinnolt in 1793. Eva, captured when 14 years old and taken to Canada, ran the gauntlet to win her freedom after six years of enslavement and two years later in 1788 married fellow Ruddles Fort survivor Casper Karsner.

      Elizabeth Lale, 1752-1832, eldest of the children at 28, escaped from the Shawnee capitol city of Piqua on the Great Miami River in Ohio and survived a solo trek of hundreds of miles through the wilderness back to the colonies, then with Washington and Jefferson planned and guided General Clark with 970 soldiers in a raid which liberated many of the other prisoners of war held as slaves at the Battle of Piqua, August 8 1780. With her was Daniel Boone, who had also been held captive at Piqua by Blackfish, Great Chief of the Shawnee, between his capture at the Battle of Blue Licks on February 7, 1778 and his escape six months later in June. In 1783 Elizabeth married John Franks; they had two children.

     And George III, 1773-1853, captured when seven years old, was taken in 1781 to a camp in Cape Girardeau Missouri, base of a Shawnee trade empire from which the entire Mississippi basin could be navigated, becoming the first white pioneer in the region, near the land which in 1793 was granted by Baron Carondelet to the Black Bob Band of the Hathawekela Shawnee.

      Nearby was a Spanish land grant awarded to Andrew Summers for service in the Cape Girardeau Company of the Spanish-American Militia by Governor Lorimier, during a six week campaign in 1803. Andrew Summers had married Elizabeth Ruddle, daughter of Captain George Ruddle and granddaughter of Isaac Ruddle; Andrew and Elizabeth moved with their family to their land in Cape Girardeau after the War of 1812; later her father joined them, as did George Lale III and his wife Louisa Wolff. George and Louisa’s seven children were born there; the old Summers cemetery where George III is buried lies two miles SW of Jackson Missouri.

      Many of my family who survived the Revolutionary War moved to Cape Girardeau where the families of George III Lale and Andrew Summers had established a community of pioneers and former slaves of Indians, apparently both African and European, and the Indians they had fought alongside and against, been captured by and intermarried with. In the end I think they understood each other better than those who had not survived the same collective trauma and shared history.

     Our great grandmother Lilly Summers could claim direct patrilineal descent from the Summers family of Fairfax Virginia, descended from Sir George Summers, who commanded the Sea Venture, one of the ships which brought over the Jamestown colony in 1607, through the first settler in Alexandria, John Summers, who lived from 1687 to 1790 and had at the time of his death four generations of descendants, including some four hundred individuals. Lilly was equally descended from her mother, M.B. Croft who is listed as Dutch which probably means German, and her father John William Summers, of English lineage but designated as Cherokee in family records, which we now know is a fiction describing descent from a probable African slave of the Cherokee.

      It is also possible that this ancestry came into the Summers line from fellow soldiers who served with them during the Battle of New Orleans in the War of 1812, among them free Black militia companies which pre-existed the war, including slaves promised freedom and armed by Andrew Jackson as the first Black company of the American army, a former Spanish colonial Black militia with whom Andrew Summers had served alongside against France, and Major D’Aquin’s Battalion of Free Men of Color from Haiti who were elite professional revolutionaries and soldiers who had once been part of the French army. The origin of this DNA can be no nearer than Lilly’s paternal grandmother, at five generations separation from my sister and I.

    Among the documents of my genealogy and family history research I have a daguerreotype from the 1840’s of Elizabeth Lale, named for her ferocious aunt, daughter of parents from opposing sides of the Revolutionary War, Me Shekin Ta Withe (White Painted Dove) of the Shawnee and Henry Lale.

      Born in 1786, Elizabeth had four sisters and two brothers including my ancestor George Washington Lale, named for the future President with whom Henry crossed the Delaware, and whose battle cry at Trenton in 1776, Victory or Death, Henry adopted as our family motto on our coat of arms.

     My sister and I are the fifth generation from Henry, and sixth from the original immigrant Hans George Lale who arrived with his family in Philadelphia in 1737 on the ship Samuel, sailing from Rotterdam.

     As our family history and myth before coming to America is beyond the subject of my inquiry here, epigenetic trauma and harms of erasure and internalized oppression in the case of a phantom ancestor in the context of relations between indigenous and colonial peoples, I will question this in future essays.

     Here are the generations of our family in America; my parents A.L. Lale and Meta (Austrian), Enoch Abraham Lale and Gertie Noce (Italian), Andrew Jackson Lale 1840-1912 and Lilly Summers, George Washington Lale 1790-1854 and Elizabeth Ross, Henry Lale 1754-1830 and White Painted Dove, and Hans George Lale 1703-1771 and Maria Rudes.

     But its never as simple as that, each of us a link in a chain of being which encompasses the whole span of human history; migrations, wars, and the rise and fall of civilizations. Often our ideas of identity as nationality and ethnicity would have been incomprehensible to the people we claim membership with.

     Take for example my family name; its original form is on Trajan’s Column in Rome, and Cicero wrote his great essay on friendship, Laelius de Amicitia, about an ancestor of mine; Gaius Laelius, whose political and military career as an ally of Scipio Africanus spans the Iberian campaign of 210- 206 BC where he commanded the Roman fleet at New Carthage, the African campaign of 204-202 commanding the cavalry at Zama, enjoyed two terms as praetor of Sicily from 196 and was granted the province of Gaul about 190, and in 160 BC met the historian Polybius in Rome, becoming his eyewitness source for the Second Punic War in The Histories.

     Here I signpost that all of us are connected with the lives of others across vast millennia of history, often in surprising ways. If I accounted my identity and ethnicity as where my ancestors immigrated to America from, I would be German and not Roman, but it would not be the whole truth. We lived in Bavaria for generations until 1586, when we were driven out as werewolves during the start of an eighty year witchburning craze; Martin Luther called us Drachensbraute, Brides of the Dragon. During this time we absorbed many of the pre Christian myths gathered as Grimms Fairytales as family history. And still a half truth, as this tallies only my patrilineal descent, and nothing of the half of myself from my mother, whose stories I will tell another time.

     As events become more remote in time and memory, the boundary between historical and mythopoeic truth becomes ambiguous, interdependent, and co-evolutionary with shared elements which reinforce each other. This is true for narratives of national identity as well as self-construction in the personal and family spheres, in which such processes may be studied in detail. Stories are a way of doing exactly thing; both creating and questioning identity.

     Often with family history we are confronted with discontiguous realms of truth as self-representation and authorized identity, always a ground of struggle as a Rashomon Gate. Such stories are true in the sense that we are their expressions as living myths, but are these narratives we live within and which in turn inhabit us also history?

      Who are we, we Lales?

     Native American, yes, if to a lesser degree and from different sources than we had previously imagined as an authorized identity and historical construction, Shawnee rather than Cherokee and generations more distant. Indian also in the sense of an ancestor from Mughal India over three hundred years ago, great grandmother of Henry the revolutionary, and that complex. Who this grand and mysterious ancestor and source of our Indian and Eqyptian-Levantine DNA was remains an open question, though she claimed to have once been a courtier of the Mughal princess and poet Zeb-un-Nissa which is another story. And in the place of the phantom Cherokee great grandmother, an African voice among the cacophony of multitudes sings of liberation.

      In retrospect, that my father practiced Voodoo as the traditional family faith should have been an enormous clue to his ethnicity, Louisiana Creole of mixed European-African-Native American ancestry. He described himself as Cajun, which means French speaking and is a cultural and historical claim.

     Of my father who is my link to this history of the founding of America as a reborn Rome with all of its shifting ideas of nationality and identity, who in this our Day of the Dead I honor among my ancestors, I say this; he was my high school English, Forensics, and Drama teacher, who taught me fencing and chess and took me to martial arts lessons from the age of nine, gave me a copy of Thus Spake Zarathustra in eighth grade which became a counter text to the Bible for me, and was an underground theatre director who collected luminaries like William S. Burroughs who told fabulous stories after dinner and Edward Albee whose plays he directed while I sat beside them as a child and listened with rapt attention to their conversations. He it was who taught me the principle of action; “Politics is the art of fear”. For one day he was arguably the greatest swordsman in the world, having defeated all the national champions at an international reclassification tournament, and went on to become a coach of  Olympic fencers. He grew up fencing and playing the treasured family Stradivarius, and his favorite story from childhood was how he got his nickname, Gator Bait; grandpa used to tie a rope around his waist and throw him in the swamp to splash about and attract alligators to shoot. One story he never told but his friend Sparrow Hutchins from the Korean War did, was that they had escaped a North Korean POW camp with three others, one of whom died in the breakout, and the four survivors carried the dead soldier all the way back to South Korea. His last years were spent in seclusion flyfishing on a remote wilderness mining claim in Montana.

      Before immigration to America, European and originally Roman, unquestionably; along the way from Gaius Laelius and the conquest of  Carthage to myself, our family once briefly ruled what is now France, Germany, Spain, and the British Isles, in the Gallic Empire of 260-274 A.D. As a university student influenced by classical studies I responded to questions about my historical identity, nationality, and ethnicity in this way; “I am a citizen of the Roman Empire; that it has not existed for fifteen hundred years is irrelevant.”

      I did so once to the wife of a poetry professor, who immediately whipped out a notebook and thereupon began taking notes on our conversations; this was Anne Rice, who based her character of Mael in Queen of the Damned on me as I was in my junior year at university, over forty years ago now, before the summer of 1982 which fixed me on my life course as a hunter of fascists and a member of the Resistance.

      Its always interesting to see ourselves through the eyes of others, and how we are transformed by their different angles of view; such changes and transforms of meaning are the primary field of study in history and literature as songs of identity and a primary ground of revolutionary struggle.

     Anne Rice’s idea of Mael as the caretaker of Those Who Must Be Kept came from a comment of mine about the dead white men whose books created our culture for both good and ill during a discussion of the canon of literature; There are those who must be kept, and those from whom we must escape, and if we are very lucky they are not always the same.

      Who are we, we Americans, we humans? 

      Identity, history, memory, which includes changing constructions of race and nationality; these hinge on questions which often have no objective answers.

     We are as we imagine ourselves to be; the stories we tell about ourselves, to ourselves and to others, and the groups and historical legacies in which we claim membership, and who claim us in return.

    Family history is always a personal myth of identity, though it may also be history. We bear within us thousands of other lives, in multiple states of time across vast gulfs of history, possessed by the ghosts of our ancestors literally as DNA and metaphorically as stories; we are legion.

    As with all history, as narratives of authorized identities and in struggle against them as seizures of power, autonomy and self-ownership, and self-creation, a Rashomon Gate of relative and ambiguous truths, the most important question to ask of a story is this; whose story is this?

Last of the Mohicans film

https://ok.ru/video/967004064409

Henry Louis Gates Jr on the myth of the Indian ancestor in modern Black culture

https://www.theroot.com/high-cheekbones-and-straight-black-hair-1790878167

The Queen of the Damned, by Anne Rice

            references on the origins of my family

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gaius_Laelius

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gaius_Laelius_Sapiens

Laelius, on Friendship and the Dream of Scipio, by Marcus Tullius Cicero), J.G.F. Powell (Editor)

Gallic Empire: Separatism and Continuity in the North-Western Provinces of the Roman Empire, Ad 260-274

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/15616858-gallic-empire

October 12 2025 Frighten the Horses: On the Festival of Loki and Breaking the Silence, Part Two

     You who are fearless, unconquered, and free, who have seized ownership of your identities and made of your lives enactments of beauty and of defiance; know that you shall never stand alone, while we who love liberty yet remain.

    You are not invisible. And to all those who transgress the boundaries of the Forbidden, who in the performance of themselves challenge and defy the authorization of identities including those of sex and gender, and by their representation champion the silenced and the erased as heroic figures of autonomy and liberation, I salute you.

     On this second day of the Festival of Loki inclusive of Coming Out Day as Breaking the Silence, we celebrate Transgression of Authorized Identities and the Seizure of Ownership of Ourselves and Our Possibilities of Becoming Human.

    Always there remains the struggle between the masks that others make for us and those we make for ourselves. This is the first revolution in which we all must fight.

    Go ahead; frighten the horses.

     As I wrote in my post of June 30 2019, Truths Written in our Flesh: Freedom as the Struggle for Ownership of Identity; Here is a marvelous set of nested boxes of ideas regarding identity, communication and language, history and memory, psychology and transhistoric and epigenetic trauma, politics and aesthetics, the necessity of pride and self-ownership and the art of being human. 

     Writing in The Paris Review of the art and meaning of David Wojnarowicz, Patrick Nation interrogates the borders of self and other in an inspired meditation on the use of pronouns, the we and I, in both essays and persons as self-referential systems.

     His words become a labyrinth, an echo of values which are immanent in nature like the spirals of a seashell, truths written in our flesh awaiting our discovery, an evocation of a virtual third realm and interface between the masks that others make for us and those we make for ourselves, as two essences of perfume will create together a new and prodigal scent.

     It is precisely this uniqueness and surprise, and the transitory nature of experience, which confers value on the moments of our lives and on art as a motive force and a fulcrum of our passion and our vision.

     Art, like one’s persona, is not an object but an experience; not a fixed quality but an adaptive and fluid process in motion and subject to change.

    Gender and sexual personae are a performance, both a struggle for ownership of identity between self and other and an event occurring in the free space of play between these bounded realms. 

     I myself have been lucky to have found in my childhood friend and life partner Dolly, whom I bonded with the moment my mother brought me home from the hospital days after being born and put me in her arms as she uttered the magic spell “Can I keep him?”, someone to share that liminal space of imaginal and transformative power with me, with whom to explore the limitless possibilities of becoming human. We saw each other, and when this is true nothing else matters.

      May all of us find the gaze of the other in which our truths are realized by the redemptive and liberating powers of love, joy in our uniqueness and the journey to become human, and hold such space for others as guarantors of each other’s humanity.

     And here following are my three part series of posts regarding the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator personality test as a tool of discovery of one’s own identity:

     June 13 2021, Masquerade: Identities of Sex and Gender as Culture, Ethnicity, and Performance; A friend has written a brilliant, insightful, and very emotionally charged essay on the subject of queer identity, finding ones tribe, and being ostracized by ones role models due to the fracture and balkanization of identities of sex and gender in queer culture, consequences of the imposed conditions of struggle against systems of oppression. To be a Painted Bird is a tragedy on the scale of a private Holocaust, and some of this seems to me to be a result of increasing specialization, fragmentation, and siloing of LGBT subcultures as a negative tribalization or struggle to build community as exclusivity, and also a shocking failure of solidarity. And it is a special case of a general condition, like the ideological fracture which broke the power of the Left to oppose fascism a century ago. If those who are marginalized by normative society do not stand united, surely they will become vulnerable to silencing and erasure.

      I am not a member of this queer LGBTcommunity, and can not speak from within this space, nor from lived experience, nor have I studied as a subject of scholarship what seem to be a highly diverse, nuanced, and complex set of authorized identities, as evidenced by the curious and to myself often surprising and outre tribal identities offered by a cursory examination of instruments of identity and community native to this space of play such as Grinder, so am utterly clueless about how such representations and choices are negotiated. I suspect this is true for many potential allies who would stand with any human who stands alone, but may not know how to do so, or recognize when someone is in pain or needs help.

     Sadly, it may be also be true for those whose awareness of desire, sexual orientation, and identities of sex and gender are emerging, and who may feel confusion, ambiguity, and dislocation not as freedom and joy but as crisis and trauma, especially those who become aware of differences and chasms of meaning between themselves and others, and must cope with isolation and disconnectedness at best and shame, unworthiness, and ostracism at worst as consequences of negotiating identities in a social context of judgement, ridicule, and massively unequal power.

      How many of us are imprisoned still in oubliettes of exile, silencing, and erasure or fed into fiendish machines of assimilation, marginalized and broken down into the raw material of power for authority and hegemonic elites, like Oscar Wilde obliviated and consumed for daring to embrace his uniqueness?

      The universal human struggle for autonomy here collides disastrously with authorized identities and a Patriarchal-Theocratic value system which reinforces heteronormative narratives as submission to authority, in parallel with the need for belonging and membership in the quest to find a tribe within a society riven with hierarchies of exclusionary otherness, wherein our negotiations between self and others are mediated by elite hegemonic forces of dominion, whose lies and illusions, like a wilderness of funhouse mirrors, can falsify and steal our souls.

      Such are the imposed conditions of revolutionary struggle under theocratic-patriarchal systems of oppression. And as our possibilities of becoming human are limited only by our imagination, and by belonging as a means of exchange, how can we discover our true and best selves?

     The awakening to total freedom as a self created being can be both wonderful and terrible. How do we safeguard that freedom? What does our duty of care for each other require of us as mentors and stewards for each other’s limitless possibilities of becoming human?

     So I ask all of you for guidance in this matter, for whom celebrations such as Coming Out Day and Pride Month are personal and intimate, part of your story and a celebration of survival and resilience, and not merely an aspect of Resistance in general, defiance of authority, and transgression of the Forbidden as it is for me as an agent of Chaos and a revolutionary; beyond amplifying your voices and standing in solidarity when called on for help, how can we help you champion each other?

     We also have a need for another kind of work, one whose intention is to provide guidance in finding ones tribe among the full spectrum of multilayered and wonderfully diverse smorgasboard of choices available in our society now, chess pieces in a great game of human being, meaning, and value, and reveals and opens the limitless possibilities of becoming human and discovering communities of wellbeing and mutual aid which can foster such a journey of introspection for the young and curious and for their parents and teachers as gatekeepers of belonging, without authorizing a prescriptive set of identities.

     Identity is not a static frame into which one must fit oneself regardless of our pluralities; we are all pluralities, we are all in processes of change and growth, and our nature, to paraphrase Freud’s delightfully wicked phrase “polymorphously perverse”, obeys but one law; anything goes.

      Are we not both Harley Quinn and the Joker, Beauty and the Beast, bound together in one flesh?

      Does the range of choices act as an intrinsic limit on autonomy? If so the task of becoming human involves chaos, fracture and disruption, destruction and re-creation, reimagination and transformation, as I believe; the violation of normalities and transgression of boundaries of the Forbidden to free us of the tyranny of other people’s ideas of virtue and of authorized identities, to create limitless possibilities of becoming human as seizures of power.

     Order appropriates; Chaos autonomizes. As Guillermo del Toro wrote in Carnival Row;” Chaos is the great hope of the powerless”.      

    Audubon publishes a wonderful field guide to birds, which usefully describes their glorious and beautiful differences and uniqueness’s without suggesting it is better to be a falcon than a dove; each have a niche in the system of life, as do we all. We need a version for humans; Queer Tribes, and How to Find Yours.

     This raises the question of how we discover who we want to become. If I were designing an instrument for this purpose in terms of sexual orientation, I would base the process not on prescriptive authorization of identities like the Sorting Hat in Harry Potter, “Man and Woman He created them” as the Bible imagines it, which involves both submission to authority and overdetermination as a limiting factor as the great question of being remains Who Chooses, but on descriptive taxonomy and a tool with which I am very familiar, the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, which could easily be modified for the discovery of identities of sex and gender.  

     Our masquerade of identities of sex and gender as culture, ethnicity, and performance can be played as a game or as live action theatre as well as enacted as transformation magic or guerilla theatre as political action; here I offer you a ritual act of Chaos and Transformation which is useful in disrupting order and randomizing the masks we wear. Write down three masculine and three feminine characters you know well enough to perform, roll a six sided dice to find today’s persona, and live as that character until tomorrow, when you can become someone entirely different. And regardless of who you are today, you will have five more selves in reserve.

    Such constructions of identity as performance flow from the nature of self as a development of the persona or Greek theatrical mask characters speak through; a prochronism or history expressed in our form of how we solved problems in adaptation, like the shell of a fantastic sea creature.

     Always there remains the struggle between the masks that others make for us and those we make for ourselves; this is the first revolution in which we all must fight, the struggle to create ourselves.

     And what of the underlying forces of love and desire from which such structures and figures are made?

    Milan Kundera, paraphrasing Plato in Phaidos, wrote; “Love is the longing for the half of ourselves we have lost”. To this I would add a conditional which directs us to the function of love in the construction of identity; love also reveals us to ourselves, for we choose those we love as figures of who we wish to become.

     We choose those we love and share our lives with in part because they represent potential selves and qualities we aspire to realize within ourselves, as informing and motivating sources and shaping forces. This is what it means to become human, and why interdependence is at the heart of becoming human. Our values are revealed in our circle of partners and friends.

      Love is dangerous because it is free, uncontrollable, wild. Love redeems, transforms, and reimagines; love totalizes and transcends. Love like you have laughed in the face of your executioners, because that is exactly what it is.

     As I once said to Jean Genet, it is a poor man who loves nothing beyond reason, and has no pleasures worth dying for.

    When you begin to question the boundary and interface between normality as authorized identity and transgression as seizure of power, between subjugation and liberty, the grotesque and the beautiful, idealizations of masculinity and femininity, of madness and vision, and to challenge the tyranny of other people’s ideas of virtue, you enter my world, the place of unknowns and the limitless possibilities of becoming human, marked Here Be Dragons on our maps of human being, meaning, and value.

     Welcome to freedom and its wonders and terrors; to reimagination, transformation, and discovery. May the new truths you forge bring you joy.

     As I wrote in my post of July 17 2021, A Sorting Hat of One’s Own: A General Theory of Identities of Sex and Gender as Processes and Functions of Personality;  In my previous post in this series of June 13 2021, Masquerade: Identities of Sex and Gender as Culture, Ethnicity, and Performance, I posed a question of how we discover who we want to become. As a joke I imagined a field guide and called it Queer Tribes, and How to Find Yours.

    As Mary Oliver framed the question; “What is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”

    In the following paragraph I speculated about what such a work might involve; If I were designing an instrument for this purpose in terms of sexual orientation and identities of sex and gender, I would base the process not on any precut selection of labels or prescriptive authorization of identities like the Sorting Hat in Harry Potter, which involves both submission to authority and overdetermination as a limiting factor, but on descriptive taxonomy and a tool with which I am very familiar, the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, which could easily be modified for the discovery of identities of sex and gender.

     How does that work? With nothing more than a change of emphasis in terms, though I’m sure diagnostic questions specific to sexual orientation and desire can be written for the purposes of finding oneself, viable partners, and communities where one belongs.

     We must first define what we mean when we speak of identities of sex and gender. By gender I mean who you are; as identity this means a confluence of holistic and interdependent and evolving relations between all four categories of being, which include nature, thinking, feeling, and nurture, and as expression, social, cultural, and historical constructions of values and ideals of masculine and feminine beauty and gender roles as performances. By sex I mean biology including evolutionary influences, genetics, and hormones, and by sexual orientation I mean whom and what one desires, which can be influenced by both sex and gender but is determined by neither, for this is nondeterminative and must be chosen. Such identities are complex, layered, nuanced, and ambiguous, shifting and protean, as our identities of sex and gender shape each other as adaptive processes of change.

      As I’ve often said, this is a primary ground of struggle, of life, growth, adaptation, and individuation, and the creation of ourselves as autonomous beings in revolution against authority and the tyranny of other people’s ideas of virtue and beauty, and idealizations of masculinity and femininity.

     Always there remains the struggle between the masks that others make for us and those we make for ourselves. This is the first revolution in which we all must fight; the seizure of power over the ownership of ourselves.

     Let us answer the question of who we are with grandeur and the frightening of the horses; let us claim, I am a Bringer of Chaos and Transformation, I am a fulcrum of change, and like Napoleon declare I am the Revolution. And with Loki the Trickster let us say; “I am burdened with a glorious purpose.”

     If we are to map the topologies of identities of sex and gender as possibilities of human being, meaning, and value, we must consider as distinct classes the social and interpersonal sphere of action and relations or gender expression and in a limited sense sexual behavior, what one does, as opposed to sexual orientation, what one wants, which include as motivating, informing, and shaping forces authorized gender identities and role models offered us by history, society, and culture, which are arbitrary and ephemeral, and those of the intrapersonal, our processes of thinking and feeling, which arise from within us rather than being imposed from without, but which are then shaped and conditioned by role modeling and how we are treated, especially by our parents.

I say again, gender identity is an artifact of being influenced by all four levels of self.

     These dyadic forces of sex and gender function interdependently to create and shape the highly relational and context-determined thing we call our selves; a dance of potentialities as feminine anima and masculine animus, and our persona or the masks we wear.

     For such a mapping system and wayfinding compass, I turn first to Jung’s magisterial work Psychological Types, and to the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator which was developed from it. It is a precision tool, which allows us to locate ourselves and others through our constellations of traits along the infinite Moebius Loop of human possibilities of sex and gender with predictive and explanatory power in terms of our relationships in romance, friendships, and work.

     By direct word substitution of descriptors in the Jungian personality quadrants, we find a useful general theory of sexual and gender identity as a function of the interfaces between the bounded realms of biological determinants including neurotransmitters and epigenetic or multigenerational historic legacies, and historical, cultural, and sociopolitical contexts which balances nature and nurture.

     We begin at birth with sexual identity, which stands outside the system of personality but influences it, primarily through relative prenatal exposure to testosterone and estrogen in the intrapersonal sphere, which we can broadly think of as gender identity with awareness that identity is complex and nondeterminative, and dopamine and serotonin in the interpersonal sphere of gender performance. Everyone has degrees of both masculinity and femininity, just as a whole person possesses both a conscious self and an unconscious self which is of the opposite gender, our animus and anima. These anima-animus relations and processes are found at all four levels of being, of which we may or may not be aware and so have limited volitional control of or personal responsibility for, meaning that we cannot simply choose to be other than we are. 

     Always there remains the struggle between the stories others tell about us and those we tell about ourselves, and between those truths immanent in nature and written in our flesh and those we ourselves create.

     This means that any relationship is quadratic and includes our own relationship with our unconscious which is figuratively of the opposite gender from our conscious selves, our partner’s internal relations, our conscious relationship with our partner’s waking self, and our submerged unconscious relations of which we are not aware but which shape our conscious ones. Simple, no?

     And we wonder why relationships can be laden with issues, when the answer is simple; relationships are complex because we are.

      Jung’s primary layer of personality, mind, maps directly onto this dyadic anima-animus relation, and is a measure of masculinity or independent self construal, as Extroversion which includes dominance and assertiveness, and femininity or interdependent self construal, as Introversion or nurturance.

     Masculine traits of Extroversion include Initiating, Active, Expressive, Gregarious, and Enthusiastic; the first two related to dominance and assertiveness, and the last three components of sociability.

      Feminine traits of Introversion include Receiving, Contained, Intimate, Reflective, and Quiet.

      This fundamental dichotomy is inborn and manifests in infants as preferences for attention, interests, and play; in boys for things and how they work as objects and motion, and in girls for human facial expressions and imaginative doll play.

     Jung’s second layer of personality and the next to develop as a childhood stage of growth, energy, describes how we conceptualize the world and process information, a balance of feminine Intuitive and masculine Observant traits.

     Feminine Intuition involves holistic thinking, qualitative analytics, questions, wonder, and imagination; linguistic-emotional-interpersonal cognition.

     Masculine Observation involves part to whole reasoning, quantitative analysis, and how things work; logical-mathematical-mechanical cognition.

    Jung’s third layer of personality, nature, describes how we make decisions and process emotions; here we have traits shaped most directly by hormonal factors, though hormones influence all three of our first layers of personality as developmental stages. Otherwise gender identity would be a function of this third layer, when it is a coevolutionary product of all four successive layers of personality. This area measures our Thinking, influenced by testosterone or masculinity, and our Feeling, influenced by estrogen or femininity.

     Masculine Thinking traits influenced by testosterone include: decisive, focused, direct, logical-analytical, strategic thinkers, bold, competitive, excel at rule bound systems such as machines, math, and music.

     Feminine Feeling traits influenced by estrogen include: holistic and contextual thinking, imaginative, superior at verbal skills and executive social skills like reading expressions, posture, gestures, and tone of voice; also nurturing, sympathetic, intuitive, and emotionally expressive. 

     In the fourth layer of personality, that of gender performance and expression or one’s strategic and tactical approach to life, relationships, and work; here we have traits shaped by acculturation and historical factors. This area measures our balance of structure versus spontaneity; our Perceiving, influenced by dopamine and corresponding to masculinity, and our Judging, influenced by serotonin and corresponding to femininity.

     Masculine Perceiving or Prospecting traits influenced by dopamine include: seeking novelty, risk taking, spontaneity, curiosity, creativity, mental flexibility, optimism.

     Feminine Judging traits influenced by serotonin include: calm, social, cautious, persistent, loyal, orderly, fond of rules and facts.

     The Myers-Briggs Type Indicator test gives us four categories of personality types, of four types each.

    The Analyst Group contains the Architect (INTJ), Logician (INTP), Commander (ENTJ), and Debater (ENTP) types.

     The Diplomat Group contains the Advocate (INFJ), Mediator (INFP), Protagonist (ENFJ), and Campaigner (ENFP) types.

     The Sentinel Group contains the Logistician (ISTJ), Defender (ISFJ), Executive (ESTJ), and Consul (ESFJ) types.

     The Explorer Group contains the Virtuoso (ISTP), Adventurer (ISFP), Entrepreneur (ESTP), and Entertainer (ESFP) types.

     What does this look like in the context of real people? Here I will use myself as an example and case, for as written by Virginia Woolf; “If you cannot tell the truth about yourself, you cannot tell it about other people.”

      I test as an ENFP or Campaigner; in my most primal layer of personality I am 65% Extrovert over 35% Introvert. This manifests in me as a love of risk and adventure, and a natural leadership and people-centeredness which has been useful in my professional career as a teacher and counselor. I instinctively and reflexively seek to dominate and seize power in any situation, even when consciously trying to keep myself in check as Extroversion favors competition over cooperation though my ideology construes this as a negative. My Extroversion also influences my idea of life as a game of transgression and chaos, to be played with creative freedom, improvisation, fearlessness, and a gourmet aesthetics which valorizes both the monstrous and the beautiful; you can count on me to ignore authority, change the rules of any game, delight in the violation of norms, and to play our games of human being, meaning, and value without any boundaries whatever.

     I remain the boy who upon hearing the term Original Sin for the first time from a friend, said; “I’ll think of some new ones we can play, games of our very own.”

     In the layer of Energy, how we direct our thoughts and passions, I am 83% Intuitive over 17% Observant, a balance toward femininity. This means that I reason holistically and infer hidden relationships and patterns as a strength, that interpretation and qualitative analysis comes more easily than quantitative or mechanical tasks, and that I think outside the box and draw outside the lines, which makes me good at solving unknowns. On a team I’m the one you want as the fire brigade handling unforeseen issues, so long as I have a good forensic investigator for failure reconstruction and analysis at my right and a staff officer to handle logistics and planning at my left. I’m a natural at intelligence and policy functions, putting puzzles together and guessing what the picture they make could mean and how to use it to achieve goals.

     In the third layer of Nature, how we make decisions and process emotions, I am 92% Feeling and only 8% Thinking. This is an extreme score, statistically anomalous and my strongest personality trait; a preference for empathy and ungoverned passion. As an influence in relationships it makes me the caretaker of partnerships, and professionally I’m a natural at quickly reading people and profiling motives and intentions, sifting for truth, and assessing character.

     In the fourth layer of personality, that of Tactics or one’s approach to life and work, I am 57% Prospecting and 43% Judging. This means my masculine/feminine balance in terms of gender performance and roles, the most outwardly visible part of oneself and the layer of being others interact with most often, is toward masculinity, and informs how I read to others as a system of signs.

     To restate how I interpret my personality; both my intrapersonal gender identity and interpersonal gender performance as an observable external cueing system, the mask I wear in the social performance of myself, in my case controlled by my Extroversion and Prospecting traits in the first and fourth layers of personality, is masculine or animus, which makes my unconscious self, always a mirror image, feminine or anima, and comprised of the layers of personality which are internal and hidden, as reflected in my Intuitive and Feeling traits. I regard this as an achievement of integration and the work of finding balance and wholeness, though I am an extreme case as most people are around 50/50 or differ only marginally in both realms of being. Because my masculine score is extreme in the conscious areas, so my unconscious scores extremely feminine. These two pairs of traits face Janus like as sides of a whole person in dynamic balance, and together form a quadratic personality type which can take 16 forms, which reflect and organize relative masculinity and femininity as adaptive processes.

     As to type compatibility and the use of the MBTI system in sifting for partners, in general opposites attract in the first and fourth layers of personality, Introverts with Extroverts and Prospectors with Judges, dyadic masculine-feminine pairs and aspects of personality revealed in gender performance, and like aligns with or has no influence in the second and third layers, which are mainly concealed from public view and correspond to the unconscious.

     The surfaces of ourselves and the masks we wear in our dances with others are but images and reflections moving atop a vast and bottomless sea, within whose chasms of darkness we are all interconnected.

      And none of this tells you anything about the interdependent realm of love and desire as informing and motivating sources and shaping forces which both act on us as their subject and through us as their figures and agents, though it tells us everything we need to know about what we would be like as a romantic partner, friend, colleague at work or comrade in action. A human being is a work of art shaped by such forces of our nature as well as history, like stone sculpted by the action of wind and water.

      Insightful work in the influence of neurotransmitters on personality has been pioneered by Dr. Helen Fisher, a biological anthropologist who built chemistry.com’s matching systems from her studies. Her schema, which modernizes and maps directly onto the Jungian theory of personality as I have described, dispenses with Jung’s first two categories, the Introvert/Extrovert primary layer and the Intuitive/Observant secondary layer, and yields a simple dominant and recessive binary personality type rather than the 16 types in the Myers-Briggs scale. This is why I am inclined to incorporate Fisher’s studies of hormone and neurotransmitter biochemistry into the Jungian model of personality and use her test as a quick reference tool in addition to the MBTI rather than a replacement; the Fisher model lacks predictive power because it is flawed. Personality is a developmental process which unfolds in stages as a child becomes a person, and if you ignore this and the first two stages of growth the results become unreliable. The Fisher model can be a useful tool for matching with partners using the test and essay together, if you don’t take it too seriously, but for a tool of self discovery I turn to the Myers-Briggs test.

     Her Word Type study asked people to describe themselves in an essay for Chemistry.com and found the ten most common words each type used.

      Explorers, Jung’s masculine Perceivers, used adventure most often, with the other ten in descending order being; venture, spontaneous, energy, new, fun, traveling, outgoing, passion, and active.

     Builders, Jung’s feminine Judges, used family most often, then honesty, caring, moral, respect, loyal, trust, values, loving, and trustworthy.

     Negotiators, Jung’s feminine Feelers, used passion most often, then real, heart, kind, sensitive, reader, sweet, learn, random, and empathetic.

     Directors, Jung’s masculine Thinkers, used intelligent most often, then intellectual, debate, geek, nerd, ambition, driven, politics, challenging, and real.

     Here you can take the Fisher Personality Type Test; read each statement and record the answer that best applies to you.  Acronyms are Strongly Disagree, Disagree, Agree, Strongly Agree.

Scale 1

1. I find unpredictable situations exhilarating.

2. I do things on the spur of the moment.

3. I get bored when I have to do the same familiar things.

4. I have a very wide range of interests.

5. I am more optimistic than most people.

6.I am more creative than most people.

7. I am always looking for new experiences.

8.I am always doing new things.

9. I am more enthusiastic than most people.

10. I am willing to take risks to do what I want to do.

11. I get restless if I have to stay home for any length of time.

12.My friends would say I am very curious.

13. I have more energy than most people.

14. On my time off, I like to be free to do whatever looks fun.

Total

Scale 2

1.I think consistent routines keep life orderly and relaxing.

2. I consider and reconsider every option thoroughly before making a plan.

3. People should behave according to established standards of proper conduct.

4. I enjoy planning way ahead.

5. In general, I think it is important to follow rules.

6. Taking care of my possessions is a high priority for me.

7. My friends and family would say I have traditional values.

8. I tend to be meticulous in my duties.

9. I tend to be cautious, but not fearful.

10. People should behave in ways that are morally correct.

11. It is important to respect authority.

12. I would rather have loyal friends than interesting friends.

13. Long established customs need to be respected and preserved.

14. I like to work in a straightforward path toward completing the task.

Total

Scale 3

1. I understand complex machines easily.

2. I enjoy competitive conversations.

3. I am intrigued by rules and patterns that govern systems.

4. I am more analytical and logical than most people.

5. I pursue intellectual topics thoroughly and regularly.

6. I am able to solve problems without letting emotion get in the way.

7. I like to figure out how things work.

8. I am tough-minded.

9. Debating is a good way to match my wits with others.

10. I have no trouble making a choice, even when several alternatives seem equally good at first.

11. When I buy a new machine (like a camera, computer, or car) I want to know all of its technical features.

12. I like to avoid the nuances and say exactly what I mean.

13. I think it is important to be direct.

14. When making a decision, I like to stick to the facts rather than be swayed by people’s feelings.

Total

Scale 4

1. I like to get to know my friends deepest needs and feelings.

2. I highly value deep emotional intimacy in my relationships.

3. Regardless of what is logical, I generally listen to my heart when making important decisions.

4. I frequently catch myself daydreaming.

5. I can change my mind easily.

6. After watching an emotional film, I often still feel moved by it several hours later.

7. I vividly imagine both wonderful and horrible things happening to me.

8. I am very sensitive to people’s feelings and needs.

9. I often find myself getting lost in my thoughts during the day.

10.I feel emotions more deeply than most people.

11. I have a vivid imagination.

12. When I wake up from a vivid dream, it takes me a few seconds to return to reality.

13. When reading, I enjoy it when a writer takes a sidetrack to say something beautiful or meaningful.

14. I am very empathetic.

Scoring the test

0 for each SD, 1 for each D, 2 points for each A and three for SA. Add each section separately.

Scale 1 measures Masculinity as Dominance, the degree to which you are butch or an Explorer based on your Perceiving traits.

Scale 2 measures Femininity as Submissiveness, Judging traits or the degree to which you align with Fisher’s Builder personality type.

Scale 3 measures Masculinity as logical-mathematical-mechanical cognition, Thinking quadrant traits or what Fisher calls the Director personality type.

Scale 4 measures Femininity as linguistic-emotional-interpersonal cognition or Feeling traits on the Myers-Briggs scale which Fisher calls the Negotiator personality type.

The two top scores are your primary and secondary traits.

      For further study of the idea of gender, I refer you to the works of Judith Butler; including Gender Trouble: Feminism and the Subversion of Identity, Undoing Gender, and Bodies That Matter: On the Discursive Limits of Sex, and to those of Anne Fausto-Sterling; Sexing the Body: Gender Politics and the Construction of Sexuality, and Myths Of Gender: Biological Theories About Women And Men.

     The nature versus nurture debate can be explored in the oppositional works of Delusions of Gender: How Our Minds, Society, and Neurosexism Create Difference by Cordelia Fine, and Human Diversity: Gender, Race, Class, and Genes by Charles Murray.

     In histories, Gods of the Upper Air: How a Circle of Renegade Anthropologists Reinvented Race, Sex, and Gender in the Twentieth Century,

by Charles King.

     In biography, Monsieur d’Eon Is a Woman: A Tale of Political Intrigue and Sexual Masquerade by Gary Kates.

     In fiction, we have Virginia Woolf’s Orlando, Ursula K. Le Guin’s The Left Hand of Darkness, Joseph Cassara’s House of the Impossible Beauties, Jordy Rosenberg’s Confession of the Fox, and Time Is the Thing a Body Moves Through, by T. Fleischmann.

       As I wrote in my post of July 18 2021, Of Love and Desire as Forces of Autonomy and Liberation; In my previous journal entry of yesterday I provided a brief outline of the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator test as a tool of discovery and description of the processes of masculinity and femininity as interdependent aspects of a whole personality, in the context of gender identity and performance.

      So we come to the final category of our interest here, sexual orientation. The most important thing to know about human sexuality as a dimension of experience is that it involves the whole person. Whereas a personality test can tell you who you are, and who others are or wish to represent themselves as, it cannot tell you who or what you desire. Desire remains ambiguous, and that is its great power as a force of liberation and autonomy. 

     The second is that desire is uncontrollable as the tides, an inherently anarchic and chaotic force of nature which is nonvolitional and for which we cannot be held responsible, unlike our actions toward others.

    In this I speak to you of truths which are immanent in nature and written in our flesh; we must claim our truths and celebrate what Walt Whitman called the songs of ourselves as victorious seizures of power, freedom, and joy.

     Love and desire are innate capacities of reimagination and transformative rebirth, which like Dorothy’s magic ruby slippers cannot be taken from us and bear the power to send us home to our heart’s desire, to restore to us the self  which is truly ours.

      My flesh is a map of private holocausts, written with silent screams, nameless loves, causes lost and won, ephemeral signs of our secret histories and the lies and illusions which capture and distort our images in a wilderness of mirrors and the pathologies of our falsification and disconnectedness.

     We have but one escape from the limits of our flesh and the flags of our skin; and this is love. In love we transcend ourselves and become exalted; through the redemptive power of love we may heal the flaws of our humanity and the brokenness of the world.

     As I wrote in my post of March 13 2021, A Year of Quarantine in Retrospect;

The quality of our humanity is not fixed, but always in motion, like the turbulent systems da Vinci studied in his fountain and which later with new mathematics came to be described as chaos theory. Identity is a process which is fluid, and our emotions are instruments with which it creates itself.

      We create ourselves over time, through our history of defining moments; human being is a prochronism, a history expressed in our form of how we solved problems of adaptation. What we call our self or our soul is no different in kind from the exoskeleton of an insect or the shell of a sea creature.

     And we create ourselves through our interdependence with others, our relationships, friends, families, communities, and the systems of signs thereof. 

     Human being has in this scheme three orders of relationships; persona, history, and interdependence, and all of it is in motion, dynamic and inherently unstable.

     Impermanence is the defining quality of nature and the material universe; so also is the controlling metaphor and condition of human nature, being, and identity our ephemeral, transitory, and protean forms. Nature is a mirror which reflects itself, and like the Hobgoblin’ fragmented mirror in Hans Christian Andersen’s The Snow Queen, reveals endless possibilities of becoming human; the inward and outward halves of the cosmos also create and define each other in mutual coevolution, like Escher’s Drawing Hands.

    Humans are naturally polyamorous and are enculturated to be otherwise; we are shaped by sociohistorical forces in the sphere of gender identity and sexual orientation to deny our true nature. It is normality which is deviant, and from which misogyny, the system of Patriarchy, and other destructive illnesses of the spirit arise; fear weaponized in service to power, fear and of otherness but also of nature and ourselves. Here is the true origin of evil as the social use of force and violence in self-hatred.

     As Goethe wrote in Faust; “Let us extend our lives through our bodies in all directions possible”.

     For me the origin of human evil is in unequal relationships and the Wagnerian Ring of fear, power, and force, pathologies of violence and dominion which as with the figure of Alberich the dwarf require the renunciation of love as their price; not in the violation of taboos, the transgression of the Forbidden, or the defiance of Authority, three things I count as sacred acts in pursuit of the truth of ourselves, but in the systemic and structural injustices and inequalities of hegemonic elites, their lies and illusions which falsify us and steal our souls, and the state tyranny and terror of brutal force and control which we must resist and refuse to submit to, that we may become autonomous and free as self- created and self-owned beings; for power and force are meaningless when met with disobedience, and in the moment of our refusal to submit to authority we become Unconquered and free. 

     I say again; human sexual orientation is not a spectrum with endpoint limits, but a Moebius Loop of infinite possibilities, and we are born and exist by nature everywhere along it at once. All else is limitation and control imposed artificially as dominion, captivity, and falsification by authorized identities, or a seizure of power and self-ownership in revolutionary struggle against such narratives, hierarchies, and divisions.

     Writing of love in Letters to Milena, Franz Kafka gives us this witness; “I wish the world were ending tomorrow. Then I could take the next train, arrive at your door in Vienna, and say, Come with me, Milena. We are going to love each other without scruples or fear or restraint. Because the world is ending tomorrow.

    Perhaps we don’t love unreasonably because we think we have time, or have to reckon with time. But what if we don’t have time? Or what if time, as we know it, is irrelevant? Ah, if only the world were ending tomorrow. We could help each other very much.”

     Here is the true origin of Nietzsche’s idea of Eternal Return as a test and praxis of Authenticity, and it recalls to me something I once said to Jean Genet. He had sat down at my table after my friends and I made our morning race against death, crossing a sniper alley to reach a cafe in Beirut that had the best strawberry crepes in the world.

     “I’m told you do this every day, steal breakfast from death.”

     To which I replied, “It’s a poor man who loves nothing beyond reason, and has no pleasures worth dying for.”

     He smiled and said,” I agree”; this was the beginning of our conversations at breakfast in the days of the terrible siege, which would reset the path of my life.

      My wish for all of us is that we may find such friends who can reveal to us our true selves and offer figural spaces into which to grow; such is my functional definition of love.

     Through love and desire we pursue a sacred calling to discover our truths, truths which are immanent in nature and written in our flesh. Herein also we escape the limits of our flesh as we become sublimed and exalted in unification with others, who free our captive images from the wilderness of mirrors which falsify us. Love is an instrument with which we may liberate and empower each other and restore to one another our autonomy and authenticity.

     Love and desire are forces of liberation, uncontrollable as the tides and inherently anarchic. They are our most powerful weapons against authority and tyranny; for they can neither be taken from us nor limited.

      Love like you have laughed in the face of your executioner, for this is exactly what love is. 

     And in my closing arguments regarding the problematization of masculinity and femininity as figures of human wholeness in a chiaroscuro of forces, in accord with the truth telling principle of Virginia Woolf that “if we cannot tell the truth about ourselves, we cannot tell it about others”, as I wrote in my post of June 22 2025, If My Masculine and Feminine Halves Could Perform Their Truths On the Stage of the World, What Would We Sing? Idealizations of Gendered Beauty and the Struggle Between Authorized Identities and Truths We Create Or Are Written In Our Flesh: On Father’s Day, Part Two; Beings of darkness and light are we, defined by the boundaries of our chiaroscuro which represent our Janus-like masculine and feminine halves; each creates the other and seeks to realize and awaken itself as a unitary and whole being through dreaming the other.

     Often have I written of the primary human act of rebellion and refusal to submit to authority, of negotiations and seizures of power versus authorized identities including those of sex and gender, of the imposed conditions of revolutionary struggle as both systems of oppression and as the limits of our forms, but when we interrogate our idealizations of masculine and feminine beauty we must also consider that such systems of signs and representations also describe the work of integration and the origins of human consciousness.

      The human psyche is both male and female within itself, anima and animus in Jungian terms, and because the soul is born from this dynamism we can seize control of our own evolution and processes of adaptation and becoming human through embrace of our darkness and chthonic elements of our unconscious, shadows which include the side of us which is the opposite gender of our conscious identity and sometimes of our absurd flesh in which we are bound to this life, this reality, this system of social contracts and agreements about human being, meaning, and value and about how to be human together, this sideral universe.

     Our forms are an imposed condition of struggle parallel and interdependent with the systems of oppression which coevolve from this as recursive processes of adaptation and change, and nothing is more universal than our identities of sex and gender and the twin tyrannies of Patriarchy and theocracy we have made of it.

     Biology is not destiny, but it is immensely powerful and determinative as a ground of struggle.

     Among the legacies of our history there are those we must keep to remain who we are and those we must escape to become who we wish, and if we are very lucky they are not always the same.

     How do we negotiate the boundaries and interfaces of our masculinity and femininity, processes of change which are recursive, chaotic, nuanced and complex, relative, conditional, ephemeral, a dialectics of truths and illusions and of authorized identities, simulacra, falsifications and systems of oppression versus our autonomy and self-creation, and a ground of struggle which lies at the heart of becoming human?    

    Idealizations of masculine and feminine beauty and identity live at the origins of our power of love and the forms it takes in our lives; If my female side could perform our truth on the stage of the world as songs, without any limits whatever, what would we sing?

     Chilling Adventures of Sabrina | Straight to Hell Music Video Trailer | Netflix; because I love this version of Persephone’s myth. How if we must seize our power or be subjugated to that of others?

     Little Red Riding Hood – Amanda Seyfried’s cover of the song; sung in a fragile voice filled with such anguish, loneliness, and the absurdity of hope.

     I dare the darkness and the unknown places marked Here Be Dragons on our maps of becoming human, beyond all boundaries of the Forbidden.

     Where is the wolf who can match my daring and embrace together the wildness of nature and the wildness of ourselves?

     Where is my Red Hot Riding Hood, who like myself lives beyond all limits and all laws?

      Each contained within the other, like a nested set of puzzle boxes bearing unknowns and the limitless possibilities of becoming human.

     Wednesday dances; How if we must tell our stories, or be rewritten and falsified by others? How if we must dance our truths to free ourselves from those of others?  I find it interesting that Jenna Ortega chose a queer cruising anthem for her signature dance, which confuses and conflates in ambiguous meanings the rituals of mating and hunting, as this Netflix series does as an extended metaphor and allegory of subversions of authorized identities of sex and gender

   So for the anima; what of the animus? Who speaks for me in masculine register?

     Lucifer’s Song of Love: Cover of Wicked Game by Ursine Vulpine & Annaca 

     Do we live in a world where love cannot redeem anything, as it so often seems when we look into the Abyss?

     Or do figments like Beauty and The Good exist because we create them, as Keats suggests?

     Hope, faith, and love remain powers which cannot be taken from us and which can liberate us as truths, inherent adaptive powers which define the human, but are also ambiguous, relative, changing, and can be ephemeral and illusory as well.

     With such unreliable instruments we must create our humanity from falsifiable informing, motivating, and shaping forces of history, memory, and identity, and win our authenticity from the hungry ghosts of authorized identities as simulacra.

     This is the first revolution in which we all must fight; the struggle for ownership of ourselves.

     In loving others we become ourselves.

     “Monster” – Imagine Dragons (cover by Runaground on youtube)

With film montage of Marvel’s Loki

     Let us embrace our monstrosity and proclaim with Loki the Trickster; “I am burdened with glorious purpose.”

      Like the ripples from a stone tossed into a pool, this; with second and third order consequences which propagate outward through time and the alternate universes produced by Rashomon Gate events.

     In a world which is a museum of holocausts and atrocities, how do we live among the unknowns beyond the limits of the human and claw back something of our humanity from the darkness?

     In refusal to submit to Authority we become Unconquered and free, but also marked by Otherness and often savaged by loneliness and the pathology of disconnectedness because we no longer truly belong. This is a problem because belonging is the only thing that balances fear as a means of social exchange. But it can also become a sacred wound which opens us to the pain of others.

      How do we seize power from those who would enslave us, without becoming tyrants ourselves? To become the arbiter of virtue in an unjust world is a seductive phantasm of tyranny we must avoid, and revolutions tend to become tyrannies as a predictable phase of struggle due to the imposed conditions of struggle as unequal power and its legacies.

      In the end all that matters is what we do with our fear, and how we use our power. Do something beautiful with yours.

     David Bowie sings of Resistance, beyond hope of victory or survival: Shoshanna prepares for German Night in the film Inglorious Basterds, a song I post to signal that I now begin a Last Stand; that I am about to do something from which I see no possible chances of survival. This I have done more times that I can now remember, yet I remain to defy and defend. Love too is a total commitment beyond reason, a glorious mad quest to claw back something of our humanity from the darkness.

     There are some things we must behave as if are true, regardless if they ever were or can be; love can redeem the flaws of our humanity, hope can triumph over despair and the terror of our nothingness, abjection, and learned helplessness, solidarity of action and faith in each other can be victorious over division and fascisms of blood, faith, and soil, Resistance confers freedom as a condition of being and a power which cannot be taken from us by force and control, and as Rumi teaches us the Beauty that we do can bring healing to the brokenness of the world.

                           References

Joker X Harley: Bad Things

Gilles & Jeanne, Michel Tournier

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1869011.Gilles_Jeanne

Beauty and the Beast, Jean Cocteau

Beauty and the Beast: Visions and Revisions of an Old Tale, Betsy Hearne

June 25 2025 Queer Tribes, and How To Find Yours: Identities of Sex and Gender, a Trilogy

https://www.theparisreview.org/blog/2019/06/25/the-american-theater-of-trauma/

https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/ng-interactive/2021/sep/22/saintmaking-the-canonisation-of-derek-jarman-by-queer-nuns-video

https://theanatomyoflove.com

https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

https://personalityjunkie.com/01/masculine-feminine-myers-briggs-mbti-vs-big-five/

https://www.sosyncd.com/the-complete-guide-to-myers-briggs-compatibility/

Personality Types: Jung’s Model of Typology

Daryl Sharp

Psychological Types, C.G. Jung

     Marina Warner’s books on masculine and feminine identity as stories;

From the Beast to the Blonde: On Fairy Tales and Their Tellers, Marina Warner

 No Go, the Bogeyman: Scaring, Lulling, and Making Mock, Marina Warner  https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/365908.No_Go_the_Bogeyman?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_19

                Gender and Sex, a reading list

Judith Butler author page on Goodreads        https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5231.Judith_Butler?from_search=true&from_srp=true

Anne Fausto-Sterling  author page

https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/27828.Anne_Fausto_Sterling

Helen Fisher’s author page

the performance of identity as guerrilla theatre and revolutionary struggle

https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/ng-interactive/2021/sep/22/saintmaking-the-canonisation-of-derek-jarman-by-queer-nuns-video

Delusions of Gender: How Our Minds, Society, and Neurosexism Create Difference, Cordelia Fine

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/8031168-delusions-of-gender

               Love and Desire: A Reading List

A Natural History of Love, Diane Ackerman

The Art of Loving, Erich Fromm

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/14142.The_Art_of_Loving?ref=nav_sb_ss_2_30

Eros the Bittersweet, Anne Carson

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/150255.Eros_the_Bittersweet?ref=nav_sb_ss_2_33

Love: A History, Simon May

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/10179796-love?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_26

 The Laugh of the Medusa, Hélène Cixous

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/11080013-the-laugh-of-the-medusa?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_23

Love Itself: In the Letter Box, Hélène Cixous

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/5085842-love-itself

The Way of Love,  Luce Irigaray

Elemental Passions, Luce Irigaray

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/440464.Elemental_Passions

Forever Fluid: A Reading of Luce Irigaray’s Elemental Passions, Hanneke Canters

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/440470.Forever_Fluid?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_79

Lacan on Love: An Exploration of Lacan’s Seminar VIII, Transference, Bruce Fink

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/26524710-lacan-on-love?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_79

All About Love: New Visions, bell hooks

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/17607.All_About_Love?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_39

The Nature of Love, Volume 3: The Modern World, Irving Singer

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1329810.The_Nature_of_Love_Volume_3

Philosophy of Love: A Partial Summing-up, Irving Singer, Alan Soble (Foreword)

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6328491-philosophy-of-love

Mystery Dance: On the Evolution of Human Sexuality, Lynn Margulis

The History of Sexuality, Michel Foucault

https://www.goodreads.com/series/52730-the-history-of-sexuality

Philosophy of Sex and Love: An Introduction, Alan Soble

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/5479071-philosophy-of-sex-and-love

Sex from Plato to Paglia [Two Volumes]: A Philosophical Encyclopedia, Alan Soble

October 11 2025 Silenced Loki: a Figure and Symbol of Poetic Vision and Creativity as Rebellion Against Authority and Revolutionary Struggle, and Of Those Truths Written In Our Flesh and Created Or Chosen By Ourselves Versus the Falsification of Authorized Identities; On National Coming Out Day

     We celebrate Coming Out Day as a national holiday in America, in honor of a courageous marginalized community and in solidarity of liberation struggle with all those who perform their true and best selves on the stage of the world and our history, as exemplars of seizure of power from authorized identities including those of sex and gender and of the grandeur of self ownership and the infinite possibilities of becoming human.

      I am not a member of this queer LGBT community, nor do I speak for them or with the voice of lived experience, though I am formed in part by three personal relationships with those who did so, William S. Burroughs who taught me magic and storytelling as a child, Susan Sontag who during my early university days taught me how to see beauty in art and life, and Jean Genet who set me on my life’s path by swearing me to the Oath of the Resistance during the second of my numberless Last Stands in Beirut 1982 as we were about to be burned alive by the Israeli Army and refused to surrender.

     But I can speak regarding the broader meaning of this holiday, Breaking the Silence.

      The image of Silenced Loki, a totemic ritual statue called the Snaptun Stone which depicts the Trickster god (in Old Norse, a class of beings literally termed “Devourer” and commonly translated as Giants) with his mouth sewn shut as a ritual sacrifice to silence his power to reorder the universe and change, subvert, manipulate, or evade its laws, has become part of our popular culture through the influence of Marvel comics and films, and a subject of discussion.

    What does it mean? Why would a god whose power is imprisoned in his flesh and useless be an object of worship? Why has this part of his myth, so near a parallel to that of Prometheus, become central to Viking culture and assimilated into our own at this moment of history?

     Silence Equals Death, as the AIDS activist movement of decades ago constructed Elie Weisel’s Silence is Complicity. As he teaches us in his Nobel Prize Speech; “I remember: it happened yesterday or eternities ago. A young Jewish boy discovered the kingdom of night. I remember his bewilderment, I remember his anguish. It all happened so fast. The ghetto. The deportation. The sealed cattle car. The fiery altar upon which the history of our people and the future of mankind were meant to be sacrificed.

     I remember: he asked his father: “Can this be true?” This is the twentieth century, not the Middle Ages. Who would allow such crimes to be committed? How could the world remain silent?

     And now the boy is turning to me: “Tell me,” he asks. “What have you done with my future? What have you done with your life?”

     And I tell him that I have tried. That I have tried to keep memory alive, that I have tried to fight those who would forget. Because if we forget, we are guilty, we are accomplices.

     And then I explained to him how naive we were, that the world did know and remain silent. And that is why I swore never to be silent whenever and wherever human beings endure suffering and humiliation. We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented. Sometimes we must interfere. When human lives are endangered, when human dignity is in jeopardy, national borders and sensitivities become irrelevant. Wherever men or women are persecuted because of their race, religion, or political views, that place must – at that moment – become the center of the universe.”

      Primarily I see this in terms of Loki’s role as what Foucault called a truthteller, parrhesia in classical terms, like the Jester of King Lear, as in the Lokasenna when he satirizes and mocks the gods. I call this the Four Primary Duties of a Citizen in a free society of equals; question authority, expose authority, mock authority, and challenge authority. For there is no just authority, and our mission as Bringers of Chaos is to subvert and delegitimize tyrants, be they gods or men who would enslave us.

     Secondarily this relates to Loki’s role as a source of poetic vision and inspiration, here in the context of his grand trick, the Wager of Loki, which resulted in the forging of Mjolnir as embodied lightning and other signature powers of the gods, the price of which was having his mouth sewn shut to seal his power, but of course he like Ulysses outwits the gods and escapes to reclaim his power of true speaking. This myth makes him a patron of smiths and creative arts, not a maker, but a muse; also a patron of truth tellers.

      The image of Silenced Loki, terrible though it may be, refers to his willing sacrifice to forge the truths of others, to abandon power over others in favor of equality and the empowerment of others, and to guide others seizure of power as liberation. As such it was probably used by smiths to avert the dangers of their profession, a lightning rod and totemic patron.

     Magic, like revolutionary struggle, always has a cost; among the first things one will need is something to bear that cost for us. Such is the purpose of Silenced Loki.

     Loki is a patron of outlaws, especially those of sex and gender, who finds reflection in Virginia Woolf’s gender changing immortal time traveler Orlando, of revolutionaries and anarchists in his guise as Milton’s rebel angel in Paradise Lost, the primary text of the iconic Hells Angels Motorcycle Club, of gamblers, chance, and luck as a figure of Fortune, of lost causes and forlorn hopes and the unknown heroes who fight for them, of all those who survive not by force but by wit and guile and changing the rules of play, and of us all as the source of our idea of the devil and his fairytale version as Rumpelstiltskin. What god or devil was ever more terrible than the Maker of Deals?

     Above all else, Loki is a patron of outcasts and exiles, the abandoned and the vilified, a champion and liberator who places his life in the balance with those of the powerless and the dispossessed, the silenced and the erased, whom Frantz Fanon called the Wretched of the Earth, and of their vengeance in bringing a Reckoning to those who would enslave us and in revolutionary struggle. In this aspect he resembles Frankenstein’s monster, a child abandoned because he is imperfect, bearer of a sacred wound which opens him to the pain of others, an innocent child trapped in the same flesh with a tortured and demonized thing of rage and pain, who wonders why others find him monstrous.

     As the Matadors who rescued me from execution by a police death squad in Sao Paulo Brazil 1974 in the summer before high school said; “We can’t save everyone, but we can avenge.” To stand with others in solidarity against vast systems of oppression and claw back something of our humanity from the darkness is to be a monster who hunts other monsters and defines the limits of the human, or so tyrants, elite hegemonies of wealth, power, and privilege whom they serve, and their enforcers and apologists wish us to believe. But there are other truths, other stories, of our own which can liberate us from the Wilderness of Mirrors by which power seeks to falsify us; lies, illusions, propaganda, misdirections, rewritten histories and alternate realities.

     But Loki is also a god and daemon of creativity, inspiration, poetic vision, and the reimagination and transformation of ourselves and our civilization, a bringer of Chaos who disrupts order, frees us from the tyranny of authority, and bears the limitless possibilities of becoming human.

    Let us embrace our monstrosity and say with Loki; “I am burdened with glorious purpose.”

     As written by Olivia Lang, in an essay entitled A Stitch in Time: Enforced Silence, or some thoughts on a mouth sewn shut in history and literature; ”The enduring symbolism of a sewn mouth, from the works of David Wojnarowicz to recent protests by refugees; “The light’s behind them. Four men, somewhere on the border between Greece and Macedonia. They can’t go forward, can’t go back. The man on the left has his eyes closed. He’s unshaven, a single freckle on his temple. The light is tangling in his hair, running down his forehead and catching on his chin. Head bowed, careful as a surgeon, the man opposite him is sewing up his mouth. The blue thread runs from lip to hand. The sewn man’s face is absolutely still, upturned to the sun. I don’t know where I first saw this photograph. Maybe it washed up on my Twitter feed. Later, I searched for it again, typing ‘refugee lip sewing’ into Google. This time, there were dozens of images, almost all of men, lips sewn shut with blue and scarlet thread. Afghan refugee, Athens. Australian immigration centre in Papua New Guinea. Stuck on the Balkan borders, a first smattering of snow.

     The mouth is for speaking. But how do you speak if no one’s listening, if your voice is prohibited or no one understands your tongue? You make a migrant image, an image that can travel where you cannot. An Afghan boy who spent three years at the beginning of the millennium on Nauru – the off-shore processing camp for refugees attempting to reach Australia – told the website Solidarity.net.au: ‘My brother didn’t sew his lips but he was part of the hunger strike. He became unconscious and was sent to the hospital. Every time someone became unconscious we would send a picture to the media.’

      The first time I encountered lip sewing as protest was in Rosa von Praunheim’s extraordinary 1990 AIDS documentary, Silence = Death. One of the interviewees was the artist and activist David Wojnarowicz. A former street kid, a gay man who had recently been diagnosed with AIDS, he talked with great eloquence and fury about the different kinds of silence ranged against him. He spoke of what it had been like to grow up queer; the need to keep his sexuality secret because of the omnipresent threat of violence. He spoke of the silence of politicians, whose refusal to confront AIDS was hastening his own oncoming death. And, as he talked, footage he’d collaged together appeared on screen: a kaleidoscope of distress, which was later given the title A Fire in My Belly (1986–87). Ants crawl over a crucifix; a puppet dances on its strings; money pours from bandaged hands; a mouth is sewn shut, blood trickling from puncture wounds. What is the stitched mouth doing? If silence equals death, the biting slogan of AIDS activists, then part of the work of resistance is to make visible the people who are being silenced. Carefully, carefully, the needle works through skin, self-inflicted damage announcing larger harm. ‘I think what I really fear about death is the silencing of my voice,’ Wojnarowicz says. ‘I feel this incredible pressure to leave something of myself behind.’ You make an image to communicate what is unsayable in words. You make an image to go on beyond you, to speak when you no longer can. The image can survive its creator’s death, but that doesn’t mean it is immune to the same forces of silencing that it protests. In 2010, nearly two decades after Wojnarowicz died of AIDS at the age of 37, A Fire in My Belly was removed from a landmark exhibition of gay art at the Smithsonian, in Washington DC, following complaints from right-wing politicians and the Catholic League. This time, the stitched mouth became a symbol of censorship. At protests, people held up posters of Wojnarowicz’s face, lantern-jawed, implacable, five stitches locking shut his lips. Both images are in front of me now: stitches in time, reporting from the past. Wojnarowicz is dead; God knows where the man on the Greek border is. In other photos from the same protest, men sit or stand on train tracks, holding hand-lettered signs on scraps of dirty cardboard: ONLY FREEDOM and OPEN THE BORDER. They are bare-chested, wrapped in blankets, ranked against police with riot shields and bulletproof vests. The word ‘stitch’ is a double-edged prayer. It means the least bit of anything – the stigmatized, say, or the devalued. And it means to join together, mend or fasten, a hope powerful enough to drive a needle through bare flesh.”

    As written by Doug Dorst in his blog Monkeys and Rabbit Holes, which annotates his magnificent translation and metafictional commentary on the novel Ship of Theseus by the mythic and possibly fictional revolutionary V. M. Straka, in an article entitled Enforced Silence, or some thoughts on a mouth sewn shut in history and literature;” In Ship of Theseus, S. sails on a ship with sailors whose mouths are sewn shut.  Eventually he joins them and undergoes the procedure himself.  It is a continuous motif in SOT and appears several times.

     Typically a mouth sewn shut is a motif more at home in the horror genre, body modification enthusiasts, and more recently as a form of actual political protest as google brought up several pages of such events.

     Loki may be the first victim of this practice. Loki had his mouth sewn shut with wire after losing a bet with some dwarves.  He had wagered his head in the bet (which Loki then lost), but refused to let the dwarves take his head if they couldn’t remove his head without leaving his neck intact.  Instead, the dwarves sewed his mouth shut for his slick way with words.  According to wikipedia, this myth is the basis for the logical fallacy “Loki’s wager,” which “is the unreasonable insistence that a concept cannot be defined, and therefore cannot be discussed.”

     The next instance is found in Don Quixote, by Miguel de Cervantes.  The first installment, published in 1605, is considered one of the world’s great masterworks.  At one point in the book, Sancho tells Don Quixote, “Senor Don Quixote, give me your worship’s blessing and dismissal, for I’d like to go home at once to my wife and children with whom I can at any rate talk and converse as much as I like; for to want me to go through these solitudes day and night and not speak to you when I have a mind is burying me alive. If luck would have it that animals spoke as they did in the days of Guisopete, it would not be so bad, because I could talk to Rocinante about whatever came into my head, and so put up with my ill-fortune; but it is a hard case, and not to be borne with patience, to go seeking adventures all one’s life and get nothing but kicks and blanketings, brickbats and punches, and with all this to have to sew up one’s mouth without daring to say what is in one’s heart, just as if one were dumb.”

     In 1827, it appears again in the Atheneaum.  The piece is titled Painters-Authoresses-Women, but it is not attributed to any author.  “It was easier to look in the glass than to make a dull canvas shine like a lucid mirror; and, as to talking, Sir Joshua used to say, a painter should sew up his mouth.”

     Here is the illuminating essay written by Patrick Nathan in The Paris Review; “For David Wojnarowicz, this decade has been a renaissance. He plays a guiding spirit in Olivia Laing’s 2016 internal travelogue, The Lonely City, and haunts the 2011 music video for Justice’s “Civilization.” In last year’s retrospective, History Keeps Me Awake at Night, the Whitney Museum reminded us that Wojnarowicz “came to prominence in New York in the 1980s, a period marked by creative energy, financial precariousness, and profound cultural changes.” We recognize that decade in our own, and, with it, Wojnarowicz’s anger. Our present is magnetized to his past. His art, as Hanya Yanagihara wrote, “reminds you that there is a distinction between cynicism and anger, because the work, while angry, is rarely bitter—bitterness is the absence of hope; anger is hope’s companion.” In truth, renaissance is a cruel word to give to someone who died at thirty-seven. But we do love him. We do need him.

     Some things to know about who we are:

     We are trapped in a moment of political terror. We are dangerously close to cynicism, but angry enough to have hope. We are no longer interested in compromise. Men, we agree, have had their chance. White women we can no longer trust to uphold feminism, not while they cling to white supremacy. We are antiracist and antifascist and prison abolitionists; we rejoiced when Bill Cosby received his sentence. We canceled Woody Allen, Kevin Spacey, Harvey Weinstein, and Al Franken with equal fervor. We are uninterested in what they think.

     Welcome to we: a disingenuous pronoun that both paid and unpaid pundits alike brandish without consent. I’m often guilty, too: my points are more convincing if I ventriloquize your voice alongside mine. Are we really doing this? Is this what we want? When did we decide this was okay? As usual, Adorno said it best: “To say ‘we’ and mean ‘I’ is one of the most recondite insults.” More often than not, we is an erasure, a linguistic illusion that you or I have endorsed some third person’s opinion, politics, or decisions. Deployed in politicized spaces, the subtext of we—i.e., I didn’t need to ask you—is a violation of political agency.

     What’s dangerous in maligning we, however, is how badly I—a cisgender white man living in America—need to hear these voices. Often, the contemporary we is a backlash against centuries of a white cishet male monolith, which includes the we in the Constitution. It’s a backlash voiced by women, people of color, trans and nonbinary persons, and persons with disabilities. As Wesley Morris wrote for the New York Times last year, “Groups who have been previously marginalized can now see that they don’t have to remain marginalized. Spending time with work that insults or alienates them has never felt acceptable. Now they can do something about it.” Morris casts this moment as an inversion of the culture wars of the eighties and nineties, when artists like Wojnarowicz faced censorship and humiliation from the religious right. After pushing their work to extremes and waging costly legal and political campaigns—including, in Wojnarowicz’s case, the very right to survive as a queer artist—the oppressed are now closer to power than ever. “This territory,” Morris writes, “was so hard won that it must be defended at all times, at any costs. Wrongs have to be righted. They can’t affect social policy—not directly. They can, however, amend the culture.” It’s in this sense that we becomes linguistic action. We cosign or cancel speech, endorse or excoriate art, all the while presuming that any I can borrow any you. We amplifies our voices as one, an assumption of power.

     While Morris’s essay is a sensitive, observant, and smart examination of ethics in contemporary art, and while I’m grateful to have read and reread it, my first impulse upon seeing its subheading (“Should art be a battleground for social justice?”) was to throw the magazine across the room and tweet something like, “Do we really need another man whispering ‘art for art’s sake’ as he pins us against the wall?” This is what our politics has done to me as a queer artist. I carry so much anger that even the threat of some man saying, Let’s not get carried away, triggers rage.

     Or perhaps more exact: revenge.

     I want to believe we need Wojnarowicz’s art, but I can only say that I need it. I burn for its juxtapositions, the shadows in his photographs, and the narrative ambition of his paintings—exuberant perversions of renaissance epics. Close to the Knives, his “memoir of disintegration,” immolates me entirely. Like many queers in the seventies, Wojnarowicz grew up neglected and abused, prostituting his body by the time he was fifteen. As an artist, he received no formal training—only critique from other queer artists, including his one-time lover, Peter Hujar, whose body became one of his subjects. Hujar’s face and hands and feet, photographed on his deathbed in 1987, found their way into one of Wojnarowicz’s collages, lacquered over with a fiery indictment of the society that let this happen to a man he loved; and then Wojnarowicz, too, died, with so much art left unmade.

     Reading Wojnarowicz today—that is, in his words, “in a country where an actor becomes the only acceptable president … a man whose vocation is to persuade with words and actions an audience who wants to believe whatever he tells them”—empowers me. Art “can be reparatory,” Morris writes, “a means for the oppressed and ignored to speak,” and Wojnarowicz’s anger makes me feel as if it’s my right to demand silence from those I perceive to have oppressed queer people, or even those who just don’t have the luck of being queer. I feel as if it’s my right to shun artworks in which I don’t recognize myself or my friends. To not see oneself mirrored in culture feels like abuse, every renewed act of erasure newly unbearable.

     While Morris writes about art specifically, his essay reflects a tendency in discourse overall toward separating, totally, that which we call bearable from that which we decide is not. This is the subject of Sarah Schulman’s Conflict is Not Abuse: Overstating Harm, Community Responsibility, and the Duty of Repair. “At many levels of human interaction,” she writes, “there is an opportunity to conflate discomfort with threat, to mistake internal anxiety for exterior danger, and in turn to escalate rather than resolve.” As social creatures, communication and negotiation are human responsibilities. Activities that work against communication—shunning, silencing, and enlisting the power of the state to punish rather than resolve—shirk this responsibility, and are unfortunately common among vulnerable persons, for whom withdrawal and refusal are often the only communication skills they possess. This leaves both parties trapped—one behind a locked door they won’t open, the other outside. Schulman describes her struggle to understand her colleagues, who, despite their liberal politics, have developed an “almost prescribed instinct to punish, using the language originated initially by a radical movement but now co-opted to deny complexity, due process, and the kind of in-person, interactive conversation that produces resolution.” This language is that of “abuse,” which has a perpetrator and a victim.

     In situations of abuse (ask yourself: is this a power struggle or does this person have power over me?), victims are indeed blameless. But Schulman’s thesis outlines how what often feels like abuse is instead conflict—a point of pain in need of resolution, arrived at only through honest and open communication, which can, and often does, hurt: “the collapse of Conflict and Abuse is partly the result of a punitive standard in which people are made desperate, yet ineligible, for compassion.” The state and its systems of power withhold assistance and compassion from those who are not “eligible.” This creates a system where the identity of victim is desired, if only to ensure one is met with compassion instead of derision. “This concept,” Schulman writes, “is predicated on a need to enforce that one party is entirely righteous and without mistake, while the other is the Specter, the residual holder of all evil.” Anyone who endured the punditry after the 2016 elections will understand why labeling oneself an economic or demographic victim can be toxic. In a sociological refusal to communicate, 63 million voters escalated decades of capitalist-driven conflict by turning their pain into a sacrosanct identity, regardless of how it would, and has, hurt millions of people far more severely than any pain, however legitimate, those voters felt.

     Schulman’s ideas on conflict, communication, escalation, abuse, and repair encourage us to accept individual responsibility, however small, for as many of the conflicts in one’s life as we can stand. Yet it remains necessary to distinguish these conflicts from abuse. What’s interesting about Schulman’s essay is how it intersects with urgent questions of speech, de-platforming, and “cancelation.” Her insistence upon open and respectful communication seems like an inversion of the tactics of silence, shunning, exclusion, and sometimes of violence used by antifascist groups for decades to combat authoritarian politics. The strategies of antifascism contradict everything Schulman says in her plea toward mutual understanding and conflict resolution, but only in the way that shouting over Ann Coulter, for example, seems like an infringement upon her right to incite violence through “free speech.” The error here is to call fascism a conflict.

     A primary goal of Mark Bray’s Antifa: The Anti-Fascist Handbook is to illuminate the “trans-historical terror of fascism,” which is never a “defeated” enemy but a constant reactionary threat as long as inequality and suffering are tolerated. History is not fixed or written but being written. The post-Holocaust slogan—“Never again!”—is not a fact, observation, or conclusion, but a plea for understanding. As Bray writes, “History is a complex tapestry stitched together by threads of continuity and discontinuity… [Anti-fascism] is an argument about the historical continuity between different eras of far-right violence and the many forms of collective self-defense that it has necessitated across the globe over the past century.” It could indeed happen again—maybe tomorrow—and one needs to recognize it, contain it, and drive it back out of sight. These tactics don’t seek to understand the conflict and work toward resolution because there is no understanding, nor resolution; there is, in fact, no conflict. Fascism is abuse, and its evangelists know it. As Bray says, “The point here is not tactics; it is politics.” Just as an abusive parent or partner has no right to demand that his victim sit down and hear his case (again: “power over,” not “power struggle”), a political system that is predicated on the oppression and elimination of human beings from the populace based on race, legal history, nationality, gender, sexual orientation, citizenship, or ability has no right to a national platform, and merits resistance over resolution. Fascism assumes a false mask of victimhood—one that seems like a “politics in conflict”—in order to undermine those who’d speak against it. But fascism is not a politics in conflict: it is a politics of abuse on a national and transnational scale. Antifascism seeks a way out of trauma; fascism governs with it.

        At the Morgan Library in New York, I saw Peter Hujar’s portrait of David Wojnarowicz, gaunt and severely shadowed, dark-eyed, a cigarette in mid drag; and I felt it, around my neck. Love there, and admiration. Grief. Seeing how Hujar saw his ex-lover, friend, and fellow artist seized me entirely. I didn’t understand why I was trembling. It just happened as these things happen—and, for me, are happening more and more. Last year, T magazine ran a special issue on the early eighties in New York. On one page, Edmund White remembered friends, writers, and artists who’d died young: “I was just thinking of Allen Barnett, who lived to publish one book of stories … He was so angry that he had to die.” On another page, the faces of over a hundred artists, choreographers, writers, performers, designers, and cinematographers “lost” to HIV related illnesses. I had no choice: I sobbed. The same thing happened with Tom Bianchi’s Polaroids of Fire Island in the early eighties, in which young men, naked or mostly naked, smile there on the sand, playing and drinking and fucking and loving each other with no idea what awaits them. “I could not have imagined,” Bianchi writes, “that my Polaroids would so suddenly become a record of a lost world—my box of pictures a mausoleum, too painful to visit. When I reopened the box decades later, I found friends and lovers playing and smiling. Alive again.” Even this, reread so many times, is hard to transcribe.

     I began having sex with men in 2006. HIV is not only a treatable illness, but, thanks to PrEP, easier to avoid contracting than ever. I’ve lost no one to AIDS. I was a child when it decimated queer communities across the world. Because of this, it’s taken me a long time to understand that there is still trauma here, that for me to look back and see what has happened, and to see the people—the Reagan administration, state and local governments, charity organizations, and “normal Americans”—who stood by and let it happen, is for me a trauma I’m allowed to feel. It’s traumatic to know how many influential figures called it punishment, called it God, and how many millions nodded along with them. It’s traumatic that I believed, long after the documented success of antiretroviral therapy, that HIV was certain death. It’s traumatic to imagine myself and my friends in that other decade, losing all the men in my life I love and have loved, all while someone laughs on television, where they are paid to say, You had it coming.

     Yes, they called me faggot, bullied me and threatened me; yes, I pushed myself so deeply into the closet that I thought I was someone else, hurting a lot of people in the process; and yes, I carry scars from those years when I craved physical pain instead of pain I couldn’t articulate. But no one I love died, not like that. Nor do I understand these intense reactions as merely empathetic, because I feel them a hundredfold more strongly than when I encounter the pain of people suffering in other situations. Instead—to adapt a phrase from Bray—this feels like transhistorical queer trauma. Not long ago, people like me suffered unimaginably and died in isolation, cut off not only from civil and social apparatuses but often their families; and this happened because those people were like me. Through shunning, violence, intimidation, and legislation, a society had so othered LGBTQ individuals that their drawn out and brutal deaths seemed permissible, even desirable. And alongside those deaths, what was a few million drug users, homeless persons, and black Americans living in abject poverty? Because of white supremacist and heteropatriarchal ideologies, a virus became a weapon of the state, allowed first to proliferate and then, once activists had pushed back hard enough, to be contained, managed, and controlled by federal subsidies and corporate pharmaceutical research.

     I’m not stupid enough to think “never again” calls for anything but constant vigilance. In February of 2018, the White House proposed a 20% cut in the nation’s global HIV/AIDS fund, which would lead, according to a report issued by ONE.org, to “nearly 300,000 deaths and more than 1.75 million new infections each year.” On June 1 of this year, the president logged onto Twitter and mentioned how we would “celebrate LGBT Pride Month and recognize the outstanding contributions LGBT people have made to our great Nation,” despite everything his administration and party have done to strip trans persons of their safety and their rights, to obstruct federal and state protections for queer families and workers. It’s especially tempting to ask this transphobic autocrat what he believes the T stands for when he reminds the nation to celebrate LGBT people, but that’s beside the point. It’s not ignorance that emanates from the White House. It is not a politics in conflict. No matter how many rainbow emoji the president tweets, his queer politics is death, hate, and exclusion. It is a legacy of abuse, and perhaps it’s only natural to feel it across generations, to break down sobbing when I discover another artist or writer or human being who was, not that many years ago, “so angry that he had to die.”

     Those 63 million votes: was each an act of abuse? I want to say yes—I believed they were for a long time. As Bray indicates, “It is clear that ardent Trump supporters voted for their candidate either because of or despite his misogyny, racism, ableism, Islamaphobia, and many more hateful traits.” For me and the people I love, these votes felt cruel, and while I’m no longer sure about saying yes, I don’t question my choice to end every relationship I had with anyone who used their vote to inflict such irresponsible, widespread harm.

     Every fascist regime has snuck into power through legal means with a relatively small majority. In the 1930 elections, shortly before Hitler was appointed chancellor of the Reichstag, the Nazis received 18.3% of the vote. When Vittorio Emanuele III appointed Mussolini as prime minister in 1922, after 30,000 blackshirts marched theatrically on Rome, the PNF only held thirty-five of more than five hundred seats. In 2016, Trump received over 2.8 million fewer votes than Hillary Clinton. As I write this, there are thirty-one states—plus D.C.—with party registration. In those states, registered Democrats outnumber Republicans by 12 million; yet Republicans currently control sixty-seven of the ninety-nine state legislative bodies and hold a majority in the Senate. Supremacist ideologies don’t need that many fervent supporters; what they do need is indifference. In the case of Trump voters, Bray continues, “it is always important to distinguish between ideologues and their capricious followers, yet we cannot overlook how these popular bases of support create the foundations for fascism to manifest itself.”

     Here is where the difference between conflict and abuse becomes a societal urgency. I’m not going to mince words. The Republican party, championing Islamophobia, denying and exacerbating climate change, stripping trans persons of their rights, supporting police brutality against the black community, incarcerating immigrants and separating children from their families—in short, committing crime upon crime against humanity—is a global terrorist organization rooted not only in white supremacy, but the supremacy of wealth. It’s hard to see class in America—to see poverty as an identity—because the American fabrication is that today’s poor, through obedience and hard work, will be rich tomorrow. It’s a story that hides an oppressed class in plain sight of people who serve as a ready-made voting base for the rich, as long as the rich grant them whiteness, heteronormativity, male supremacy, or some other power over those more deeply oppressed. These are those who might not champion the oppression of others, but go along with it as a price paid for a seat at the table.

     It’s difficult to accept responsibility for this transaction, so enticing is its reward: state-sponsored victimhood. To take an example from Schulman, the white queer community doesn’t want to hear that today, “with gay marriage and parenthood prevalent, and the advent of gay nuclear families and normalized queer childbirth … white queer families realign with the state that held them in pervasive illegality less than a generation ago.” At the same time, this community still sees itself as unable to do harm, so entrenched is its history with victimhood. To challenge this is perceived as antiqueer ideology: of course we have the right to families, to suburbs, to lattes and plaid. But so, too, do white queers, in their newfound positions of power, have newfound responsibility to uphold the greater community, and to use their privilege to resolve conflicts with the trans community and queers of color, not to mention other oppressed and persecuted communities.

     There is a similarity in action, Schulman says, in both the supremacist and the victim. This is born of refusal: “For the Supremacist, this refusal comes from a sense of entitlement; that they have an inherent ‘right’ not to question themselves. Conversely, the unrecovered traumatized person’s refusal is rooted in a panic that their fragile self cannot bear interrogation.” For the conflicted, seeing their pain mirrored in another can become a way to justify pain: at least she feels what I feel, or even at least he’s worse off than me. What this creates is an ongoing and mutually reflective theater of trauma in which everyone is a victim, exempt from responsibility, beyond repair.

     We live in a misogynistic, racist, homo- and transphobic, ableist, violent, and viciously unequal country whose relatively small population (4.4% of the world) and vast wealth (25%) leave us, individual voters, responsible for the fate and future of this planet as its oceans rise and reefs die, as its air grows increasingly contaminated and water less potable. To feel so powerless and yet accountable for the future of the human race means that the sheer number of traumatized persons living in America is staggering. We are rooted in a country created by two concurrent genocides and supported by two centuries of wars, spectacular terrorism, theft, and global oppression. What’s worse, as Schulman argues, traumatized persons, through their actions, amplify and spread trauma to others by shunning, bullying, silencing, scapegoating, and threatening; they cling to what little they’re given as payment for their complicity in worldwide destruction at the profit of a small minority of white, wealthy men.

     What use am I, and who is profiting from my trauma? How has my pain been weaponized and turned against others to stoke greater conflict? These are questions every American should ask themselves, particularly as we enter the nauseating theater of the 2020 elections and what lies beyond.

     Conflict is profitable. Not only is this obvious in two hundred years of U.S. foreign policy, but in millennia of art and entertainment: escalation is dramatic, and drama, if it doesn’t affect us directly, is cathartic. It’s fun to say, Did you see what he said about her? and to watch a conflict get worse. There’s a reason journalists crank the apocalypse up to eleven every time the president tweets. It keeps readers coming back. Resolution is boring. Resolution is unprofitable. A played-out resolution is not a drama but an education: you too are responsible, rather than, watch this. Resisting this is not easy, fast, or efficient—three values Americans cherish. To be conflicted, to explore one’s accountability in a relationship, this is not what makes an individual spectacularly eligible for compassion. Only victimhood opens that coffer, and whoever screams loudest gets the prize.

     What is needed is a queering of compassion. To move beyond the truly rare (but extant) binaries of perpetrator and victim, it’s important that every individual recognizes their existence in a continuum of conflict, and seeks to resolve and repair rather than escalate and destroy. We—and here I do mean every single one of us—must question individual guilt, which is rooted in action, rather than shame, which is entrenched in identity. Because when we insist upon the binary—that everyone is either perpetrator or victim—the cost is literal human life. One need only to look to all the Black Americans murdered by police, summoned by a white neighbor’s perceived victimhood, amplified by the aesthetics of entertainment.

     The we I want to belong to is the we that recognizes our vast diversity of pain—the we that understands we’ve been assigned this pain for someone else’s profit, and that we need no longer give them want they want. To reserve compassion only for victims deemed eligible is to accept an arbitrary division, one in which the state can deem some of us worthy of aid and exclude others, meanwhile ensuring that the victims never speak to one another, competing as they must to remain in their places. Is it so revolutionary to say that every human being is eligible for compassion? That men and women of any gender or sexuality, any skin color, any ability, any legal or migratory status, any age, receive the same compassionate understanding as any other, responsible only for their actions and not the identities coerced upon them by others? To believe otherwise is to let fascism shatter our society.”

Loki montage to the song Would You Turn Your Back On Me? (Monster)

        References

Nobel Prize Acceptance Speech, Elie Weisel

https://www.nobelprize.org/prizes/peace/1986/wiesel/acceptance-speech/

Orlando, by Virginia Woolf

Discourse and Truth: The Problematization of Parrhesia, by Michel Foucault

A Stitch in Time: The enduring symbolism of a sewn mouth, from the works of David Wojnarowicz to recent protests by refugees, by Olivia Laing

https://www.frieze.com/article/stitch-time-0

The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone, Olivia Laing

Participating in the American Theater of Trauma, By Patrick Nathan

https://www.theparisreview.org/blog/2019/06/25/the-american-theater-of-trauma/

Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration, by David Wojnarowicz

Image Control: Art, Fascism, and the Right to Resist, by Patrick Nathan

Antifa: The Anti-Fascist Handbook, by Mark Bray

Conflict is Not Abuse: Overstating Harm, Community Responsibility, and the Duty of Repair, by Sarah Schulman

S., by J.J. Abrams, Doug Dorst

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/17860739-s

Enforced Silence, Doug Dorst

https://monkeysandrabbitholes.blogspot.com/2014/01/enforced-silence-or-some-thoughts-on.html

                       David Wojnarowicz: a reading list

Brush Fires in the Social Landscape, by David Wojnarowicz, Lucy R. Lippard

Fire in the Belly: The Life and Times of David Wojnarowicz, by Cynthia Carr

David Wojnarowicz: A Definitive History of Five or Six Years on the Lower East Side, by Giancarlo Ambrosino, Sylvère Lotringer (Editor), Chris Kraus (Editor), Hedi El Kholti (Editor), Justin Cavin (Editor), Jennifer Doyle (Afterword)

In the Shadow of the American Dream: The Diaries of David Wojnarowicz,

by David Wojnarowicz, Amy Scholder (editor)

Weight of the Earth: The Tape Journals of David Wojnarowicz,

by David Wojnarowicz, Lisa Darms (Editor), David O’Neill (Editor), David Velsco (Introduction)

Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration, by David Wojnarowicz

  October 10 2025 If Peace Becomes Real and Lasting Between Israel and Palestine, Where Do We Go From Here?

      With one simple order Trump has brought our client state of Israel to heel and ended the horror, break with all tradition of western civilization, and  abandonment of our universal human rights which the Gaza War represents.

     That he or any American President could have done the same at any time during the last seventy years of Israeli Occupation and imperial conquest and dominion of her neighbors will forever remain a legacy of our history with which we must Reckon and bring healing.

     This is of course presuming that Trump’s Peace, and we may unquestionably call it so, is real and lasting, that America can maintain her will to become the guarantor of our universal human rights we once were or dreamed, that we can maintain control of our mad dog Israel, and that a balance can be restored which ensures the liberty and equality of both nations as partners in becoming human.

     We can spend all of our lives and those of generations to come parsing the meaning of balance in this case, and negotiating how to be human together, between one people divided by history and identity politics along with America and the whole international community.

     Or we can seize the moment now, and reimagine and transform both Israel and Palestine as one united nation wherein all divisions of faith, race, and national identity are abandoned and wholeness restored.

     Our futures are most probably somewhere between these two scales of balance, but the one thing we cannot sacrifice among all our possible futures is that the people of Israel and Palestine must be equal partners in choosing their own future and vision of who they wish to become.

     There may be a transition period in which America and the international community must be guarantors of peace and our human rights, and any just future must include reparations to Palestine and her rebuilding and trial of the Israeli war criminals, but one cannot compel virtue at the point of a gun, only obedience, and this creates slaves and not citizens. There are other, better ways to build democracy.

      Let us send no armies to enforce virtue; let us be liberators, and not colonizers.

     As written in The Palestine Chronicle, in an article entitled ‘They Stood Like Mountains’: Al-Hayya Hails Gaza’s People as Ceasefire Takes Effect; “Khalil al-Hayya, head of the Palestinian Resistance Movement Hamas in the Gaza Strip and the chief Palestinian negotiator, announced that an agreement has been reached to end the war and aggression against the Palestinian people, following two years of a brutal and ceaseless Israeli campaign that killed over 67,000 Palestinians.

     In a speech broadcast on Al-Jazeera, al-Hayya said the movement had dealt responsibly with US President Donald Trump’s plan, which led to the announcement of a ceasefire agreement during the Sharm el-Sheikh negotiations.

     He affirmed that Hamas had received guarantees from the mediators and the US administration, and that all parties confirmed the war had “completely ended.”

     The agreement, according to al-Hayya, includes the entry of humanitarian aid, the reopening of the Rafah crossing, and a large-scale prisoner exchange involving 250 Palestinians serving life sentences and 1,700 detainees from Gaza who were arrested after October 7, 2023, in addition to all women and children.

     Al-Hayya emphasized that Hamas will continue to coordinate with all national and Islamic factions to complete the remaining steps outlined in the Trump plan.

     He also expressed deep appreciation for the mediators — Egypt, Qatar, and Turkiye — and extended gratitude to “our brothers in Yemen, Lebanon, Iraq, and Iran, and to all the free people around the world who stood in solidarity with us, especially those who joined the land and sea convoys for Gaza.”

     The Hamas leader described the steadfastness of Gaza’s residents as unparalleled in modern history.

     “The world stands astonished by the sacrifices, steadfastness, and patience of the people of Gaza,” he said, adding that they fought “a war unlike any the world has ever seen” and stood firm against the enemy’s “tyranny, brutality, and massacres.”

     He praised the people of Gaza for standing “like mountains,” enduring relentless killing, displacement, hunger, and the loss of family and homes without ever wavering.

     Al-Hayya paid tribute to the leaders of the October 7, 2023 operation — Ismail Haniyeh, Saleh al-Arouri, Yahya Sinwar, and Mohammed Deif — calling them the commanders of the “Al-Aqsa Flood.”

     He lauded the heroism of resistance fighters who “fought from point-blank range and stood like a mighty mountain against the occupation’s tanks,” asserting that they thwarted Israel’s attempts to displace the population, impose starvation, and create chaos while Israel “stalled, committed massacre after massacre, and sabotaged mediation efforts.”

     He concluded his statement by affirming that “for two years, Gaza has been defending Al-Quds and Al-Aqsa and fighting the enemy with all bravery,” stressing Hamas’ commitment to continue working with national and Islamic forces to implement the remaining stages of the agreement.”

     Sadly I imagine that the Netanyahu regime and many Israelis will not see things quite the same way.

     An interesting revision to Trump’s plan for Gaza has been written by Jeffrey Sachs and Sybil Fares in Al Jazeera, in an article entitled A decolonised alternative to Trump’s Gaza peace plan: Only a decolonised plan centred on Palestinian sovereignty can bring lasting peace to Gaza; “United States President Donald Trump’s 20-point Gaza peace plan offers some constructive proposals on hostages, humanitarian aid, and reconstruction. Yet it is marred by an unmistakable colonial framework: Gaza is to be overseen by Trump himself, with former British Prime Minister Tony Blair and other outsiders cast as trustees for Palestinian governance, while Palestinian statehood is deferred indefinitely.

     This logic is not new. It repeats the century-long Anglo-American approach to Palestine, beginning with the Treaty of Versailles in 1919, when the UK acquired the Mandate over Palestine, and continuing through successive US interventions, direct and indirect, in the region since 1945.

     A real peace plan must eliminate the colonial scaffolding. It should restore Palestinian sovereignty by addressing the central issue: Palestinian statehood. The plan must empower the Palestinian Authority (PA) by establishing that it holds governance from the outset, that economic planning is exclusively in Palestinian hands, that no external “viceroys” intervene, and that a clear and short timeline is set for Israeli withdrawal and full Palestinian sovereignty by the start of 2026.

     What follows is a truly decolonised alternative — a plan that builds on these principles. It retains the practical elements of Trump’s proposal but removes its colonial underpinnings. It places Palestinians, not foreign “trustees”, at the centre of governance and reconstruction. Crucially, it aligns with international law, including the 2024 ruling of the International Court of Justice, the recent resolution of the United Nations General Assembly (UNGA), and the recognition of Palestine by 157 countries around the world.

     This revised plan preserves Trump’s core elements related to the release of hostages, the end of fighting, the withdrawal of the Israeli army, emergency humanitarian relief, and the reconstruction of the war-torn Palestine, while eliminating the colonial language and baggage. Readers may compare this version point by point with the original Trump plan available here.

The revised 20-point plan: The Trump plan with no colonial strings attached

1. Palestine and Israel will be terror-free countries that do not pose a threat to their neighbours.

2. Palestine will be redeveloped for the benefit of the Palestinians, who have suffered more than enough.

3. If both sides agree to this proposal, the war will immediately end. Israeli forces will withdraw to the agreed line to prepare for a hostage release. All military operations will end.

4. Within 72 hours of both sides publicly accepting this agreement, all hostages, alive and deceased, will be returned.

5. Once all hostages are released, Israel will release life sentence prisoners plus Palestinians who were detained after 7 October 2023.

6. Once all hostages are returned, Hamas members who commit to peaceful coexistence and to decommission their weapons will be given amnesty. Members of Hamas who wish to leave Gaza will be provided safe passage to receiving countries.

7. Upon acceptance of this agreement, full aid will be immediately sent into the Gaza Strip. At a minimum, aid quantities will be consistent with what was included in the January 19, 2025 agreement regarding humanitarian aid, including rehabilitation of infrastructure (water, electricity, sewage), rehabilitation of hospitals and bakeries, and entry of necessary equipment to remove rubble and open roads.

8. Entry of distribution and aid in the Gaza Strip will proceed without interference from the two parties through the UN and its agencies, and the Red Crescent, in addition to other international institutions not associated in any manner with either party. Opening the Rafah crossing in both directions will be subject to the same mechanism implemented under the January 19, 2025 agreement.

9. Palestine, and Gaza as an integral part of it, will be governed by the PA. International advisers may support this effort, but sovereignty lies with the Palestinians.

10. The PA, supported by a panel of Arab-region experts and outside experts as may be chosen by the Palestinians, will develop a reconstruction and development plan. Outside proposals may be considered, but economic planning will be Arab-led.

11. A special economic zone may be established by the Palestinians, with tariffs and access rates negotiated by Palestine and partner countries.

12. No one will be forced to leave any sovereign Palestinian territory. Those who wish to leave may do so freely and return freely.

13. Hamas and other factions will have no role in governance. All military and terror infrastructure will be dismantled and decommissioned, verified by independent monitors.

14. Regional partners will guarantee that Hamas and other factions comply, ensuring that Gaza poses no threat to its neighbours or its own people.

15. Arab and international partners, as per the invitation of Palestine, will deploy a temporary International Stabilisation Force (ISF) beginning November 1, 2025, to support and train Palestinian security, in consultation with Egypt and Jordan. The ISF will secure borders, protect the population, and facilitate the rapid movement of goods to rebuild Palestine.

16. Israel will neither occupy nor annex Gaza or the West Bank. Israeli forces will fully withdraw from the occupied Palestinian territory by December 31, 2025, as the ISF and Palestinian security establish control.

17. If Hamas delays or rejects the proposal, aid and reconstruction will proceed in areas under ISF and PA authority.

18. An interfaith dialogue process will be established to promote tolerance and peaceful coexistence between Palestinians and Israelis.

19. The State of Palestine will govern its full sovereign territory as of January 1, 2026, in line with the September 12 resolution of the UNGA and the 2024 Advisory Opinion of the International Court of Justice.

20. The US will immediately recognise a sovereign State of Palestine, with permanent UN membership, as a peaceful nation living side by side with the State of Israel.

     How our plan differs from the Trump plan

     The revised 20-point plan, in short, is not radically different in form from Trump’s. It retains provisions for demilitarisation, humanitarian relief, economic reconstruction, and interfaith dialogue. The main difference lies with Palestinian sovereignty and statehood.

     Palestinian sovereignty and statehood: Trump’s version deferred Palestinian statehood to some indefinite future, contingent on reforms and external approval. The decolonised plan sets firm dates: Israel withdraws by November 1, 2025, and Palestine assumes full sovereignty by January 1, 2026, 126 years since the Treaty of Versailles.

     Colonial oversight removed: Trump’s proposal created a “Board of Peace” chaired by Trump himself, with Blair as a leading member. The decolonised plan eliminates this, recognising that Palestinians require no foreign viceroys. Governance rests with the Palestinians from day one.

     Economic sovereignty: Trump’s plan announced a “Trump Economic Development Plan” to remake Gaza. The decolonised plan leaves economic planning to the Palestinians, supported by Arab experts, with outside proposals considered only at Palestinian discretion.

     End of Anglo-American trusteeship: Trump cast the US as the guarantor and arbiter of the Palestinian future, with the support of the UK. The decolonised plan explicitly ends this 100-year model, affirming Palestinian and Arab leadership.

    For more than a century, Palestinians have been subjected to external colonial control: British Mandate rule, US diplomatic dominance, Israeli occupation, and periodic schemes of trusteeship, as in Trump’s new plan. From the Balfour Declaration to Versailles to Oslo to Trump’s “Board of Peace”, Palestinians have not been treated as sovereign actors. This plan corrects that and recognises that the Palestinian people are a nation of enormous talents, and highly educated and experienced experts. They don’t need tutelage. They need sovereignty.

     Our revised plan affirms that Palestinians, through their own authority, must finally and at long last govern themselves, make their own economic choices, and chart their own destiny. International actors may advise and support them, but they must not impose their will. The withdrawal of Israel and the recognition of Palestine’s sovereignty must be fixed and non-negotiable milestones.

     A real peace plan must be aligned with international law, including the clear-cut rulings of the International Court of Justice and the UN resolutions. A real peace plan must be aligned with the overwhelming will of the global community that supports the implementation of the two-state solution. All parties to the peace plan should subscribe to this framework. This is the moment for honesty, global resolve, and moral clarity. Only practical steps that implement Palestinian sovereignty and statehood will bring lasting peace.”

     Herein I must clearly state for the historical record that any true and durable peace must emerge from the reimagination and transformation of Israel as well as Palestine into secular democracies in which faith has no legal privilege, beginning with regime change in Israel and the trial for war crimes of Netanyahu and all who are complicit in the command and commission of genocide and other crimes against humanity, the total demilitarization and disarmament of Israel exactly the same as Hamas or any other force of armed combatants, and the rebuilding of Gaza and reparations to the peoples of Palestine, Lebanon, Yemen, and others who have suffered Israeli violence.

     Moreover, I and many Palestinians do not regard the current Palestinian Authority as anything other than a Vichy state of Israeli colonialism; I believe what we need as a caretaker government is a Confederation of Palestinian States in which all her peoples are co-owners, including representatives of de facto governments or polities such as Hamas and Hezbollah.

     As an American, however, among my primary areas of interest must be the consequences of our shameful and criminal history regarding Palestine. Because what its done to us is also a tragedy, and one which remains a ground of struggle.

      As I wrote in my post of November 24 2024, A Stain of Cruelty On Our Armour: America’s Complicity In the Israeli Genocide of the Palestinians;       There’s a stain of cruelty on our armour, my fellow Americans, to paraphrase the line from Hamlet and Star Trek in season one, episode 13, The Conscience of the King; and the twistings and turnings of time and fate which have brought us to this place are many and strange indeed. 

     An aphorism from my youth promises us that hurricanes are born with the fluttering of a butterfly’s wings; soon we may have opportunity to test that proposition.

     We have answered terror and death with terror and death, and this is both tragic and shameful. Force cannot answer force, nor heal the flaws of our humanity. 

     On this day and all too often, the Promethean Fire of the Torch of Liberty which illuminates the gates of our nation in New York Harbor did not reach across the wild seas to foreign shores. This is a great tragedy, and it is a tragedy which is ours and for which we must answer.

     In Palestine and Lebanon our taxes buy the deaths of children.

       Let us return to First Principles with a simple question; Who is suffering and in need of mercy? It is a similar question to the one I ask to determine when and how to use force and violence, Who holds power?, but with a very different direction as to the unfolding of our future.

     Here in a Holy Land divided by the sectarian particulars of how to be human together in accord with the will of the Infinite as universal brotherhood and love, crimes which define the limits of the human are perpetrated against our most innocent, utterly powerless, and incapable of threatening anyone; children. Children whom the enemy of our humanity, the state of Israel and its sponsors including America, either brutalize and kill with glee in the hysteria of power or refuse to see and recognize in complicity. And our history surfaces one figure to represent all of the children sacrificed to power and hate, and doomed by the complicity of silence.

     I ask you now, all of humankind, to abandon the path of our dehumanization and renounce genocide, ethnic cleansing, wars of conquest and dominion, and crimes against humanity.

      I ask, I beg, I demand; I ask you in the name of Anne Frank.

     As I wrote in my post of May 21 2024, Abjection Despair Horror: Surviving the Terror of Our Nothingness in the Mirror Of Gaza; In the mirror of Gaza the Abyss looks back at us, and we are captives of the distorted funhouse images of Israel and America, vestiges of dreams as refuge of the outcasts and guarantor of our universal human rights, and the monsters we have now become.

     I can recognize nothing in the figures which confront us, and though I hurl defiance at the endless chasms of darkness my words find no limit and return no echoes, as if devoured by the Nothing.

     Yet I am neither defeated by the overwhelming force and terror of Authority nor subjugated by despair and learned helplessness, for this is the space where I live, this horror, this joy, this freedom.

     As Jean Genet said to me in 1982 during the Siege of Beirut, in a lost cause, in a burning house, in a time of great darkness; “When there is no hope, we are free to do impossible things, glorious things.”

     I hope that this remains true, for all of us as we struggle to emerge from the legacies of our history and seize our power from systems of oppression, for this is the great task of becoming human, in general and in this Rashomon Gate Event now unfolding in Rafah and elsewhere; to dream impossible things and make them real. 

    There are some things which should be true even if they never were, even if Keats was wrong and finding a thing beautiful does not make it so, even if Thomas Mann was right and love cannot redeem anything, even if as Tolkien feared we have arrived at the Black Gate with no bonds of brotherhood to unify us, even if as did Camus we must claw our way out of the ruins to make yet another Last Stand, beyond hope of victory or even survival.

    There are no Israelis, no Palestinians; only people like ourselves, and the choices they make about how to be human together.

     What are we worth, if we permit ruthless bandit kings to commit atrocities, plunder, and enslave others?

     What is western civilization worth, if we will not live up to our fine words?   And fine words they remain, such as these written by Thomas Jefferson in the Declaration of Independence in 1776, a synthesis and revisioning of ideas from Hobbes, Locke, Montesquieu, Voltaire, and Rousseau; “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, and endowed by their creator with certain inalienable rights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness.”

     What is America, if not a guarantor of democracy and our universal human rights, and a beacon of hope to the world?

    What is Israel, if not a refuge for the powerless and the dispossessed, the silenced and the erased, all those whom Frantz Fanon called The Wretched of the Earth, among them the most demonized and persecuted people of human history, the Jews?

    Let us reply with the words written by J.R.R. Tolkien between 1937 and 1955 in his luminous reimagination of the Second World War in the iconic speech of Aragorn at the Black Gate in The Return of the King which unites ethos, logos, pathos, and kairos; “A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of wolves and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down, but it is not this day. This day we fight.”

     Join us.

     As I wrote in my post of March 20 2020, Fear and Despair: How Dancing With Our Darkness May Help Us to Learn, Grow, and Transform Ourselves and Our World; In this time of suffering and of fear and despair, of injustice and loss, violence and greed, isolation and loneliness, life disruptive events and cataclysms, of vast power asymmetries of patriarchy, white supremacy, and plutocracy, and of the atavistic barbarisms of fascist tyrannies of blood, faith, and soil, we are confronted with the truth of the human condition in the darkness of its most negative aspects, but also liberated by these same empty spaces.

     When illusion is robbed of its power over us, and the echo chamber of lies is revealed for the hollow misdirection of rapacious predators that it is, a space of freedom opens into which we may grow beyond our limits.

    We are now all Edvard Munch’s figure in The Scream, overwhelmed with the horror of a world gone mad, our fear and despair made manifest in our cry for humanity and our lament for the brokenness of the world.

     And in this moment of Awakening we seize our power and reclaim ourselves, for the realization of our flawed nature and the wounds of our humanity opens us to the pain of others, confers transformative power and heralds the redemption of the world. Humans are beautiful not in spite of our flaws, but because of them.

     When all the evils have escaped the Pandora’s Box of authoritarian force and control, hope remains; for when all our gods and masters have been revealed as humbugs like Oz behind the curtain of their smoke and bluster, the realization that no one has any hold over us is swiftly followed by the terrible and wonderful awareness of our total freedom.

     We are the negative spaces of our fears and other demons, figures cast like  shadow puppets by the darkness which defines our limits and which we are able to embrace.

     Cherish your darkness, for the darkness will set you free.   

     As I wrote in my post of July 22 2022, Now Is the Time of Monsters; Hope and Despair On the Cusp of Change; The government of Italy has collapsed, an act of sabotage by fascist revivalists who have abandoned the political coalition which has thus far prevented it from tumbling off the edge of a precipice into the Abyss, an existential threat to the survival of her peoples and the basic services of any state which include healthcare.

    So does the looming threat of Traitor Trump’s return to power in America’s 2024 elections represent an existential crisis of democracy and of our whole global civilization and world order.

    But if the Abyss holds terrors of a precariat held hostage by death and the material needs of survival, the Abyss is also where hope lies, for here the balance of power may be changed in revolutionary struggle.

    In this liminal time of the reimagination and transformation of our possibilities of becoming human, of seizures of power and the performance of the Four Primary Duties of a Citizen, Question Authority, Expose Authority, Mock Authority, and Challenge Authority, let us look to our glorious past in the Resistance which was victorious in the Liberation of Italy on April 25 and the hanging of Mussolini on April 28 1945.

      May Trump and all who would enslave us, all tyrants, theocrats, fascists, monsters, may all of these join Mussolini in death and ruin.

     As Slavoj Zizek’s favorite saying goes, a French mistranslation or paraphrase of Antonio Gramsci’s line in his Prison Notebooks “La crisi consiste appunto nel fatto che il vecchio muore e il nuovo non può nascere: in questo interregno si verificano i fenomeni morbosi piú svariati”, literally “The crisis consists precisely in the fact that the old is dying and the new cannot be born, in this interregnum a great variety of morbid symptoms appear”, as “Le vieux monde se meurt, le nouveau monde tarde à apparaître et dans ce clair-obscur surgissent les monstres”, which introduces the idea of monstrosity, referential to the historical development of the idea in Michel de Montaigne, Michel Foucault, and Georges Canguilhem’s work The Normal and the Pathological, a dialectical process of mimesis which results in the form of the principle as; “The old world is dying, and the new world struggles to be born; now is the time of monsters.”

     Meanings shift, adapt, and change as they transgress boundaries, inhabit public and private spaces, and unfold over vast gulfs of time, and so must we.

     As I wrote in my post of December 20 2022, This Christmas, Confront the Meaninglessness of Life Not With Abjection, Despair, and Helplessness But With the Joy of Total Freedom;  As we enter the Christmas season, a time much of America will be consumed by orgiastic buying as displays of elite class membership and obligatory feasts often with people we don’t actually like or deeply know, adrift in a universe without imposed values living lives of random chaotic episodes of being which form no grand design, ephemeral and illusory, subjected to totalizing passions and caught in vast invisible systems of falsification, commodification, and dehumanization enslaved to authority and elite hegemonies of wealth, power, and privilege like Charlie Chaplin eaten by the gears of the machine he serves in The Factory, let us confront the meaninglessness of life and the terror of our nothingness not with abjection, despair, and helplessness but with the joy of total freedom.

     When there are no rules, there are no impossibilities.

    Merry Christmas, and don’t forget to run amok and be ungovernable.

     As I wrote in my post of October 13 2023, Our World Is Destroyed and Recreated in This Ritual of the Black Sun Wherein Our Humanity Is Eclipsed By the Legacies of Our History; As the season of Halloween is signaled tomorrow by the new moon, it opens with a solar eclipse and the Ritual of the Black Sun as symbolized despair, abjection, grief, and fear, illuminated with great beauty and horror in Stanton Marlin’s study of the alchemical works of Jung in The Black Sun: the alchemy and art of darkness, William Blake’s Book of Urizen, and Julia Kristeva’s Black Sun: Depression and Melancholia, my three primary references on this subject.

     And this ritual of transformative rebirth occurs in the wake of the war crimes and atrocities of the Hamas terror attack on Israel, which now conclusively from plans and orders found on its slain perpetrators includes the planned mass murders and abduction of school children.

     There are two possible replies to an event of this kind, which disrupts and fractures systems of order on the positive side and violates our humanity as degradation and dehumanization on the negative like a Janus coin of mirror reversals; with fear and its mad children rage and violence, or with love and its praxis as compassion and mercy.

     To bring harm or healing, enforcement of virtue and the tyranny and terror of wars of imperial dominion and conquest and the centralization of power to authority and carceral states of force and control, or solidarity as guarantors of each others universal human rights and democracy as co owners of the state in a free society of equals.

     If we choose war in this moment, and America sends military aid to Israel as a sponsor and collaborator in the genocide of the Palestinians in retribution for this vast war crime and atrocity perpetrated by Hamas to fasten their political control of the people of Gaza, the Age of Tyrants has begun.

     If we choose peace and send humanitarian aid both to the people of Israel and of Gaza in the war of annihilation which is coming as Netanyahu gathers his forces to invade, we may yet have a chance for a future democracy to emerge in the region and globally as a United Humankind.

     Our best chance to heal the legacies of our history and reunite the peoples of Israel and Palestine is if they turn their backs on those who claim to act in their name, both Netanyahu’s regime and that of Hamas, and refuse to kill each other in service to the power of those who would enslave us.

     Let us send no armies to enforce virtue, and bring healing to the flaws of our humanity and the brokenness of the world.

    Yet hope remains for transformative change, the fall of theocratic regimes and the emergence of secular democracy free from the legacies of our history, a history which in the bifurcated and fragmented states and national identities of the region divides one people into Israelis and Palestinians through fascisms of blood, faith, and soil in service to the power of tyrants and elite hegemonies of wealth, power, and privilege, systems of oppression which are our true enemies.

    A massive people’s protest movement has erupted both locally and globally, and this gives me hope that we may yet escape the Age of Tyrants, which I predict will unfold as six to eight centuries of totalitarian empires and wars of dominion ending with the extinction of humankind; with 92 to 98 percent probability.

     But the chance to salvage something of our humanity and our civilization of democracy and universal human rights does exist, however fragile and unlikely, if we can unite and act in solidarity as each other’s liberators and guarantors of a free society of equals.

     As written by Alex Lantier in the World Socialist Web Site of the Fourth International, in an article entitled Mass protests erupt internationally against Israeli war on Gaza; “A week after Palestinians initiated an armed uprising against Israel’s blockade of the Gaza Strip, protests are erupting internationally against Israel’s war on Gaza.

     The fascistic regime of Benjamin Netanyahu has ordered 1.1 million Palestinians to flee Gaza City and go south, along roads bombed by the Israel Defense Forces (IDF). Israel—which has now cut off Gaza’s water, fuel and electricity, and whose leaders call the Palestinians “human animals”—is targeting the Palestinians for genocide.

     As the scale of the crimes committed by the Israeli regime and its NATO allies has become clear, protests have erupted around the world in bold disobedience of media denunciations of Palestinians, police intimidation and protest bans.

     The most significant demonstration Friday took place in New York City, where thousands rallied to oppose the onslaught against Palestine, in open defiance of the unrelenting pro-Israel propaganda of the entire American political establishment and corporate media. In the center of world imperialism, home to the largest Jewish population of any American city, masses of people—including over 1,000 Jews—expressed their revulsion with the unfolding crimes in Gaza.

     Other protests on Friday involving hundreds of people were held in Pittsburgh, Portland and Washington D.C., with larger demonstrations planned across the US this weekend. Despite the efforts of the media and politicians to demonize all protests against Israel’s policies as “antisemitic” and to isolate those feeling sympathy for the Palestinians, opposition is building among workers and youth of all backgrounds. A 2021 poll found that one-quarter of American Jews consider Israel to be an “apartheid state” hostile to the Palestinians, a figure that will only continue to grow.

     Thousands also took to the streets in London once again on Friday, defying similar propaganda and threats from the British media and political establishment.

     A series of larger demonstrations also swept across the Middle East, involving hundreds of thousands of people. In Jordan, mass protests in Amman demanded the opening of Jordan’s border with the Israeli-occupied West Bank. Protesting crowds marched on the border with Israel, only to be turned back by Jordanian police.

     Large protests took place in Sanaa and Tehran. In Cairo, tens of thousands rallied outside the Al Azhar Mosque, chanting “Free Palestine.” Thousands defied a state ban to march in support of Gaza in Tunis. In Iraq, a country that has lost over one million lives after decades of US-led sanctions, war and occupation since the 1991 Gulf War, hundreds of thousands marched in Baghdad.

     Protesters in the Middle East are effectively opposing not only the Israeli regime, but also their own governments, which have betrayed the Palestinians for decades. The Arab bourgeoisie’s role is exemplified by the treachery of the Egyptian military dictatorship. Having signed a treaty with Israel in 1978, Egypt has now closed its borders to Palestinians trying to flee Gaza.

     In Israel itself, despite the ultra-reactionary political atmosphere fostered by Netanyahu’s government, which has now been joined by the official opposition, there is explosive discontent. Millions joined protests earlier this year against Netanyahu’s attempt to undermine the independence of the judiciary. The attack on the judiciary, as a letter titled “Elephant in the Room” from 3,000 predominantly Jewish intellectuals made clear, is intimately tied up with the conditions that led to the Hamas uprising.

     The letter states:

     (There is a) direct link between Israel’s recent attack on the judiciary and its illegal occupation of Palestinians in the Occupied Palestinian Territory. Palestinian people lack almost all basic rights, including the right to vote and protest. They face constant violence: this year alone, Israeli forces have killed over 190 Palestinians in the West Bank and Gaza and demolished over 590 structures. Settler vigilantes burn, loot, and kill with impunity. …

     There cannot be democracy for Jews in Israel as long as Palestinians live under a regime of apartheid, as Israeli legal experts have described it. Indeed, the ultimate purpose of the judicial overhaul is to tighten restrictions on Gaza, deprive Palestinians of equal rights both beyond the Green Line and within it, annex more land, and ethnically cleanse all territories under Israeli rule of their Palestinian population.

     All the major imperialist powers stand exposed by their support for Netanyahu and his war on the Palestinians. On Sunday, October 8, the heads of state of France, Italy, Germany, Britain and the United States pledged “steadfast and united support to the State of Israel,” and an “unequivocal condemnation of Hamas.” At a press conference in Qatar on Friday, US Secretary of State Antony Blinken doubled down in condoning Israeli crimes.

     Asked by a reporter if Israel is “retaliating in a fury” and whether the US supports this, Blinken replied with total hypocrisy and double-talk: “What Israel is doing is not retaliation. What Israel is doing is defending the lives of its people. … I think any country faced with what Israel has suffered would likely do the same thing.”

     What message are the NATO powers sending? They aim to create on a global scale a new era of imperialist colonial rule. They brook no resistance to the Israeli state’s illegal, 16-year blockade of Gaza, its denial of food and medicine to the impoverished enclave, and its targeted assassinations of Gaza residents. If this united front of imperialist gangsters were to sum up its policy toward the Palestinian people in one phrase, it would be: “Slaves you were, and slaves you remain.”

     In a video released Friday, which has gone almost entirely unreported in the Western media, Hamas official Basim Naim summarized the background of Israeli oppression, which led to the October 7 rebellion.

     He said:

      We are speaking about a 75-year-old occupation that neglected and ignored all political and legal means to settle the conflict, where the Israeli enemy continued their policy of denial of the Palestinian people’s existence and their national rights. We have repeatedly warned during the past few months and years that the situation on the ground was not sustainable and that the explosion was only a matter of time.

     We have warned repeatedly about the Israeli continued violations in Al-Aqsa Mosque and their attempt to change its status quo in an apparent plan to divide the holy mosque spatially and temporally. We have also warned about the state terrorism implemented by the fascist settlers across the occupied West Bank. We have warned about the forceful expulsion of our people from Jerusalem. We have also warned about the systematic crimes against our prisoners, including women and children, in Israeli jails.

     And lastly, we have warned about the Israeli siege on Gaza for more than 17 years, which is a war crime that turned Gaza into the biggest open-air prison on earth, where a whole generation has lost all kind of hopes. But unfortunately, no one listened to these warnings, and the international community, especially the Western countries, continue to give Israel the cover at all levels to continue committing its crimes.

     In prosecuting their war against Gaza, the Israeli government and Western imperialist powers aim to obliterate this historical background and numb the population with wall-to-wall atrocity propaganda.

     While the deaths of Israeli civilians are undoubtedly tragic, the violence that took place occurred in the context of a massively oppressed people rebelling against a heavily armed oppressor. Even if one were to accept all the accounts of Palestinian violence, it only raises the question—what could lead to such violence?

     History judges differently the violence of a population rising up against oppression and the calculated resort to mass murder by capitalist state machines armed with vast military and financial resources. The imperialists have always claimed that the resistance of the oppressed to colonialism justifies their savage retribution. In exacting this retribution, they have always portrayed the oppressed as savages and murderers.

     In 1899, the Boxers revolted against the division of China into imperialist spheres of influence. Citing the Boxers’ killings of Christian missionaries and their seizure of foreign property, eight imperialist powers sent armies to sack Beijing and massacre the Boxers. Mounting conflicts between these powers over the division of the spoils in China led ultimately to the bloody Japanese occupation of China in the 1930s and 1940s, which cost nearly 20 million lives, provoking the 1949 revolution that ended colonial rule over China.

     In 1904, the Herero people in Namibia rose up against German colonial rule, killing more than 100 German settlers. The German army responded by carrying out the first genocide of the 20th century against the Herero, forcing them into deserts where they died of thirst, or imprisoning them in death camps prefiguring the extermination camps of the Nazi regime. In 2015, German officials formally acknowledged the genocide and offered a state apology.

      Netanyahu’s regime and its imperialist allies are resorting to similar methods against Gaza. However, the great anti-colonial struggles of the 20th century that broke out after the Russian revolutions of 1905 and October 1917 did not take place in vain. Among masses of workers and youth internationally, Netanyahu’s barbaric methods provoke outrage. This opposition will grow as the monumental scale of the crimes being planned and committed against Gaza become evident to ever broader layers of workers and youth throughout the world.

     The NATO powers’ other justification for backing Netanyahu’s crimes—that they are defending Jews and opposing antisemitism—is collapsing. In reality, they are supporting Netanyahu’s genocidal campaign against the Palestinians in a close alliance with political descendants of the forces that carried out the Holocaust.

     As the capitalist ruling elites plunge into barbarism, a mass movement is emerging in the international working class. Protests against imperialism and Zionism are erupting amid mounting global struggles of the working class. Strikes against exploitation, austerity, inflation and police violence shook all the major imperialist powers this year and will intensify in the weeks and months ahead.

     The liberation of Palestine is only possible in the context of the growth of a powerful socialist movement of the international working class, including within Israel itself. This will create the conditions for the overthrow of Zionist chauvinism and the unity of Palestinian and Israeli workers. The struggle against the war in Gaza must acquire a clear, anti-imperialist and anti-capitalist character, mobilizing the working class in a struggle for socialism across Palestine and the Middle East and internationally.”

       In juxtaposition with this internationalist and revolutionary lens of vision are forces of reaction born of fear and trauma weaponized in service to power, the siren call of armed might and retribution as a form of security, but security is an illusion, and only love can reconcile these conflicted identities of Israeli and Palestinian and heal the systems of division and unequal power which are at the heart of this war which threatens to swallow us all.

    As written by Yuval Noah Harari in The Guardian, in an article entitled Israelis and Palestinians are facing their moment of greatest danger since 1948: There is still a slim chance of peace if wiser counsels prevail and other major powers intervene in a coalition of the willing; “Israel has just experienced the worst day in its history. More Israeli civilians have been slaughtered in a single day than all the civilians and soldiers Israel lost in the 1956 Sinai war, the 1967 six-day war and the 2006 second Lebanon war combined. The stories and images coming out of the area occupied by Hamas are horrific. Many of my own friends and family members have suffered unspeakable atrocities. This means the Palestinians, too, are now facing immense danger. The most powerful country in the Middle East is livid with pain, fear and anger. I do not have either the knowledge or moral authority to speak about how things look from the Palestinian perspective. But in the moment of Israel’s greatest pain, I would like to issue a warning about how things look from the Israeli side of the fence.

     Politics often works like a scientific experiment, conducted on millions of people with few ethical limitations. You try something – whether increasing the welfare budget, electing a populist president or making a peace offer – witness the results, and decide whether to proceed further down that particular path; or you reverse course and try something else. This is how the Israeli-Palestinian conflict has unfolded for decades: by trial and error.

     During the 1990s Oslo peace process, Israel gave peace a chance. I know that from the viewpoint of Palestinians and some outside observers, Israeli peace offers were insufficient and arrogant, but it was still the most generous offer Israel has ever made. During that peace process, Israel handed partial control of the Gaza Strip to the Palestinian Authority. The outcome for Israelis was the worst terror campaign they had experienced until then. Israelis are still haunted by memories of daily life in the early 2000s, with buses and restaurants bombed every day. That terror campaign killed not only hundreds of Israeli civilians, but also the peace process and the Israeli left. Maybe Israel’s peace offer wasn’t generous enough. But was terrorism the only possible response?

     After the failure of the peace process, Israel’s next experiment in Gaza was disengagement. In the mid-2000s, Israel unilaterally retreated from the entire Gaza Strip, dismantled all settlements there and returned to the internationally recognised pre-1967 border. True, it continued to impose a partial blockade on the Gaza Strip and to occupy the West Bank. But the withdrawal from Gaza was still a very significant Israeli step, and Israelis waited anxiously to see what the result of that experiment would be. The remnants of the Israeli left hoped that the Palestinians would make an honest attempt to turn Gaza into a prosperous and peaceful city state, a Middle Eastern Singapore, showing to the world and to the Israeli right what the Palestinians could do when given the opportunity to govern themselves.

     Sure, it is difficult to build a Singapore under a partial blockade. But an honest attempt could still have been made, in which case there would have been greater pressure on the Israeli government from both foreign powers and the Israeli public to remove the blockade from Gaza and to reach an honourable deal about the West Bank as well. Instead, Hamas took over the Gaza Strip and turned it into a terrorist base from which repeated attacks were launched on Israeli civilians. Another experiment ended in failure.

       This completely discredited the remnants of the Israeli left, and brought to power Benjamin Netanyahu and his hawkish governments. Netanyahu pioneered another experiment. Since peaceful coexistence had failed, he adopted a policy of violent coexistence. Israel and Hamas traded blows on a weekly basis and almost every year there was a major military operation, but for a decade and a half, Israeli civilians could go on living within a few hundred metres from Hamas bases on the other side of the fence. Even Israel’s messianic zealots showed little zeal to reconquer the Gaza Strip, and even rightwingers hoped that the responsibilities involved in ruling more than 2 million people would gradually moderate Hamas.

     Indeed, many on the Israeli right saw Hamas as a better partner than the Palestinian Authority. This was because Israeli hawks wanted to go on controlling the West Bank, and feared a peace deal. Hamas seemed to offer the Israeli right the best of all worlds: relieving Israel of the need to govern the Gaza Strip, without making any peace offers that might dislocate Israeli control of the West Bank. The day of horror Israel has just experienced signals the end of the Netanyahu experiment in violent coexistence.

     So what comes next? No one knows for sure, but some voices in Israel are veering towards reconquering the Gaza Strip or bombing it to rubble. The result of such policy could be the worst humanitarian crisis the region has experienced since 1948. Especially if Hezbollah and Palestinian forces in the West Bank join the fray, the death toll could reach many thousands, with millions more driven from their homes. On both sides of the fence, there are religious fanatics fixated on divine promises and the 1948 war. Palestinians dream of reversing the outcome of that war. Jewish zealots like the finance minister Bezalel Smotrich have warned even Arab citizens of Israel that “you are here by mistake because Ben-Gurion [Israel’s first prime minister] didn’t finish the job in ’48 and didn’t kick you out”; 2023 could enable fanatics on both sides to pursue their religious fantasies, and re-stage the 1948 war with a vengeance.

     Even if things don’t go to such extremes, the current conflict is likely to put the last nail in the coffin of the Israeli-Palestinian peace process. The kibbutzim along the Gaza border have been socialist communes and some of the most tenacious bastions of the Israeli left. I know people from those kibbutzim who, after years of almost daily rocket attacks from Gaza, still clung to the hope of peace, as if to a religious cult. These kibbutzim have just been obliterated, and some of the last peaceniks are either murdered, burying their loved ones, or held hostage in Gaza. For example, Vivian Silver, a peace activist from Kibbutz Be’eri who for years has been transporting ailing Gazans to Israeli hospitals, is missing and likely held hostage in Gaza.

     What has already happened cannot be undone. The dead cannot be brought back to life, and the personal traumas will never completely heal. But we must prevent further escalation. Many of the forces in the region are currently led by irresponsible religious fanatics. External forces must therefore intervene to deescalate the conflict. Anyone who wishes for peace must unequivocally condemn the Hamas atrocities, put pressure on Hamas to immediately and unconditionally release all the hostages, and help deter Hezbollah and Iran from intervening. This would give Israelis a bit of breathing space and a tiny ray of hope.

     Second, a coalition of the willing – ranging from the US and the EU to Saudi Arabia and the Palestinian Authority – should take responsibility for the Gaza Strip away from Hamas, rebuild Gaza and simultaneously completely disarm Hamas and demilitarise the Gaza Strip.

     There are only slim chances that these steps will be realised. But after the recent horrors, most Israelis don’t think they can live with anything less.”

    As I wrote in my post of October 17 2023, Chaos Is the Great Hope of the Powerless: Case of the Hamas-Israel War; A wise friend has questioned my valorization of Chaos as a principle of change in the context of Black Saturday, a term which describes the Hamas attack on Israel and the immense forces of terror, death, destruction, fracture, grief, rage, and revenge it unleashed, becoming a single tide of darkness.

     Thank you once again for your kindness and your wisdom.

     In this moment of tragedy I am thinking of Chaos as a disruptive force of fracture and change which has stripped us bare of our ideologies to reveal the fragile humanity beneath, and may be leveraged for liberty or tyranny by how we respond as a species and global civilization. As Guillermo del Toro writes in Carnival Row; “Chaos is the great hope of the powerless”.

     What do I hope for now, for the peoples of Israel and Palestine?  That both may unite to free each other, but first we will need universal humanitarian aid to any one on either side of these lines of division, and a Reckoning for the war crimes of both Hamas and Israel. For Israel took the bait, and gave Hamas the victory; they are now equal as war criminals without legitimacy.

    Israel took the bait, and the world is calling them out for war crimes; this may be the end of the Netanyahu alt right regime and the dawn of a new Middle East. I was absolutely expecting Biden and allies to enable Israel’s Final Solution to the Palestinian Problem; in this I rejoice to be wrong about human nature. Maybe the idea of human rights is not dead. As my mother used to sing to students who asked her to make authorizing statements about anything, artifact of a Shakespeare in Thirty Minutes theatrical show that toured nationally with some of her students in it, bouncing her open hands left and right; Maybe, maybe not, Maybe, maybe not.

     No one seems to have noticed publicly that this means Israeli intelligence has been infiltrated. It is also possible that unknown puppetmasters have infiltrated and seized control of both Hamas and Israel, for purposes which are unclear and antithetical to the interests and well being of either. We wander lost in a Wilderness of Mirrors, friends.

      What Reckoning, for crimes against humanity by an organization of terror which has long been a vanguard of anticolonial revolutionary struggle under the imposed conditions of Occupation, slavery, and a genocidal Blockade?

      Not the totalization of the general population of Palestinians in a genocidal campaign of ethnic cleansing as Netanyahu wishes and Hamas intends as a strategy of delegitimation of the Israel state in the moral equivalence of terror, for if Israel, her patron America, and the international community accept the terms of struggle offered by Hamas they too become organizations of terror, and Hamas wins.

     This is a decolonial revolution, and victory goes to the side who can establish the legitimacy and moral supremacy of their story. As my father taught me, Never play someone else’s game.

     Hamas also wishes in this provocation to weld the peoples of Gaza to them; this is a primary strategy of fascism and tyranny, to make the people in whose name you claim to act complicit in unforgiveable crimes. Always beware those who claim to speak and act in your name as a strategy of your subjugation.

     A third layer of meaning here is the ambiguity of the geopolitical and world-historical forces beyond the Holy Land; Russia, her ally Iran and the Iranian Dominion of Lebanon, Syria, Iraq, and Yemen, especially the Assad regime of Syria which has sent forces into Israel as a client state of Russia and Iran, and Hezbollah, which offers many of the social services of a government and may be in the process of emergence as an independent state, or a true empire in the transnational sense like the Holy Roman Empire. The great question here is; has Russia opened a new front of her plan of global conquest and made this a theatre of World War Three?

      How does one answer all of this? How bring a Reckoning for the terror of Hamas without authorizing and becoming complicit in the greater terror of Israel’s kleptocratic Occupation and looming genocide of the Palestinians?

       The forms that might take give me pause, for they will determine our future, and though I know what I myself must do, I do not like it, and am calling out here in my journals, where I work through the consequences of my decisions before acting on them, for unknown possibilities I myself cannot envision.

     Yes, my friend, Chaos has profoundly destructive forms; death among them, ruin and civilizational collapse, the negation of all we have claimed as our identity, but all are also measures of the adaptive range of systems, and can give birth to new forms from this liberated energy. And as you point out, all forces operate in opposite directions at once, creating their own opposition in accord with Newton’s Third Law of Motion. These are not moral forces in balance, but ambivalent forces which contain each other in recursion and processes of change.

     So, while our nations try to shatter each other’s truths with overwhelming force and mass terror, I must find a path of least force to salvage what I can of our humanity, and I hope I will not fail as I did at Mariupol and Panjshir.

    This may be all we have as humans lost in chasms of darkness and a Wilderness of Mirrors, this refusal to abandon each other to dehumanization, but like our refusal to submit to authority it is a power which cannot be taken from us, even in imposed conditions of struggle designed to produce abjection and learned helplessness, or rage and tribalization as identity politics and the manufacture of consent to be fed into engines of death for the wealth, power, and privilege of hegemonic elites and tyrannies.

     Such ephemeral and insubstantial things, like whispered prayers to abyssal unknowns, figments of love, hope, faith, which belong to the shadows, the delusions of grandeur of beasts harnessed to systems of oppression by others who yet dream that we might become more.

    Dream with me.

     Embrace our absurdity as flawed things wrestling with immense forces of falsification, commodification, and dehumanization in a mad quest to become human, under imposed conditions of struggle typified by atrocities designed to produce abjection, learned helplessness, and despair, as we are consumed by the Wagnerian Ring of fear, power, and force in service to elite hegemonies of wealth, power, and privilege whose primary weapon is division and hierarchies of belonging and exclusionary otherness as identity politics and fascisms of blood, faith, and soil.

     Against all of this we have only our faith in each other as solidarity and loyalty, the redemptive power of love, our refusal to submit or to believe and trust authority which frees us as Unconquered and self created beings and Living Autonomous Zones, and our poetic vision in the reimagination and transformation of ourselves and how we choose to be human together. Powers which cannot be taken from us, and which can seize the power of those who would enslave us.

     This is why I practice the art of believing impossible things, but only those I myself have chosen or created. Among these are Liberty, Equality, Solidarity, Truth, Justice, our universal human rights and a United Humankind as a free society of equals in which we are guarantors of each other’s humanity. And crucially, act to make them real.

     In cases of tyranny and terror, wars of ethnic supremacy, enforcement of virtue as crusades and inquisitions and faith weaponized in service to power,, and other conflicts of national identity, of conquest and imperial dominion, carceral states of force and control, of our falsification, commodification, and dehumanization, and of all forms of unequal power and systems of oppression, we must bring a Reckoning, especially to the perpetrators of war crimes and crimes against humanity regardless of who they may be or in the name of what cause they act, and silence the drums of war.

     Dream with me, but act in solidarity to make it real.

     As the Mad Hatter says to Alice; “That is an excellent practice, but right now you might want to focus on the Jabberwock.”

    Just so.

     As I wrote in my post of March 10 2023, On Hope and Despair: Surviving Life Disruptive Events; To a friend with suicidal ideation and facing multiple trauma, life disruptive events, and institutional catch 22s which include class and patriarchal oppression enforced by rentier capitalism and the political theft of our right to life through failure to provide the free universal healthcare which is its precondition,  I have written this brief message:

     Now is the time to reach out, make connections, and build community. Isolation is dangerous in the extreme for you in this moment. A sea of fellow humans surrounds us, all of whom must wrestle with the flaws of our humanity as imposed conditions of struggle. I hear you in this message, and am afraid. Choose life, my friend, as precarious and filled with pain and fear as it may be; our stories can always change, regardless of the limits of our scope of action and agency.

     It may now become possible to reclaim the life which has been stolen from you, and begin to heal and reinvent yourself. May you find peace and joy in this terrible world, my friend.

     All I have to offer in this are words, ephemeral and impermanent as leaves taking flight in the wind; a poor substitute for the golden coins which should be laid upon our eyes to bear us to unknown shores where we may be free from the limits of our form and the material basis of our lives under unequal power as imposed conditions of struggle.

      We must struggle against such authoritarian forces of coercion as a universal process of becoming human, and against tyranny and terror our best defense is solidarity, loyalty, mutual aid and interdependence, faith in each other, and our duty of care for each other. If these should fail, those who would enslave us win.

     A maker of mischief, I; and a bringer of Chaos, bearing songs of liberation. I cannot free us from the systems of unequal power which entrap us, but I can illuminate their limits, flaws, and internal contradictions which will inevitably bring about their collapse, and if we all of us act together we may seize our power to reimagine and transform our possibilities of becoming human and the choices we make about how to be human together.

     And maybe one thing more; a spell, if you will, or a wish; I reach once more into Pandora’s Box to problematize and interrogate hope as a balance for despair.

     As I wrote in my post of September 27 2020, What Do We Need Now to Forge A Future For Humankind?; We live in interesting times,  a phrase attributed in popular culture as Chinese but coined by the father of Prime Minister Chamberlain in a speech of 1898, possibly a paraphrase of the line “Better to be a dog in times of tranquility than a human in times of chaos” in a short story of 1627 by Feng Menglong; beset by complex and interdependent problems; existential threats to democracy and to our survival as a species, and confronted by a political crisis of identity driven by pervasive and overwhelming fears and the modern pathology of disconnectedness. This is a moment of decision, with extinction and civilizational annihilation hanging in the balance, of the wonder and terror of total freedom, and our choices will gloriously expand the possibilities of becoming human or cast us into oblivion.

     History begins with us, or ends with us.

     What do we need now if we are to forge a future for humankind?

      So I asked the question three years ago, which I revisit now to recontexualize the praxis of hope as historical and political as well as personal and psychological, one which shapes us both as individuals and as nations.

      Here follows a Book of Hope, to balance against despair in surviving life disruptive events, the flaws of our humanity, and the brokenness of the world.

        What is hope, and how is it useful?

       Hope is power, an inherent and defining quality of human being, and a primary force of our reimagination and transformation of ourselves and our civilization.

      Hope dances with faith and love as parts of us which cannot be taken from us, a final space of free creative play which escapes the darkness and those who would enslave us, beyond the boundaries of the Forbidden and resistant to our falsification, commodification, and dehumanization by authority and elite hegemonies of wealth, power, and privilege and their carceral states of force and control.

     Hope is also a fulcrum of change not only for ourselves in becoming human, but also of seizures of power in revolutionary and liberation struggle, a form of poetic vision which allows us to see beyond the limits of our material and social conditions to diagnose systemic flaws and contradictions and find new ways of being human together.

     These aspects of hope as recursive processes of change, adaptation, and growth in living systems, social, political, and psychological as well as biological ecologies which construct us, make of hope a kind of freedom inborn in us, and interconnected with ideas of agency, autonomy, and liberty.

     How can we find the will and power to claw our way out of the ruins and make yet another Last Stand, beyond hope of victory or even survival? This has been the great question of my life posed by existential threats in the first three journeys in Charon’s boat and the first two Last Stands which created and defined me; when the police opened fire on the student protestors my mother and I were among at Bloody Thursday in People’s Park Berkeley 1969, when I was nearly executed by police bounty hunters in Brazil in 1974 for refusal to stand aside from the street children they were authorized to kill for being who the system made them, and in Beirut 1982 when I was given the Oath of the Resistance by Jean Genet as we refused to surrender to the Israeli Defense Forces soldiers who had just set fire to our café and expected to be burned alive.

     In my very long journey to becoming who I am now, I began from the position of Camus regarding hope that it is an instrument of our subjugation to authority through faith weaponized in service to power and the falsification of lies, illusions, rewritten histories, authorized identities, and alternate realities; the Wilderness of Mirrors, to use Angleton’s iconic metaphor. Hope for me then must be abandoned if we are to become free; with time I began to see instead hope as a form of freedom, one crucial to our defiance of authority and seizures of power.

      First, here is the place from which I began, as I wrote in my post of August 20 2019, On Becoming Human; This morning I was rereading my favorite stories by H.P. Lovecraft on his birthday and writing some thoughts about his work in my literary blog, sister site to this one, when I realized that his surreal mythology illuminates the existential crisis of meaning and values which confronts us in America today and in the world at large in what is rapidly becoming a post-democracy global tyranny under the Fourth Reich, and that we have faced similar peril after both World Wars as western civilization destroyed and recreated itself; how can we go on when the values of the Enlightenment, freedom, equality, truth, and justice, have failed us? It is as if we looked to the heavens for signs and portents of guidance, only to find writ large the words, “I do not exist.”

     One’s interpretation of a universe empty of meaning and value except for that which we ourselves create, a Nietzschean cosmos of dethroned gods as explored by Sartre and Marx or a Lovecraftian one of Absurdist faith, referential to classical sources, of mad, idiot gods who are also malign, tyrannical, and hostile to humanity, ideal figures of Trump and his lunatic presidency of Absurdist-Nihilist Theatre of Cruelty, rests with our solution to the riddle of Pandora’s Box; is hope a gift, or the most terrible of evils?

     Hope is a two- edged sword; it frees us and opens limitless possibilities, but in severing the bonds of history also steals from us our anchorages and disempowers the treasures of our past as shaping forces. Hope in its negative form directs us toward a conservative project of finding new gods to replace the fallen as we so often do with liberators who become tyrants, or like T.S. Elliot of gathering up and reconstructing our traditions as a precondition of faith. This is why the abandonment of hope is vital to Sartrean authenticity and to the rebellion of Camus; we must have no gods and no masters, as Blanqui coined the anarchist motto, before we are free to own ourselves. The gates of Dante’s Hell, which bear the legend “Abandon hope, all ye who enter here,” lead to ourselves and to our own liberation.

    True freedom requires disbelief. Freedom means self-ownership and the smashing of the idols. I remain the boy who discovered in eighth grade someone who spoke for me, in Nietzsche’s Thus Spake Zarathustra.

      Freedom can be terrible as well as wonderful. Among the most impactful stories I ever heard from my mother was how she went to the grocery store after my father died and experienced a full stop Lightningbolt Awakening, to use the Buddhist term, thinking, “What do I want? I know what my husband wanted, what my children want, but I don’t know what I want.”

     It is in this moment in which we claim our nothingness that we free ourselves of all claims upon us, a transformative rebirth in which we become self-created beings.

     Now imagine humanity after civilization destroyed itself twice in the last century’s world wars facing that same awakening to freedom and to loss, wherein our old values have betrayed us and must be forged anew, and we are bereft of signposts in an undiscovered country, exactly the same as a widow on her first trip shopping for dinner for no one but herself.

     Our responses to this awakening to possibilities tend to correspond with one of the primary shaping forces of historical civilization; the conserving force as exemplified by T.S. Eliot, Thomas Mann, Vladimir Nabokov, and Flannery O’Connor, and the revolutionary force as exemplified by Gertrude Stein, James Joyce, Jean Paul Sartre, and Samuel Beckett.

     Everyone possesses and uses both forces just as all organisms do in terms of their evolution. The function of conservatism is to buffer order from the shock of the new and withstand stresses and changing conditions without losing ourselves or undergoing morphogenic change, the loss of identity, or ruptures to our prochronism, the history of our successful adaptations and strategies of survival as expressed in our form, the loss of our culture and traditions. The function of revolution and innovation is to capitalize on chaos as adaptive potential and to transform, create, and discover new forms, meanings, and values.

      For both nations and persons, the process of identity formation is the same. We all have one problem in common as we grow up; each of us must reinvent how to be human. This individuation is controlled by a second or historical principle; humans create themselves over time, and a third or social principle; humans create each other through their connections. And this tertiary principle, which concerns our interconnectedness and social frames, can produce conflicts with the secondary principle of memory and history.

     This is the first revolution in which we all must fight; the struggle for ownership and control of identity or persona, a term derived from the masks of Greek theatre, between the masks that others make for us and the ones we make for ourselves.

    As I wrote in my post of January 20 2021, The Turning of the Tide: With Inauguration Day Comes the Return of Hope; I have a complex relationship with the idea of hope, with the ambiguity, relativity, and context-determined multiple truths and simultaneity of meaning which defines hope, that thing of redemption and transformative power which remains in Pandora’s Box after all the evils have escaped, as either the most terrible of our nightmares or the gift of the miraculous depending on how we use it.

      As the Wizard of Oz said of himself it’s a humbug, but it is also a power which cannot be taken from us by force and control, and like faith of which it is a cipher holds open the door of our liberation and the limitless possibilities of becoming human.

    As we believe, so we may become.

    Human being, meaning, and value originate in this uniquely human capacity to transcend and grow beyond our limits as an act of transformation, rebirth, and self-creation, and as a seizure of power over our identities. Among other things it allows us to escape the flag of our skin and inhabit that of others; to forge bonds through empathy and compassion and enact altruism and mercy.

    This is what is most human in us, a quality which defines the limits of what is human, and which we must cherish and conserve as our most priceless gift.

     Hope is the thing which can restore us to ourselves and each other, unite a divided nation and begin to heal our legacies of historical inequalities and injustices, and it can be wielded as an instrument which counters fear. Hope is the balance of fear, and fear is a negative space of hope; and because fear births hate, racism, fascism, hierarchies of elite privilege and belonging and categories of exclusionary otherness, hope is a power of liberation and of revolutionary struggle.

     As I wrote in my post of July 26 2020, Explaining Badly What I Do, For Even I Am Not Altogether Certain: a Confession; One day I crossed beyond our topologies of meaning and value and transgressed the boundaries of the Forbidden into the unknown, the blank places on the maps of our becoming marked Here Be Dragons, and never returned. I live now where the dragons dwell, and I wouldn’t trade a moment of the life I have lived for any treasure on earth, for I am free.

     It happened like this; one day I was driving from my fun job teaching high school to my real work counseling at my very elegant office in San Francisco, and I realized that I was going to have the same day as I had before more than I could remember, and was trapped in Nietzsche’s Hell of Eternal Recurrence, and I thought, Why am I doing this? I don’t need to do this. So I took a wrong turn to the airport and bought a ticket to the other side of the earth. I had no idea where I was flying to, and when I arrived in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia I found a bus station with a map that showed all the routes ending in the mountains, which were an enormous empty space along the spine of the country. So I took a bus there and got off at the end of the road, where a dirt track led into the forest of the Cameron Highlands, and began walking.

    Sometimes my quest found only death and loss, sometimes triumph and illumination, but the struggle itself was always a seizure of power in which something human could be wrested back from the claws of our nothingness.

     Among the prizes and exhibits of my memory palace are heroes and rogues, allies and enemies of whom only I, like Ishmael, live to tell the tale; others became legends. So also with the causes for which we fought.

     What if we told our students and children what life is really like, that its full of blood and horror and in the end means nothing at all, and the best you can do is survive another day and maybe save someone from the darkness before it swallows us all? I’ve looked into the darkness since 1982 in Beirut, when Jean Genet swore me to the Oath of the Resistance, and as Nietzsche warned it has begun to look back at me.

     I am become the Abyss that looks back into you, and I speak to you now from the chasms of the unknown.

      Yet I will struggle with the darkness and cease not, and so remain unconquered in defiance of unjust authority and in refusal to submit, though I have long forgotten why. At moments of doubt such as this I read again Camus’ The Myth of Sisyphus, Hemingway’s The Old Man and the Sea, Henley’s Invictus, I.F. Stone’s The Trial of Socrates; myths, stories, poetry, and history of the grandeur of resistance which confers freedom, beyond hope of victory or even survival.

     Pandora’s Box bears a last gift which is also a curse; we cling to it when it is all we have, and because it cannot be taken from us. I have never been able to decide if this is a good thing or not. Why has this strange gift been given to us?

     Maybe it’s only this; that so long as we get back to our feet for yet another Last Stand, there is hope.

     And so I open the Forbidden Door to the unknown and step through as I have many times before, a nameless shadow among countless others who await in welcome all those who dare to transgress the limits unjustly imposed on us, a realm of shadows and of the unconquered, and like lions we roar our defiance into the fathoms of emptiness beyond.

     Tonight the shadows dance, wild and free, bound by no rules but our own; come and dance with us.

Leonard Cohen – Hallelujah (Live In London)

Where Do We Go From Here?, in Buffy the Vampire Slayer episode 7 of season 6, Once More With Feeling

This Day We Fight: Aragorn’s Speech at the Black Gate

Confronting the Jabberwock

The World After Gaza: A Short History, Pankaj Mishra

The Normal and the Pathological, Georges Canguilhem, Michel Foucault

 (Introduction)

July 10 2023 Where Do We Go From Here?

                     Relevant News October 10 2025

Dr. Khalil al-Hayya’s speech

‘They Stood Like Mountains’: Al-Hayya Hails Gaza’s People as Ceasefire Takes Effect

https://www.palestinechronicle.com/they-stood-like-mountains-al-hayya-hails-gazas-people-as-ceasefire-takes-effect/?fbclid=IwY2xjawNWZaRleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHoUQRECfzXqqV57I88y6EUXCJlCBW6VQXZqOXslKbE0AUKlhSZsytvaQv-R8_aem_CHf9QguLlnwgzCMzaheNPA

‘Full-Scale Genocide’: 77,000 Palestinians Killed or Missing, Gaza in Ruins

https://www.palestinechronicle.com/full-scale-genocide-77000-palestinians-killed-or-missing-gaza-in-ruins/

A decolonised alternative to Trump’s Gaza peace plan

Only a decolonised plan centred on Palestinian sovereignty can bring lasting peace to Gaza.

https://www.aljazeera.com/opinions/2025/10/8/a-decolonised-alternative-to-trumps-gaza-peace-plan

Trump wants a prize for the Gaza deal. But the real question is, why didn’t he do it earlier?

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2025/oct/10/donald-trump-gaza-us-benjamin-netanyahu-israel?fbclid=IwY2xjawNWYDJleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHqn8_KLy98BnhsW6nLItli2nYVAsE3et-eT6uCFQNBqHvEtTuAdC7yFw9lQ0_aem_9sz6-2z_iHMQTJllymHqIg

Blair, Kushner, Trump: who are the key people behind the Gaza ceasefire?

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/oct/10/blair-kushner-trump-who-are-the-key-people-behind-the-gaza-ceasefire?fbclid=IwY2xjawNWYHhleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHp1BLBXaicem_AWvzLY08krsWsGoBTxwsOhRucQELGy1biE_UxvQ9XhjbtNM_aem_RoIZRoGSAUqSguj95ay88g

‘I expect to find a ghost city’: Gaza residents on the long, arduous journey back home

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/oct/10/i-expect-to-find-a-ghost-city-gaza-residents-on-the-long-arduous-journey-back-home

                    Relevant News of 2024 & 2023

     This post partum psychosis parallels how many of us feel about America now, trapped in a monstrous form we never chose by a monstrous future which we have birthed. Post election psychosis, but also our national Awakening to complicity in the Israeli genocide of the Palestinians. Now is the Time of Monsters, truly.

‘We all share the same pain’: can the Israeli-Palestinian peace movement rebuild after 7 October?

https://www.theguardian.com/global-development/article/2024/may/21/peace-reconciliation-dialogue-activism-middle-east-7-october-gaza-israel-palestinians-west-bank?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR1td0uO4WYMH0JNJ0K_NHgdndksFdt49CgTMqvRZh0P5LCCQ4W2w-vruTM_aem_Adklpi2sb5YEqseXMCZd-G51eUMnMSKznxtG4hwDOgNrcXIAd6-PEU1Gt92geMaXRIbGtbtsBdxUzCSooEjvBEoN

Exclusive interview: ICC prosecutor seeks arrest warrants against Sinwar and Netanyahu for war crimes over October 7 and Gaza

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Letter signed by 178 members of US’s most prestigious law faculties calls Israeli reaction to Hamas attack ‘a moral catastrophe’

The peril now facing us: Israel invades, Iran intervenes – and this war goes global, Simon Tisdall

Dual Loyalty, Sahar Vardi

https://blogs.timesofisrael.com/dual-loyalty-2/

How do I both condemn Hamas and support Israeli and Palestinian people?, Mordecai Martin

https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/#inbox/WhctKKZGhLtjLsWvxsFtmwMxmBrtRGZGSLfFJpNfLtqlskrChCvLxhxxdTbWqXXRxCSTpqB

Mass protests erupt internationally against Israeli war on Gaza

Israelis and Palestinians are facing their moment of greatest danger since 1948,

Yuval Noah Harari

               Our friend, the Abyss; a reading list

The Black Sun, Julia Kristeva                   

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1JFdZI1n6F9iwJFItPFfcMsGrzy_xCgHo/view?usp=sharing

The Black Sun: the alchemy and art of darkness, Stanton Marlan

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1J-mjBLJhRwsqVvkjVQguUIEpTF9XevkF/view?usp=sharing

The Book of Urizen, William Blake

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1JIVqya6uqyru-8yOLC8WxOWZ-yEa-aqG/view?usp=sharing

Images of the Black Sun: Notes on the relationship between Heinrich Heine and Gérard de Nerval, Ralph Häfner

https://www.cairn.info/revue-de-litterature-comparee-2006-3-page-285.htm

         My Kit For Hope; a reading list

     At moments of doubt such as this I read again Camus’ The Myth of Sisyphus, Hemingway’s The Old Man and the Sea, Henley’s Invictus, I.F. Stone’s The Trial of Socrates; myths, stories, poetry, and history of the grandeur of resistance which confers freedom.

The Myth of Sisyphus, by Albert Camus

The Old Man and the Sea, by Ernest Hemingway

The Trial of Socrates, by I.F. Stone

Invictus, by William Ernest Henley

Hebrew

0 באוקטובר 2025 אם השלום הופך לממשי ונמשך בין ישראל לארץ ישראל, לאן אנחנו הולכים מכאן?

עם סדר פשוט אחד טראמפ הביא את מדינת ישראל ללקוח שלנו לעקב וסיים את האימה ונשבר עם כל המסורת של התרבות המערבית וזכויות האדם האוניברסאליות שלנו שמלחמת עזה מייצגת.

שהוא או כל נשיא אמריקני יכלו לעשות את אותו הדבר בכל עת בשבעים השנים האחרונות של הכיבוש הישראלי וכיבוש הקיסרי ושליטת שכנותיה יישארו לנצח מורשת של ההיסטוריה שלנו שאנו חייבים להתייחס אליהם ולהביא ריפוי.

זה כמובן להניח כי השלווה של טראמפ, ואנחנו עשויים לקרוא לזה ללא ספק כך, היא אמיתית ומתמשכת, שאמריקה יכולה לשמור על רצונה להיות הערבה לזכויות האדם האוניברסאליות שלנו שהיינו פעם או חלמנו, שנוכל לשמור על שליטה על ישראל, וניתן לשחזר איזון שמבטיח את החירות והשוויון של שתי המדינות כשותפים להפיכת אנושיות.

אנו יכולים לבלות את כל חיינו ואת אלה של דורות לבוא לנתח את המשמעות של האיזון במקרה זה, ולנהל משא ומתן כיצד להיות אנושיים ביחד, בין עם אחד המחולק לפי היסטוריה ופוליטיקה זהותית יחד עם אמריקה והקהילה הבינלאומית כולה.

או שאנו יכולים לתפוס את הרגע עכשיו, ולהדמיין מחדש ולהפוך את ישראל וגם פלסטין כאומה מאוחדת אחת, בה ננטשים כל חטיבות האמונה, הגזע והזהות הלאומית ומשוחזרות שלמות.

העתיד שלנו הוא ככל הנראה איפשהו בין שני סולמות האיזון הללו, אך הדבר היחיד שאיננו יכולים להקריב בין כל העתיד האפשרי שלנו הוא שעם ישראל ופלסטין חייבים להיות שותפים שווים בבחירת העתיד שלהם ואת החזון שלהם למי הם רוצים להיות.

יתכן שיש תקופת מעבר בה אמריקה והקהילה הבינלאומית חייבת להיות ערבות לשלום וזכויות האדם שלנו, אך אי אפשר להכריח את המידה בנקודה של אקדח, רק ציות, וזה יוצר עבדים ולא אזרחים. ישנן דרכים אחרות וטובות יותר לבנות דמוקרטיה.

הבה נשלח שום צבאות לאכיפת סגולה; בואו נהיה משחררים ולא מושבים.

1 במאי 2024 אימה ייאוש מאכזב: לשרוד את טרור האין שלנו ביקום ללא משמעות או ערך

     במראה של עזה התהום מביטה אלינו לאחור, ואנחנו שבויים בדימויי בית השעשועים המעוותים של ישראל ואמריקה, שרידי חלומות כמקלט של המנודים והערבים לזכויות האדם האוניברסליות שלנו, ושל המפלצות שהפכנו להיות עכשיו.

      אני לא יכול לזהות דבר בדמויות העומדות מולנו, ולמרות שאני מטיל התרסה על תהומות החושך האינסופיות, המילים שלי אינן מוצאות גבול ואינן מחזירות הדים, כאילו נטרפות על ידי הכלום.

      ובכל זאת אני לא מובס על ידי הכוח המכריע והאימה של הסמכות וגם לא כפוף על ידי ייאוש וחוסר אונים מלומד, כי זה המרחב שבו אני חי, האימה הזו, השמחה הזו, החופש הזה.

      כפי שאמר לי ז’אן ז’נה ב-1982 בזמן המצור על ביירות, במטרה אבודה, בבית בוער, בתקופה של חושך גדול; “כשאין תקווה, אנו חופשיים לעשות דברים בלתי אפשריים, דברים מפוארים.”

      אני מקווה שזה יישאר נכון, לכולנו בעודנו נאבקים לצאת ממורשת ההיסטוריה שלנו ולתפוס את כוחנו ממערכות דיכוי, כי זו המשימה הגדולה של להיות אנושיים, באופן כללי ובאירוע שער ראשמון הזה עכשיו נפרש ברפיח ובמקומות אחרים; לחלום דברים בלתי אפשריים ולהפוך אותם לאמיתיים.

     יש כמה דברים שצריכים להיות נכונים גם אם הם מעולם לא היו, גם אם קיטס טעה ומציאת דבר יפה לא הופך את זה לכזה, גם אם תומס מאן צדק ואהבה לא יכולה לגאול שום דבר, גם אם כפי שחשש טולקין הגענו. בשער השחור ללא קשרי אחווה שיאחדו אותנו, גם אם כמו קאמי, עלינו לצאת מהחורבות כדי לעשות עוד עמדה אחרונה, מעבר לתקווה לניצחון או אפילו הישרדות.

       אין ישראלים, אין פלסטינים; רק אנשים כמו עצמנו, והבחירות שהם עושים לגבי איך להיות בני אדם ביחד.

      מה אנחנו שווים אם נאפשר למלכים שודדים חסרי רחמים לבצע זוועות, לבזוז ולשעבד אחרים?

      מה שווה הציוויליזציה המערבית, אם לא נעמוד במילים היפות שלנו? ומילים יפות הן נשארות, כמו אלה שכתב תומס ג’פרסון בהצהרת העצמאות ב-1776, סינתזה ותיקון של רעיונות מהובס, לוק, מונטסקייה, וולטייר ורוסו; “אנו מאמינים כי האמיתות הללו מובנות מאליהן, שכל בני האדם נבראו שווים, וניחנו על ידי יוצרם בזכויות מסוימות שאינן ניתנות לביטול, שביניהן חיים, חירות והרדיפה אחר האושר.”

      מהי אמריקה, אם לא ערבה לדמוקרטיה ולזכויות האדם האוניברסליות שלנו, ומגדלור של תקווה לעולם?

     מהי ישראל, אם לא מקלט לחסרי הכוח והמנושלים, המושתקים והנמחקים, כל אלה שפרנץ פאנון כינה עלובי האדמה, ביניהם העם הדמוני והנרדף ביותר בהיסטוריה האנושית, היהודים?

     הבה נשיב במילים שנכתבו על ידי J.R.R. טולקין בין 1937 ל-1955 בדמיונו המחודש והזוהר של מלחמת העולם השנייה בנאום האיקוני של אראגורן בשער השחור ב”שיבת המלך” המאחד אתוס, לוגו, פאתוס וקאירוס; “ייתכן שיבוא יום שבו אומץ לבם של בני אדם ייכשל, בו אנו נוטשים את חברינו ונשבור את כל קשרי האחווה, אבל זה לא היום הזה. שעה של זאבים ומגנים מנותצים, כשעידן הגברים מתרסק, אבל זה לא היום הזה. היום אנחנו נלחמים”.

      הצטרף אלינו.

Arabic

0 أكتوبر 2025 إذا أصبح السلام حقيقيًا ودائمًا بين إسرائيل وفلسطين، فإلى أين نذهب من هنا؟

بأمر واحد بسيط، نجح ترامب في إخضاع دولة إسرائيل العميلة وأنهى الرعب والانفصال عن كل تقاليد الحضارة الغربية وحقوق الإنسان العالمية التي تمثلها حرب غزة.

إن قيامه هو أو أي رئيس أمريكي بفعل الشيء نفسه في أي وقت خلال السبعين عامًا الأخيرة من الاحتلال الإسرائيلي والغزو الإمبراطوري والسيطرة على جيرانها سيظل إلى الأبد إرثًا من تاريخنا الذي يجب أن نحسب له حسابًا ونحقق الشفاء منه.

هذا بالطبع يفترض أن سلام ترامب، ويمكننا أن نسميه ذلك بلا شك، حقيقي ودائم، وأن أمريكا يمكن أن تحافظ على إرادتها لتصبح الضامن لحقوقنا الإنسانية العالمية التي كنا نحلم بها ذات يوم، وأننا نستطيع الحفاظ على السيطرة على إسرائيل، وأنه يمكن استعادة التوازن الذي يضمن الحرية والمساواة لكلا البلدين كشريكين في التحول إلى بشر.

وبوسعنا أن نقضي حياتنا كلها وحياة الأجيال القادمة في تحليل معنى التوازن في هذه الحالة، والتفاوض حول كيفية أن نكون بشراً معاً، بين شعب واحد منقسم بسبب التاريخ وسياسات الهوية إلى جانب أميركا والمجتمع الدولي برمته.

أو يمكننا أن نغتنم الفرصة الآن، ونعيد تصور وتحويل كل من إسرائيل وفلسطين كأمة واحدة موحدة حيث يتم التخلي عن جميع الانقسامات الدينية والعرقية والهوية الوطنية واستعادة التكامل.

إن مستقبلنا يقع على الأرجح في مكان ما بين هذين الميزانين، ولكن الشيء الوحيد الذي لا يمكننا التضحية به بين كل مستقبلنا المحتمل هو أن شعب إسرائيل وفلسطين يجب أن يكونا شريكين متساويين في اختيار مستقبلهما ورؤيتهما لما يرغبان في أن يصبحا عليه.

ربما تكون هناك فترة انتقالية حيث يتعين على أميركا والمجتمع الدولي أن يعملا كضامنين للسلام وحقوقنا الإنسانية، ولكن لا يمكن للمرء أن يفرض الفضيلة تحت تهديد السلاح، بل الطاعة فقط، وهذا يؤدي إلى خلق العبيد وليس المواطنين. هناك طرق أخرى أفضل لبناء الديمقراطية.

دعونا لا نرسل جيوشًا لفرض الفضيلة؛ دعونا نكون محررين، وليس مستعمرين.

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     في مرآة غزة تنظر إلينا الهاوية، ونحن أسرى الصور المشوهة لإسرائيل وأمريكا، وبقايا أحلام ملجأ المنبوذين والضامنة لحقوقنا الإنسانية العالمية، والوحوش التي أصبحنا عليها الآن.

      لا أستطيع التعرف على أي شيء في الأشكال التي تواجهنا، وعلى الرغم من أنني ألقي التحدي في هوة الظلام التي لا نهاية لها، فإن كلماتي لا تجد حدودًا ولا ترد أي أصداء، كما لو أن العدم يلتهمها.

      ومع ذلك، فأنا لم أهزم من قبل القوة الساحقة ورعب السلطة، ولم أخضع لليأس والعجز المكتسب، لأن هذا هو الفضاء الذي أعيش فيه، هذا الرعب، هذا الفرح، هذه الحرية.

      وكما قال لي جان جينيه عام 1982 أثناء حصار بيروت، في قضية خاسرة، في منزل محترق، في زمن ظلام دامس؛ “عندما لا يكون هناك أمل، نكون أحرارًا في القيام بأشياء مستحيلة، أشياء مجيدة.”

      آمل أن يظل هذا صحيحًا، بالنسبة لنا جميعًا ونحن نكافح للخروج من تراث تاريخنا والاستيلاء على قوتنا من أنظمة القمع، فهذه هي المهمة العظيمة المتمثلة في أن نصبح بشرًا، بشكل عام وفي حدث بوابة راشومون الآن وتتكشف في رفح وأماكن أخرى؛ أن نحلم بأشياء مستحيلة ونجعلها حقيقية.

     هناك بعض الأشياء التي يجب أن تكون حقيقية حتى لو لم تكن كذلك أبدًا، حتى لو كان كيتس مخطئًا والعثور على شيء جميل لا يجعله كذلك، حتى لو كان توماس مان على حق والحب لا يمكنه تعويض أي شيء، حتى لو كنا قد وصلنا كما كان تولكين يخشى عند البوابة السوداء مع عدم وجود روابط أخوة توحدنا، حتى لو كان علينا، كما فعل كامو، أن نشق طريقنا للخروج من الأنقاض للقيام بمواجهة أخيرة أخرى، بعيدًا عن الأمل في النصر أو حتى البقاء.

      لا يوجد إسرائيليون ولا فلسطينيون؛ فقط الأشخاص مثلنا، والخيارات التي يتخذونها حول كيفية أن نكون بشرًا معًا.

      ماذا نستحق إذا سمحنا لملوك قطاع الطرق القساة بارتكاب الفظائع ونهب واستعباد الآخرين؟

      ما قيمة الحضارة الغربية إذا لم نرتقي إلى مستوى كلماتنا الجميلة؟ وتبقى كلمات جميلة، مثل تلك التي كتبها توماس جيفرسون في إعلان الاستقلال عام 1776، وهي عبارة عن تجميع ومراجعة لأفكار هوبز، ولوك، ومونتسكيو، وفولتير، وروسو؛ “إننا نعتبر هذه الحقائق بديهية، وهي أن جميع البشر خلقوا متساوين، ومنحهم خالقهم حقوقًا معينة غير قابلة للتصرف، ومن بينها الحياة والحرية والسعي وراء السعادة.”

      ما هي أميركا إن لم تكن ضامنة للديمقراطية وحقوق الإنسان العالمية، ومنارة أمل للعالم؟

     ما هي إسرائيل، إن لم تكن ملجأ للضعفاء والمحرومين، والمُسكتين والممحيين، وكل أولئك الذين أطلق عليهم فرانز فانون اسم “المعذبون في الأرض”، ومن بينهم أكثر الناس شيطنة واضطهادًا في تاريخ البشرية، أي اليهود؟

     دعونا نرد بالكلمات التي كتبها جي آر آر. تولكين بين عامي 1937 و1955 في إعادة تصوره المضيء للحرب العالمية الثانية في خطاب أراجورن الشهير عند البوابة السوداء في عودة الملك الذي يوحد الروح، والشعارات، والشفقة، والكايروس؛ “قد يأتي يوم تفشل فيه شجاعة الرجال، ونتخلى عن أصدقائنا ونكسر كل روابط الصداقة، لكن هذا ليس هذا اليوم. ساعة الذئاب والدروع المحطمة، عندما ينهار عصر البشر، لكن ليس هذا اليوم. هذا اليوم سنقاتل.”

      انضم إلينا.

October 9 2025 Seventh Anniversary of Torch of Liberty, In the Shadows Of Tyranny and White Supremacist State Terror In America

     Seven years ago in October of 2018 I founded my publication Torch of Liberty to create actionable policy, strategy, and ideological guidance, and to provide intelligence briefings to the constellation of networks of alliance and organizations of liberation struggle globally which in the subsequent years have come to include Antifascists, Living Autonomous Zone and collectives, International Brigade volunteer forces, Resistance to tyranny and state terror including the Trump regime and the capture of the American state by the Fourth Reich, and democracy movements, and I write now in celebration and reflection of our journey together in the glorious quest of reimagination and transformation of human being, meaning, and value, of how we choose to be human together, of our solidarity and role as guarantors of each other’s humanity and universal human rights, and of the limitless possibilities of becoming human which we share. 

      Two thousand five hundred fifty five and more unique articles and counting, something between personal daily journals in which I process our shared public trauma of current events and interpretive and predictive essays in which I parse their meanings and work through the consequences of our histories and possible actions for our lives in this moment and for our future. Herein I sort among futures, using critical tools of literature, history, psychology, and philosophy, the instruments of my field of study since my teenage years which is the origins of evil as violence, inequality, and systems of oppression and dehumanization, and sort between tyranny and liberty, degradation and exaltation, to refine the human from the monstrous, the legacies of our history, and systems of unequal power, from falsification, commodification, and dehumanization.

     This mad Quixotic quest has taken me to places liminal and strange,  wherein our possibilities of becoming human are destroyed and recreated beyond the boundaries of the Forbidden in the uncharted places of our maps of human being, meaning, and value; the blank spaces and unknowns marked Here Be Dragons.

     Here among the Dragons we may lose ourselves, find ourselves, dream the impossible and make it real; for beyond the limits of authorized identities we are Unconquered and free.

     These past seven years encompass the whole struggle to save democracy against subversion by the Fourth Reich which has captured the state in the First and Second Trump regimes, the fight versus Trump’s ICE white supremacist terror force, the historic Black Lives Matter protests for equality and racial justice which seized fifty American cities and in which we Antifa direct action teams fought both police and Homeland Security forces and their deniable assets, brownshirts, and militias like the Oathkeepers and Proud Boys who were engaged in a destabilization campaign of arson, looting, violence, and the kidnapping, torture, and assassination of protestors as state terror and repression of dissent at the orders of the Triumvirate of Trump, Barr, and Wolf, which ended with the surrender of the United States to its citizens as the Triumvirs declared New York, Portland, and Seattle as Autonomous Zones, and Antifa emerged as the only force to have defeated the federal government of the US on its own ground or within her borders since Little Bighorn.

    It’s a strategy of centralization of power, manufacture of legitimacy, and capture of the narrative Trump has tried several times before and is now re-enacting as in the performative morality play of his Antifa Roundtable to shift the blame for the violence his forces inflict on the citizens who protest against it, as he sends armies to Occupy cities which are bastions of liberty like Chicago, Portland, and Los Angeles. Among the most vile and criminal acts of terror committed by his terror forces is the pepper ball shooting of Pastor David Black by ICE in Chicago. And this we must Resist, and as before we will be victorious for all refusal to submit to tyranny and state terror confers freedom, and we become Unconquered and Living Autonomous Zones bearing seeds of change which can liberate others. “Fire catches”; thus saith the Mockingjay.

     Grandeur to match the glory of our victories over the tyranny and terror of Trump’s regime and the Fourth Reich was found in our seizure of power in Seattle’s Capital Hill Autonomous Zone, the first of many which I helped to found throughout the world as the originator of the Living Autonomous Zones idea and networks of collective action and revolutionary struggle.

     Though I have often failed, as I did in the Last Stands at Mariupol in Ukraine though we survivors of the breakout founded networks of Resistance to take the fight to the enemy within Russia, Panjshir in Afghanistan after the Fall of Kabul, and now in Palestine and Lebanon against the brutal terror and genocide of Israel and her war of imperial conquest and dominion, though in the Red Sea Campaign to counter-blockade the Israeli blockade of humanitarian aid to Palestine we were victorious even despite Biden’s drone attacks and attempts to kill me personally in Yemen, still we were victorious in refusal to submit to force and control and we remain Unconquered and free.

    As the Oath of the Resistance given to me in Beirut 1982 by the great Jean Genet goes; “We swear our loyalty to each other, to Resist and yield not, and abandon not our fellows.”

    This, friends, this solidarity, this refusal to submit, this will to claw our way out of the ruins and make yet another Last Stand beyond hope of victory or even survival, this, this, this. 

    May we make a better future than we have the past.

   As I wrote in my post of February 9 2024, Why Do I Write, and Why Am I Writing To All of You Here, in the Nakedness of my Life, my Voice, and my Truth, as America Begins Her Last Stand Against Fascism in the 2024 Elections;    Now and then I poke sleeping dragons with a stick, among them my own normalities; its why I travel when I write about a place and its current events, to disrupt my own expectations and ideas as I act to bring change to systems of oppression.

     A maker of mischief, I.

     Today’s post in my daily journal Torch of Liberty marks my debut on the writer’s and reader’s community and newsletter platform Substack, an event  which calls for the questioning of my ends and means; why do I write, and why am I writing to all you here, in the nakedness of my life, my voice, and my truth, in this moment of tidal change as America begins her Last Stand against fascism in the 2024 elections?

     As I re-evaluate my mission of the Restoration of democracy and actions as a guarantor of our universal human rights both in America and globally, and its praxis as Resistance to fascism and revolutionary struggle against tyranny and systems of unequal power, I reflect on the path which brought me here and the Defining Moments of my history.

    First among these traumatic events of destruction and recreation which revealed to me my true self and mission, Bloody Thursday 1969 in People’s Park, Berkeley when the police at the order of then-governor Reagan opened fire on student protestors, and I at nine years of age holding my mother’s hand in the front line as I was driven out of my body by the force wave of a police grenade, and in that brief awareness beyond time as I lay dead in her arms beheld our myriad possible futures; overwhelmingly those of centuries of tyranny and wars of imperial dominion ending with the extinction of human beings. I’ve been trying to warn others in hope of changing our future ever since, and I am failing.

     Second my near execution by police who were bounty hunting abandoned street children in Sao Paulo Brazil where I was training as a fencer the summer before I began high school in 1974, when I refused to step aside between them and a boy with a twisted leg who could not run. I was rescued by the Matadors, something between vigilantes, revolutionaries, and criminals who brought a Reckoning to the wealthy and powerful beyond the law or who were the law, founded by the great and terrible Pedro Rodrigues Filho the year before, who welcomed me into their ferocious brotherhood with the words; “You are one of us; come with us. We can’t save everyone, but we can avenge.”

     Third was the Siege of Beirut in the summer of 1982, when my culinary tour of the Mediterranean before my senior year at university in San Francisco was interrupted by the Israeli invasion of Lebanon. Israeli soldiers had set fire to two children and were laughing and making bets on how far they could run before collapsing into ruin, and I found myself fighting them as the children screamed in agony and horror burning to death. Others joined me, more joined us, and from that day I was part of the defense of the city.

      There was a café on the far side of a sniper alley that served the best strawberry crepes in the world, and my friends and I made an extreme sport of dashing across it for breakfast. One morning an elegant gentleman sat at my table, and said in French; ”I am told you do this every day, steal breakfast from death.”

     To this I replied; “Yes; moments stolen from death are all we truly own, and set us free. It’s a poor man who has no joys worth dying for.”

     He smiled and said “I agree”; so began our conversations at breakfast, until the day came when Israel overran the barricades. The IDF were asking for surrender, blindfolding the children of those who came out and using them as human shields, and setting fire to the homes of those who refused. When they set fire to our house, and our discovery that our only weapon was the bottle of champagne we had just finished, he asked; Will you surrender?” and I said no.

      “Neither will I” he replied, and stood. “As I offer you now, offer others at need; this is the Oath of the Resistance which I invented in Paris 1940 after spending much of the previous year spying on the Nazis in Berlin, reworded from my oath as a Legionnaire in 1918. It’s the finest thing I ever stole. Say with me; We swear our loyalty to each other, to resist and yield not, and abandon not our fellows.” Thus was I set on my life path by Jean Genet, in a burning house, in a lost cause, in a time of fear and horrors, with the Oath of the Resistance which I now offer all of you.

     And he gave me a principle of action that day, by which I have lived now for over forty years, among the unknown spaces on our maps of becoming human marked Here Be Dragons, where there are no rules, and now recommend to you; “When there is no hope, one can do impossible things, glorious things.”

     Among his last words to me, having asked him “What do I do now with my life, now that I’ve seen through the lies and illusions by which authority seeks to enslave us? How do I live, when the world itself is a mirage and untrue, when the world is a lie?”

     To which he replied; “Live with grandeur.”       

     What is Torch of Liberty? A voice of democracy and the Resistance, as the banner of my periodical declares, whose intent is to incite, provoke, and disturb.

      A journal of my witness of history and current events, and their meaning for strategy, intelligence, and policy for antifascists, revolutionaries, democracy activists, and allies of liberation struggle, wherein I interpret events as they occur using lenses of history, literature, psychology, and philosophy. It’s a method I developed from Robert G.L. Waite’s multidisciplinary study The Psychopathic God: Adolf Hitler, which I read as a high school senior and also motivated me, along with Jerzy Kosinski’s The Painted Bird, to choose the origins of evil and its actions as war, genocide, violence, and the social use of force as my field of study.

     Seven years ago this month I founded Torch of Liberty and Lilac City Antifa together, a network of action and its community publication, to work through ideology and its praxis in the context of real world events and actions, to offer actionable intelligence, strategy, and ideological and policy guidance to all who make mischief for tyrants, and to reveal the meaning and consequences of current events. Herein I struggle to find answers to two primary existential questions.

     Who do we want to become, we humans; masters and slaves, or a free society of equals?

      What is to be done, as Lenin and Tolstoy asked with such different answers and results?

     If we are to inhabit the perspectives of others and transform boundaries into interfaces, we must be willing to embrace otherness as diversity and inclusion but also as truths written in our flesh, the witness of history, and what Foucault called truth telling; writing is a sacred calling in pursuit of truth, which like love frees us from the flags of our skin and from authorized identities as an imposed condition of struggle.

     Are we not the stories we tell about ourselves, to ourselves and to others?

     Always there remains the struggle between the masks we make for ourselves and those made for us by others. This is the first revolution in which we all must fight; the struggle for the ownership of ourselves.

    As Virginia Woolf teaches us, “If we cannot tell the truth about ourselves, we cannot tell the truth about others.”

     So for my ars poetica as a praxis of revolutionary struggle. But I do not write to you today as an apologetics for poetic vision as the reimagination and transformation of human being, meaning, and value, nor for chaos as the adaptive range and change potential of systems, nor to give warning as we pass through Rashomon Gate Events of history under multiple threats of civilizational collapse and the extinction of our species and on its reverse face the limitless possibilities of becoming human, nor of the joy of total freedom which balances the terror of our nothingness.

     No, friends and those I hope may become friends, herein I write to you to ask for your help in questioning our truths, that together we may perform the Four Primary Duties of Citizens; Question Authority, Expose Authority, Mock Authority, and Challenge Authority, as seizures of power, allyship, and solidarity in liberation struggle and bringing change to systems of oppression and unequal power, as guarantors of each other’s humanity and universal human rights in refusal to submit to authority and those who would enslave us through commodification, falsification, and dehumanization, in these years of the Last Stand Against Fascism as it unfolds in America and throughout the world.

     Hope, solidarity, the witness of history, and truth telling; such are my motives and purposes in writing to you as an open letter to humankind in this pivotal moment and to future generations.

       And last but most important of all among my motives and purposes in writing, like Hope hidden in Pandora’s Box once the evils have escaped, herein I write to find healing for the flaws of our humanity and the brokenness of the world in sharing our journeys toward becoming human and in the reimagination and transformation of how we choose to be human together.

       I hope to have lived, and written, not at the end of the story of humankind, but at its beginning.

        And all of this tumultuous and traumatic chaotization and unraveling as human civilization falls from the mechanical failures of its internal contradictions and is reborn, either to an Age of Tyranny or a United Humankind as our choices about how to be human together unfold across the next several centuries.

     We now face existential threats first of the subversion of democracy by theocratic tyranny and fascism in America and throughout the world, second of the abandonment of the idea of universal human rights, the collapse of civilization founded on the values of the Enlightenment, and the delegitimation of its bastion and incubator of a United Humankind the United Nations by Israel’s genocide of the Palestinians and other war crimes and crimes against humanity in the Gaza War and the lack of decisive action to stop it by the international community, third Russia’s invasion of Ukraine and other fronts of World War Three as she tries to refound her empire in Europe, the Middle East, and Africa, fourth China’s looming plan of imperial conquest and dominion of the Pacific Rim, and the end of the earth’s capacity to sustain life and our own species extinction as a consequence of our reliance on fossil fuels as a strategic resource which confers global dominion of the capitalist class and of our addiction to power and control of nature.

      First among our primary existential threats is Nazi revivalism in America and Europe and the emerging new global order of fascism and totalitarian states of blood, faith, and soil. This includes Trump’s captured state of Vichy America and his role as global figurehead of the Fourth Reich white horrifically combines white supremacist terror, Christian Identity nationalism and theocratic-patriarchal sexual terror, and unchecked kleptocratic grift and the rule of plutocratic elites through privatization and deregulation, Orban’s Hungary which is the launchpad for Nazi revivalism in Europe, the capture of Italy by the original Fascist Party, and the political fronts which have become the opposition parties in France, Spain, and elsewhere, but also fascist states beyond the limits of Nazi ideology arising from similar forces of identity politics and the centralization of power to carceral states of force and control which include Modi’s India, Myanmar, and the Netanyahu regime of Israel.

     Second among our direct and immediate threats is the Genocide of the Palestinians as the Netanyahu regime of Israel completes its transformation from a democracy to a fascist and totalitarian state of total militarization in the imperial conquest and dominion of her neighbors to found Greater Israel as a “Middle Eastern Sparta”, as American taxes buy the deaths of a people on whose bones Trump and Netanyahu plan to build a Riviera of casinos for elites.

And since Black Saturday October 7 2023 as the Gaza War erupted and became a regional theatre of World War Three as a theatrical performance in three dimensions; first the seventy years of anticolonial struggle of Palestine versus America and her colony of Israel which has gradually degenerated into a mirror image of the Nazi society it was designed to protect us all from, second the broader conflict between the Arab-American Alliance and the Dominion of Iran including Iraq, Lebanon, Yemen, and until we liberated it last December Syria, which is driven by the historical sectarian Sunni-Shia division, and third its dimensions as World War Three as Iran’s ally Russia attempts to re-found her Empire versus that of Turkey for control of the Mediterranean and the Middle East, in Africa directly opposing France, and in proxy wars with America, and all of this as civilizational collapse and rebirth in the titanic struggle between forces of liberation and imperial state terror and tyranny as a theatre of cruelty. All of this is fracture and disruption of our world order grounded in Humanism, and its our second most terrible threat to humankind after fascism and the Age of Tyrants to come because of the failure of the international community to stop it and the failure of America to bring our dog to heel with the Boycott, Divestiture, and Sanction of Israel, regime change in Israel, the total disarmament of Israel, and sending peacekeeping forces to help restore our universal human rights and to create a secular state of Israel where no faith of ancestral bloodline has status under the law. Israel is the shoal on which our civilization founders, and it must be reimagined and transformed if our human rights are to have value in the future.  

     Third among the lines of fracture of this large scale transformative process is the Third World War now ongoing in multiple theatres of conflict as Russia attempts to re-found her empire; first in the democracy and peace movements within Russia itself to bring regime change to its totalitarian plutocracy of crime syndicates, second the Russian capture of the state in America under the puppet regime of Trump who is also the primary figurehead of the Fourth Reich of patriarchal sexual terror, white supremacist terror, and theocratic Christian Identity tyranny, third in the Russian conquest of Ukraine and Russian atrocities and crimes against humanity, and in related conflicts, wars, and revolutions in Russian client states Belarus and Kazakhstan, and conflicts in Nagorno-Karabakh, Libya, and throughout Africa, as Putin tests the resolve of the western democracy and the solidarity of Europe.

    Fourth, and only this far down the list because Xi Jinping hasn’t launched it yet and we are not yet fighting in the streets of San Francisco, Los Angeles, San Diego, Seattle, Honolulu, Sydney, and elsewhere, we also face the coming Chinese Conquest of the Pacific Rim and the Occupation of all cities with a Chinatown under the Overseas Chinese policy of the CCP, which declares all persons of Chinese blood to be their citizens and subject to their laws, though the invasion of Taiwan and the seizure of control of shipping in the South China Sea through the artificial archipelago of island fortresses built on the carcasses of coral reefs are the next steps in Xi Jinping’s grand strategy of dominion. We need only look to the vast laboratory of thought control and ethnic cleansing in Xinjiang, the ghost of a nation in Tibet, or to the repression of dissent and freedom in Hong Kong to see what that future would look like.

     Fifth among the things that might dehumanize or kill us all is climate change, and like the Pacific Rim War it hasn’t truly become a visible threat for most of us yet, but it is inevitable. All that remains in question is how bad it has to get before we do something to stop it, and how quickly; because action now by a United Humankind reorganized for survival may keep its consequences within survivable boundaries. I believe we may have already passed the point of no return for our species, but as we become extinct posthuman species may emerge. The question now is whether something like ourselves will one day discover the ruins of our civilization, and begin to wonder who we were and why we destroyed ourselves.

     As you know if you have followed my work here at Torch of Liberty, I believe we face an Age of Tyrants and around eight centuries of wars fought with weapons of unimaginable horror ending with our extinction. But I could be wrong, because of my own limits or the Butterfly Effect of myriads of possible futures, recursive causes, and Rashomon Gate Events. It’s up to each of us, in the end, to choose our own future and who we will become.

     In this only our imagination limits us. Let us escape the legacies of our past, and with poetic vision reimagine and transform our possibilities of becoming human.

      In the end all that matters is what we do with our fear, and how we use our power. Do something beautiful with yours.

     Let us give to tyranny and terror, to fascisms of blood, faith, and soil, the only reply it merits; Never Again!

      Who am I? By way of introduction, here follows my usual social media profile:

     I am on the side of Prometheus; rebellion, chaos, anarchy, resistance, transgression, revolution, and the frightening of the horses.

     Chaos autonomizes; Order appropriates, Law serves power, and there is no just Authority.

     Always there remains the struggle between the masks we make for ourselves and those made for us by others. This is the first revolution in which we all must fight.

     I am a writer and former counselor, high school debate coach and forensics teacher, and English teacher with a lifelong interest as a scholar in the nexus of literature, psychology, history, and philosophy, my chosen field of study being the origins of evil and violence in the Wagnerian Ring of fear, power, and force and its consequences as unequal power and systems of oppression and the social use of force as tyranny and terror.

     What is the praxis of my values? My purpose as a democracy activist is to realize a free society of equals in which we are co-owners of the state and guarantors of each other’s rights, as a revolutionary to bring change to tyrannies of force and control and to systems of oppression, as an antifascist to bring a Reckoning to elite hierarchies of belonging and exclusionary otherness and to fascisms of blood, faith, and soil, as a member of the Resistance founded in Paris 1940 and sworn to its oath by the great Jean Genet in Beirut 1982 to do all of this without surrender and with absolute loyalty to my comrades in liberation struggle, and as the Oath goes “We swear our oath to each other, to Resist and cease not, and abandon not our fellows”, and as a human being to place my life in the balance with those of the powerless and the dispossessed, the silenced and the erased.

     Why is simple to answer, though never easy to perform; that we may fight our way out of the ruins, every time, no matter the cost, and make yet another Last Stand beyond hope of victory or survival, and claw back something of our humanity from the darkness.

    In this cluster of causes, democracy, revolution, antifascism, resistance, and solidarity with all those whom Frantz Fanon called The Wretched of the Earth, I travel and write, speak, teach, and organize liberation struggle.

      I practice the Way of believing six impossible things before breakfast, as Lewis Carroll teaches us, but only those I myself have chosen or created.

       When you begin to question the boundaries and interfaces between normality as authorized identity and transgression as seizure of power, between subjugation and liberty, the grotesque and the beautiful, idealizations of masculinity and femininity, of madness and vision, truths and lies, and to challenge the tyranny of other people’s ideas of virtue, you enter my world, the place of no rules, of unknowns and the limitless possibilities of becoming human, marked Here Be Dragons on our maps of human being, meaning, and value.

     Welcome to freedom and its wonders and terrors; to reimagination, transformation, and discovery.

     Thank you for sharing this journey with me, and may the new truths we create together bring all of us joy.

     Live with grandeur, friends.

“Fire Is Catching”; where we live now

The Hunger Games: Mockingjay – Part 1; Fire Catches

“If we burn, you burn with us”

Michael Sheen performs ‘Do not go gentle into that good night’ by Dylan Thomas

(who I am)

September 23 2025 On Becoming a Fulcrum of Change, In the Shadow of Trump’s Declaration of Antifa As a Terrorist Organization

February 11 2025 How To Be An Antifascist: Historical Sources and Contexts For The Resistance

July 31 2020 A Useful Past: What is Antifa?

Who I am: Defining Moments

November 14 2025 Defining Moments: A Confession, and Some Thoughts on My Birthday Regarding Poetic Vision as the Reimagination and Transformation of Ourselves; How Do We Create Human Being, Meaning, and Value?

November 15 2025 Defining Moments, Part Two: Last Stands

November 16 2025 Defining Moments Part Three: A Library of Possible Selves Through My Languages and An Atlas of Myself

November 17 2025 Defining Moments, Part Four: Songs Of Myself As the Books Which Have Written Me

            The Imposed Conditions of Struggle: America Under Occupation, as of  October 9 2025

ICE shoots Pastor David Black in Chicago

https://www.facebook.com/reel/1465018918159818

Trump calls for jailing of Chicago mayor and Illinois governor as national guard arrives in city

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/oct/08/trump-jail-brandon-johnson-jb-pritzker-chicago-illinois?fbclid=IwY2xjawNUuOtleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHma21tlzoVnJPXktBY16PrKsHFtYeqFXDDgDClqRapbr_yOldGyUOxcu1A1G_aem_JwDZylLnOmjY4BVviVONVw

What to know about Trump’s national guard deployment, from rulings to protests

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/oct/06/california-oregon-national-guard-trump-lawsuit

Brent Molnar, Voice of Reason

https://www.facebook.com/BrentMolnarVoiceOfReason

     “Operation Midway Blitz: When Border Patrol Turned Its Guns Inward…

It began as another enforcement sweep, another name on a growing list of operations meant to project power inside the country’s borders. “Operation Midway Blitz” was pitched as a coordinated crackdown on undocumented migration and “anti-ICE activity.” In reality, it was something darker. What unfolded on the streets of Chicago this week was not just a tactical blunder. It was a turning point. A Border Patrol task force, acting under a federal directive, shot an unarmed protester in broad daylight, and the story they told afterward began to crumble almost immediately.

     The protester’s name is Marimar Martinez, a 30-year-old activist who joined an anti-ICE demonstration on Chicago’s Southwest Side. According to early statements from the Department of Homeland Security, Martinez had “brandished a firearm” and “rammed her vehicle” into federal agents’ cars. The shooting, they said, was self-defense. That was the official version of events for about 48 hours. Then, the retractions began.

     Federal prosecutors quietly admitted that Martinez never pointed or raised a weapon. They acknowledged that her car contained a registered firearm but that it remained holstered and unused. They also stopped repeating the claim that she deliberately rammed law enforcement vehicles. Her lawyer, citing body-camera footage, said the truth was far more disturbing: Border Patrol agents instigated the confrontation, yelled “Do something, b****,” and then opened fire.

     If that version is true, the implications are staggering. It would mean that a federal agency, deployed for a domestic operation, provoked a civilian and then used lethal force under false pretenses. That would make the shooting not a matter of split-second fear but of deliberate escalation, a pattern increasingly familiar in Trump’s second term as ICE, DHS, and Border Patrol expand their roles from immigration enforcement to political suppression.

     The government calls these incidents “enforcement encounters.” But what we are witnessing looks more like occupation logic transplanted onto American soil. The armored vehicles, the camo-clad officers, the optics of control, they’re not policing borders. They’re policing dissent. And when they shot Marimar Martinez, they weren’t neutral arbiters of law. They were armed propagandists, ensuring the next activist thinks twice before showing up.

     The footage itself has not been fully released. Prosecutors admit it exists. They acknowledge that the shooting itself is not captured on camera, but surrounding video shows agents crowding Martinez’s car and shouting before she even exits. Her defense team says the physical evidence contradicts DHS’s version of the timeline. For now, the public must piece together fragments from statements, partial transcripts, and heavily redacted documents. It’s a familiar story of official secrecy buying time for narrative control.

     Federal agents are supposed to be trained to de-escalate, not provoke. Yet “Operation Midway Blitz” appears to have been structured around confrontation from the start. The operation’s scope, focusing on “urban anti-ICE agitators,” blurred the line between lawful protest and criminal conspiracy. That framing allowed agents to treat dissent as threat. When the first bullet was fired, the mission’s real purpose was exposed, deterrence through fear.

     Even the language officials used afterward reveals the mindset at work. DHS spokespeople called protesters “domestic extremists” and “anti-American infiltrators.” It’s the same vocabulary that justified federal crackdowns during the civil rights era and the anti-war movements of the 1960s. But this time, the machinery is bigger, faster, and algorithmically informed. These aren’t rogue cops on the beat. They’re militarized agents backed by data tools capable of tracking faces, locations, and affiliations in real time.

     The human cost is no longer abstract. Marimar Martinez is alive, but she’s in the hospital under guard, recovering from gunshot wounds to her shoulder and abdomen. Her lawyer says she is conscious, in pain, and facing felony charges of assaulting a federal officer, charges that prosecutors admit stem from an incident she may not have initiated. It’s the kind of legal trap authoritarian systems perfect: create a confrontation, cause the harm, then criminalize the victim.

     Meanwhile, DHS has not released the names of the agents involved. They have not confirmed whether they remain on duty. They have not said if an independent review will occur. Instead, their statement reads like an internal press release about “maintaining operational readiness.” No mention of accountability. No acknowledgment that a federal operation ended with a civilian shot in the street. Just bureaucratic silence masking moral collapse.

This is how systems rot. Not all at once, but by degrees. A government that uses its border patrol as a domestic army is no longer protecting borders. It’s policing the population. When officials hide behind “ongoing investigation” while their agents shoot unarmed protesters, it’s not investigation. It’s delay. And delay is the oxygen of impunity.

     The case of Marimar Martinez is not just about one shooting. It’s about whether America still recognizes the difference between law and power. Because if agents can shoot someone for protesting a government agency, then every citizen who raises their voice is already in their crosshairs. The bullet might not hit you, but it was meant for your silence.”

Trump just hosted an ‘Antifa roundtable’ at the White House. It was so much worse than you’re imagining: Holly Baxter reports on a meeting that, at one point, appeared to position people protesting against Nazis in the Weimar Republic as the bad guys, and at another saw the president declare, ‘We got rid of freedom of speech’

https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/trump-antifa-portland-pam-bondi-posobiec-b2842048.html

     “Wake up, babe, new civil liberties infringement propaganda just dropped! Today’s instalment of America’s ongoing descent into farce brings us a White House press release about “Antifa terror” and a presidential roundtable devoted entirely to the group that famously isn’t a real entity.

Around noon, a press release appeared on the official White House website, quoting numerous anonymous Portland residents, including a “man,” a “woman,” and a “business owner,” all of whom absolutely want the National Guard to storm their city. “I kind of support it 110%” is an actual quote.

But that was just the appetizer. At 3 p.m., the televised meeting began. And boy, was there a lot of meat.

Held at the table of “independent journalists” (far-right activists) and moderated by Donald Trump, it opened with a statement by the president that “paid anarchists” want to “destroy our country,” followed by bizarre, conspiracy-laden claims that anti-Trump protesters have signs made of expensive paper “with beautiful wooden handles” that therefore must have been printed in the basements of secretive organizations, and that “we have a lot of records already, a lot of surprises, a lot of bad surprises” in store for the people who align themselves with anti-fascism.

And by the way, he noted, “we got rid of free speech” because flag-burning is bad.

Attorney General Pam Bondi jumped in to underline the message: “We’re not going to stop at just arresting people in the street.” No, they’re going to “take down the organization brick by brick” and “destroy the organization from top to bottom.”

In chimed Kristi Noem, everyone’s favorite puppy killer: Antifa wants to “destroy the American people and their way of life” and is a group that has “infiltrated our entire country,” from “city to city,” cried the Homeland chief. Never mind that the anti-fascist protesters in Portland, Chicago and other Democratic cities are pretty much all homegrown Americans.

No, insisted ICE Barbie — they are invaders. They are traitors. They are “just as dangerous” as MS-13, Isis and Hamas. Her priority is “making sure they never see the light again.” This, by the way, is the woman who grandstanded about “staring down” Antifa when footage showed it was actually a couple of photographers and a guy in a chicken suit.

The quotes came thick and fast from the others around the table. At one point, someone casually addressed an imaginary Antifa member, saying: “You will be crushed by the Constitution.” Just as the Founding Fathers intended, no doubt.

The frenzied energy in the room was palpable even through a screen. Influencer Brandi Kruse did a monologue about how she used to “suffer from Trump Derangement Syndrome” and how, since she changed sides, “I’m happier, I’m more healthy, I think I’m even a bit more attractive.”

Not to be outdone, in came Jack Posobiec, one of the right’s weirdest hangers-on, who is perhaps most famous for the time he spread the “Pizzagate” theory and then got removed from the pizzeria in question by police for filming a child’s birthday party. Running with the major theme of the hour — that Antifa is definitely, certainly, really real despite all evidence to the contrary, and that everybody needs to stop saying it’s not real — Posobiec made a startling claim: Antifa is so clearly real that it “has been going on for almost 100 years … going back to the Weimar Republic in Germany.”

And look, yes, it is absolutely true that there were anti-fascist protesters in the Weimar Republic. If you’ll remember, those were the people taking issue with the early versions of the Nazis. But it’s sort of difficult to position yourself as the good guys if you’re aligning yourself with the Nazis in your historical analogy. I’m just saying that, if I was Posobiec’s publicity guy, I might ask him to drop that soundbite from future public appearances.

I think we all know what’s going on here. But let’s begin with the fundamentals: Antifa isn’t real — at least, not in the way one convenes a roundtable. It has no central command structure, no coherent leadership, no membership rolls, no headquarters. It is a loose ideological umbrella — a term that is sometimes used by disparate activists and local groups, but much more frequently by the far right than by the supposed lefties who are part of it.

Obviously, the fact that there’s no proof anyone even really identifies as Antifa didn’t stop the White House from designating the “group” a terrorist organization a couple of weeks ago.

Research shows that genuine political violence remains overwhelmingly driven by far-right actors, not nebulous “Antifa” networks. But this, truly, is where MAGA has arrived at: a place so far removed from observable reality that it now holds official government functions with imaginary enemies. Once, conservatism prided itself on being “the party of realism.” Today’s version treats politics as fan fiction, complete with invented villains and lore.

Such productive unreality takes the energy that could be spent on governing or solving problems and redirects it into myth-making. Instead of talking about wages, housing or climate disasters, we’ll talk about black-clad anarchists who can’t be fact-checked because they’re mostly not real. And then we’ll use their alleged existence to justify sending masked men with rifles into cities that, it just so happens, didn’t vote for us. You could almost admire the absurdity if it wasn’t attached to actual state power.

The constant threats at this roundtable aimed at “people with money” who are supposedly “funding” Antifa are the real point. And, like a lot of the White House’s output at the moment, it is intended to intimidate as many people as possible into silence.

In their little room with their teeny little microphones, a bunch of very important people in heavy makeup entered into a collective delusion today. They’re desperate for everybody else to join them. But there are some facts that just won’t un-fact. And for those of us who fancy ourselves OK with words, let’s remember that, no matter how much you twist it, being anti-anti-fascism means being fascist, even — especially — in the Weimar Republic. That’s just elementary logic.”

Heather Cox Richardson

https://www.facebook.com/heathercoxrichardson

October 8, 2025 (Wednesday)

     Yesterday, journalists observed members of the Texas National Guard at a U.S. Army Reserve Center in Elwood, Illinois, about 55 miles (89 kilometers) southwest of Chicago. This morning, the Defense Department announced the federal activation of about 200 soldiers from the Texas National Guard and about 300 from the Illinois National Guard, saying they would be protecting U.S. Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) agents and other federal agents “who are performing federal functions, including the enforcement of federal law, and to protect federal property.”

     The statement said the National Guard soldiers “are under federal command and control in a Title 10 status.” The section of the legal code to which the announcement pointed was the one permitting the president to call into federal service members of the National Guard whenever the U.S. is invaded or in danger of invasion by a foreign nation, there is a rebellion or danger of a rebellion against the authority of the U.S. government, or the president cannot execute the laws of the United States with the power of regular law enforcement.

     It is this power under Title 10 that White House deputy chief of staff Stephen Miller yesterday claimed was “plenary,” or absolute. The idea that exceptions to the rule of law reveal who is really in charge of the government was central to the political philosophy of German political theorist Carl Schmitt, who joined the Nazis and whose work is increasingly popular among the radical right in the U.S. these days. Since taking office in January, Trump has declared at least eight national emergencies that the administration has used to justify the use of emergency powers.

     As J.V. Last of The Bulwark laid out clearly last night, there is no crisis in Chicago that makes it necessary for the administration to send in National Guard troops. Last points out that any instability in Chicago has been caused by the administration’s surge of federal agents into the city, where they shot and killed Chicago resident Silverio Villegas González; raided and ransacked an apartment building, leaving residents—including U.S. citizens and children—bound outside for hours; shot an unarmed woman, Marimar Martinez; and aimed a weapon at a resident who was simply recording what the agent was doing, In each case, the government initially insisted the federal agents either were under attack or were rounding up “the worst of the worst,” but subsequent information has showed the federal agents were the aggressors in each situation.

     Federal agents have held journalists, who are now suing ICE and the Department of Homeland Security for the use of “extreme force” against them, and pummeled them with tear gas and pepper spray. As Last notes, local police chief Thomas Mills has testified that the “use of chemical agents by federal agents at the ICE facility in Broadview has often been arbitrary and indiscriminate. At times it is used when the crowd is as small as ten people.”

Illinois governor J.B. Pritzker warned that the administration is deliberately trying to “cause chaos, create fear and confusion, make it seem like peaceful protesters are a mob by firing gas pellets and tear gas canisters at them. Why? To create the pretext for invoking the Insurrection Act so that he can send military troops to our city.”

     As Joseph Nunn of the Brennan Center explained earlier this year, the Insurrection Act brings together a number of laws Congress passed between 1792 and 1871. They make up sections 251 through 255 in Title 10 of the United States Code. Together, they suspend the Posse Comitatus Act that prohibits the U.S. military from taking part in civilian law enforcement.

     The Insurrection Act permits the president to deploy troops to suppress “any insurrection, domestic violence, unlawful combination, or conspiracy” in a state that “opposes or obstructs the execution of the laws of the United States or impedes the course of justice under those laws.”

     Courtney Kube, Katherine Doyle, Carol E. Lee, and Garrett Haake of NBC News report today that White House officials, led by White House deputy chief of staff Stephen Miller, have been having increasingly serious discussions about having Trump invoke the act.

     This morning, President Donald J. Trump’s social media account posted: “Chicago Mayor should be in jail for failing to protect Ice [sic] Officers! Governor Pritzker also!”

     But Pritzker is standing up to the administration.

     “I will not back down,” he posted. “Trump is now calling for the arrest of elected representatives checking his power. What else is left on the path to full-blown authoritarianism?”

     “His masked agents already are grabbing people off the street. Separating children from their parents. Creating fear. Taking people for ‘how they look.’ Making people feel they need to carry citizenship papers. Invading our state with military troops. Sending in war helicopters in the middle of the night. Arresting elected officials asking questions. We must all stand up and speak out.”

     In an interview with MSNBC senior political correspondent Jacob Soboroff, Pritzker noted that Trump, who is a convicted felon, has a lot of nerve calling for Pritzker’s arrest. “[T]his guy’s unhinged. He’s insecure, he’s a wannabe dictator.” Pritzker said directly to Trump: “If you come for my people, you come through me. So come and get me…. We’ve done nothing wrong here and…it’s Donald Trump that is breaching the Constitution, breaking the law.”

     Illinois has sued to stop the administration from sending federalized National Guard troops from any state to Illinois, “because it is unconstitutional,” Pritzker said. “[I]t’s important to recognize that the Trump administration doesn’t seem to respect any laws in the United States. They just do what they want to do, and they’ll keep doing it unless someone stops them. Here in Illinois, we’re stopping it. We’re doing everything that we can to push back.”

     The administration is engaging in “a show of force,” Pritzker said, because it “wants to militarize major cities across the United States, especially blue cities in blue states, because he wants us to get used to the idea of military on the streets” before the 2026 elections. “I believe that he’s going to post people outside of ballot boxes and polling places. And if he needs to in order to control those elections, he’ll assume control of the ballot boxes” and let the administration count the results. Pritzker said we will have free and fair elections in 2026, “if we all stand up and speak out.”

     Today the White House tried harder than ever to push the idea that the country is consumed by violence from the “Radical Left.” This afternoon a press release from the White House claimed that “[f]or years, an Antifa-led hellfire has turned Portland into a wasteland of firebombs, beatings, and brazen attacks on federal officers and property—yet the Fake News remains in shameful denial about the Radical Left’s reign of terror.” In fact, before Trump ordered troops into the city, federal agents described the small protests at the ICE facility as “low energy,” consisting of people standing in front of vehicles, raising a middle finger, and playing loud music.

     To push the administration’s narrative, Trump held an “Antifa Roundtable” at the White House this afternoon. There, far-right influencers tried to make the case that “antifa” is real and has harassed them, although as The Guardian noted, many of those influencers feed their media channels by confronting protesters and filming the responses they’ve provoked. The press release claimed  that “terrorists” have “laid siege” to the ICE office in Portland, Oregon, and at the meeting, Trump claimed that “paid anarchists” want to “destroy our country.” Bizarrely, he claimed that “I don’t know what could be worse than Portland. You don’t even have stores anymore. They don’t even put glass up. They put plywood on their windows.”

     Antifa is a term used by the far right to define anyone who does not support MAGA: it means “antifascist.” During the meeting, influencer Jack Posobiec—a proponent of the Pizzagate conspiracy theory—warned that “Antifa” went back all the way to Germany’s Weimar Republic. As Holly Baxter of The Independent pointed out, “it is absolutely true that there were anti-fascist protesters in the Weimar Republic. If you’ll remember, those were the people taking issue with the early versions of the Nazis.”

              References

Discourse and Truth: The Problematization of Parrhesia, by Michel Foucault

(why we must question, bear witness, and remember)

The Psychopathic God, Robert G.L. Waite (How I parse the meanings of current events and the futures that unfold from them)

The Painted Bird, Jerzy Kosiński (How I imagined myself as a teenager coping with trauma as an origin story)

                       My Kit For Hope:

The Myth of Sisyphus, by Albert Camus

The Old Man and the Sea, by Ernest Hemingway

The Trial of Socrates, by I.F. Stone

Invictus, by William Ernest Henley

October 8 2025 On the War of Israel Versus Humanity

Israel unleashes the Nothing to consume us all in tides of nihilistic savagery, atrocities, terror, ethnic cleansing and genocide, fiendishly designed by Hitler and Franco as the doctrine of Total War and tested at Guernica to subjugate us through abjection, despair, and learned helplessness, for Israel is an empire of dehumanization and theft of the soul.

     All of this I defy.  

      In Palestine and Lebanon, and throughout a world shadowed by fascisms of blood, faith, and soil and imprisoned, Occupied, or in the path of imperial conquest and dominion by carceral states of force and control, enemies of humankind and our universal human rights sow division, weaponizing ideas of faith, race, and national identity in service to power.

      This we must resist.

      When they come for us, as those who would enslave us always have and will, let them find not a humankind which has abandoned hope and each other, but a United Humankind and a band of brothers, sisters, and others who are unconquerable in solidarity and refusal to submit. Why must we be each other’s jailors, and not each other’s liberators?

      This let us defend.

     “When there is no hope, one can do impossible things, glorious things”; so said Jean Genet to me in Beirut 1982, as we refused to surrender to IDF and were about to be burned alive as they had set fire to our cafe. I have lived by this principle for forty three years of liberation struggle, as the nations of Lebanon and Palestine do now, and I with them once again and always.

      This I advise as a principle of action, with one thing more; Solidarity. If we abandon not our fellows, and refuse to submit, we become Unconquered and free. And we will one day seize power from those who would enslave us. For we are many, we are watching, and we are the future. 

     As I wrote in my post of October 17 2023, Chaos Is the Great Hope of the Powerless: Case of the Hamas-Israel War; A wise friend has questioned my valorization of Chaos as a principle of change in the context of Black Saturday, a term which describes the Hamas attack on Israel and the immense forces of terror, death, destruction, fracture, grief, rage, and revenge it unleashed, becoming a single tide of darkness.

     Thank you once again for your kindness and your wisdom.

     In this moment of tragedy I am thinking of Chaos as a disruptive force of fracture and change which has stripped us bare of our ideologies to reveal the fragile humanity beneath, and may be leveraged for liberty or tyranny by how we respond as a species and global civilization. As Guillermo del Toro writes in Carnival Row, “Chaos is the great hope of the powerless”.

     What do I hope for now, for the peoples of Israel and Palestine? That both may unite to free each other, but first we will need universal humanitarian aid to any one on either side of these lines of division, and a Reckoning for the war crimes of both Hamas and Israel. For Israel took the bait, and gave Hamas the victory; they are now equal as war criminals without legitimacy.

    Except for this one critical and determinative truth; there is no right of defense against a people you are Occupying.

    Israel took the bait, and the world is calling them out for war crimes; this may be end of the Netanyahu alt right regime and the dawn of a new Middle East. I was absolutely expecting Biden and allies to enable Israel’s Final Solution to the Palestinian Problem; in this I rejoice to be wrong about human nature, should the noises Genocide Joe makes become meaningful beyond performative responsibility avoidance. Maybe the idea of human rights is not dead. As my mother used to sing to students who asked her to make authorizing statements about anything, artifact of a Shakespeare in Thirty Minutes theatrical show that toured nationally with some of her students in it, bouncing her open hands left and right; Maybe, maybe not, Maybe, maybe not.

     No one seems to have noticed publicly that this attack means Israeli intelligence has been infiltrated. It is also possible that unknown puppetmasters have infiltrated and seized control of both Hamas and Israel, for purposes which are unclear and antithetical to the interests and well being of either. We wander lost in a Wilderness of Mirrors, friends.

      What Reckoning, for crimes against humanity by an organization of terror which has long been a vanguard of anticolonial revolutionary struggle under the imposed conditions of Occupation, slavery, and a genocidal Blockade?

      Not the totalization of the general population of Palestinians in a genocidal campaign of ethnic cleansing as Netanyahu wishes and Hamas intends as a strategy of delegitimation of the Israel state in the moral equivalence of terror, for if Israel, her patron America, and the international community accept the terms of struggle offered by Hamas they too become organizations of terror, and Hamas wins.

     This is a decolonial revolution, and victory goes to the side who can establish the legitimacy and moral supremacy of their story. As my father taught me, Never play someone else’s game.

     Hamas also wishes in this provocation to weld the peoples of Gaza to them; this is a primary strategy of fascism and tyranny, to make the people in whose name you claim to act complicit in unforgiveable crimes. Always beware those who claim to speak and act in your name as a strategy of your subjugation.

     A third layer of meaning here is the ambiguity of the geopolitical and world-historical forces beyond the Holy Land; Russia, her ally Iran and the Iranian Dominion of Lebanon, Syria, Iraq, and Yemen, especially the Assad regime of Syria which has sent forces into Israel as a client state of Russia and Iran, and Hezbollah, which offers many of the social services of a government and may be in the process of emergence as an independent state, or a true empire in the transnational sense like the Holy Roman Empire. The great question here is; has Russia opened a new front of her plan of global conquest and made this a theatre of World War Three?

      How does one answer all of this? How bring a Reckoning for the terror of Hamas without authorizing and becoming complicit in the greater terror of Israel’s looming genocide of the Palestinians?

       The forms that might take give me pause, for they will determine our future, and though I know what I myself must do, I do not like it, and am calling out here in my journals, where I work through the consequences of my decisions before acting on them, for unknown possibilities I myself cannot envision.

     Yes, my friend, Chaos has profoundly destructive forms; death among them, ruin and civilizational collapse, the negation of all we have claimed as our identity, but all are also measures of the adaptive range of systems, and can give birth to new forms from this liberated energy. And as you point out, all forces operate in opposite directions at once, creating their own opposition. These are not moral forces in balance, but ambivalent forces which contain each other in recursion.

     So, while our nations try to shatter each other’s truths with overwhelming force and mass terror, I must find a path of least force to salvage what I can of our humanity, and I hope I will not fail as I did at Mariupol and Panjshir.

    This may be all we have as humans lost in chasms of darkness and a Wilderness of Mirrors, this refusal to abandon each other to dehumanization, but like our refusal to submit to authority it is a power which cannot be taken from us, even in imposed conditions of struggle designed to produce abjection and learned helplessness, or rage and tribalization as identity politics and the manufacture of consent to be fed into engines of death for the wealth, power, and privilege of hegemonic elites and tyrannies.

     Such ephemeral and insubstantial things, like whispered prayers to abyssal unknowns, figments of love, hope, faith, which belong to the shadows, the delusions of grandeur of beasts harnessed to systems of oppression by others who yet dream that we might become more.

    Dream with me.

     Embrace our absurdity as flawed things wrestling with immense forces of falsification, commodification, and dehumanization in a mad quest to become human, under imposed conditions of struggle typified by atrocities designed to produce abjection, learned helplessness, and despair, as we are consumed by the Wagnerian Ring of fear, power, and force in service to elite hegemonies of wealth, power, and privilege whose primary weapon is division and hierarchies of belonging and exclusionary otherness as identity politics and fascisms of blood, faith, and soil.

     Against all of this we have only our solidarity with each other, the redemptive power of love, our refusal to submit or to believe and trust authority which frees us as Unconquered and self created beings and Living Autonomous Zones, and our poetic vision in the reimagination and transformation of ourselves. Powers which cannot be taken from us, and which can seize the power of those who would enslave us.

     This is why I practice the art of believing impossible things, but only those I myself have chosen or created. And crucially, act to make them real. And in this case we must bring a Reckoning to the perpetrators of war crimes and crimes against humanity regardless of who they may be or in the name of what cause they act, and silence the drums of war.

     Dream with me, but act in solidarity to make it real.

     As the Mad Hatter says to Alice; “That is an excellent practice, but right now you might want to focus on the Jabberwock.” 

    Just so.

Confronting the Jabberwock

Young lives cut short on an unimaginable scale: the 18,457 children on Gaza’s list of war dead

https://www.theguardian.com/world/ng-interactive/2025/oct/08/young-lives-cut-short-on-an-unimaginable-scale-the-18457-children-on-gazas-list-of-war-dead

We fear what Israel will do to us if they seize our ship. But we are not turning back, Naoise Dolan

Polls and politics point to a sea change in US views on Israel. Will it matter?

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/oct/08/us-israel-relationship?fbclid=IwY2xjawNT38FleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHuoOMI3Wv5KtbDO4Srakz59f9pYVDoN-1ZtJa2D4xgUhUOyiv4ypuecPZjFw_aem_9Dr8-CNuRjwjtFOwiyGH1Q

               Palestine, a retrospective of my writing in 2025

September 28 2025 Restoring the Balance: Palestine, Israel, and the Anniversary of the Second Intifada

September 27 2025 A Martyr of Liberty and AntiColonial Struggle: In Memorium of Hassan Nasrallah, on the Anniversary of His Assassination

September 22 2025 On This 80th Anniversary of the UN, the United Nations and European Union Recognize Palestine, and L’Shanah Tovah

August 11 2025 Israel’s War On Truth: the Assassination Campaign Against Journalists

August 3 2025 Tisha B’Av Tyranny and Resistance: A Song of al-Quds and Jerusalem

July 28 2025 Plan 2028 Part Four: Restore America As A Guarantor of Our Universal Human Rights; the Case of Palestine

June 21 2025 We Balance the Terror of Our Nothingness With the Joy of Total Freedom, the Flaws of Our Humanity With the Redemptive Power of Love, and the Brokenness of the World With Our Absurd Hope For the Limitless Possibilities of Becoming Human: On Sartre’s Birthday, And A Eulogy

June 5 2025 Fifty Eight Years of Occupation, Theocratic State Terror, and Israeli Fascisms of Blood, Faith, and Soil: Anniversary of the Fall of Jerusalem In the 1967 Six Day War

June 2 2025 Greta Thunberg Runs The Israeli Blockade of Humanitarian Aid To Gaza With the Freedom Flotilla Coalition

May 29 2025 Anniversary of the Final Day of the Third Intifada of 2021: On The Origins of Evil in Fear, Power, and Force; Existential Questions In the Shadow of the Israeli Genocide of the Palestinians As the World Does Nothing to Silence the Rain of Death

May 23 2025 Anniversary of the International Criminal Court Issue of Arrest Warrant For Netanyahu and Charge of Leaders of Israel and Hamas Equally With Crimes Against Humanity In the Gaza War

May 15 2025 On This Anniversary of Nakba Day, Choose Love Over Hate and Solidarity Over Division

May 14 2025 America Falls With Our Failure of Empathy, Abandonment of Our Universal Human Rights, Cowardice in Confronting Evil, and Complicity in Genocide: Anniversary of Israel’s 2024 Rafah Campaign

May 11 2025 Anniversary of the Third Intifada of 2021, Part Two

May 10 2025 Anniversary of the Third Intifada of 2021, Now Ongoing In the Tenth Theatre of World War Three Which Contains and Supersedes the Gaza War

April 12 2025 This Passover, Stand Against Genocide. This Passover, Stand With the Children: the Peace and Divestiture Protests and Occupations

March 30 2025 Eid al Fitr

March 29 2025 A Two Front War Against Democracy In Palestine and America: the Case of Rumeysa Ozturk

March 28 2025 Witness of the Martyr Hossam Shabat, and His Eulogy By Sharif Abdel Kouddous

March 27 2025 Laylat al-Qadr Mubarak: A Joyful Night of Poetic Vision and the Reimagination and Transformation of Our Infinite Possibilities of Becoming Human

March 19 2025 Tyrants Attack In Campaign Of Genocide: Netanyahu Bombs Civilian Aid Corridor In Gaza To Divide It Into Bantustans As Trump Bombs Yemen To Break Our Counter Blockade of the Israeli Blockade of Humanitarian Aid

March 14 2025 On Purim: What Do We Mean When We Use the Phrase; “Never Again!”

March 1 2025 Ramadan Mubarak: In a Time of Terror and War, Rituals of Interdependence, Solidarity, Mercy, and Compassion and Allegories of the Redemptive and Transformative Power of Love in Healing the Wounds of Our Humanity and the Brokenness of the World

February 8 2025 Trump Dreams of A New Crusader Kingdom In Gaza As A Co Conspirator In Netanyahu’s Zionist Ethnic Cleansing and Genocide of the Palestinians

January 16 2025 Ceasefire In the Gaza War

January 3 2025 Whereas 2024 Was the Year Israel Lost Its Legitimacy, This Can Be the Year We Bring Change

Arabic

6 أكتوبر 2024 حول حرب إسرائيل ضد الإنسانية

تطلق إسرائيل العنان للعدم لتلتهمنا جميعًا في موجات من الوحشية العدمية والفظائع والإرهاب والتطهير العرقي والإبادة الجماعية، التي صممها هتلر وفرانكو بوحشية باعتبارها مبدأ الحرب الشاملة واختبرتها في جيرنيكا لإخضاعنا من خلال الذل واليأس والعجز المكتسب، لأن إسرائيل إمبراطورية نزع الإنسانية وسرقة الروح.

أتحدى كل هذا.

في فلسطين ولبنان، وفي جميع أنحاء العالم الذي تخيم عليه فاشيات الدم والإيمان والأرض والسجن والاحتلال، أو في طريق الغزو الإمبراطوري والهيمنة من قبل دول السجن والقوة والسيطرة، يزرع أعداء البشرية وحقوق الإنسان العالمية الانقسام، ويسلحون أفكار الإيمان والعرق والهوية الوطنية في خدمة السلطة.

هذا يجب أن نقاومه.

عندما يأتون إلينا، كما فعل أولئك الذين يريدون استعبادنا دائمًا وسيفعلون، فلن يجدوا بشرًا تخلوا عن الأمل وعن بعضهم البعض، بل بشرًا متحدين ومجموعة من الإخوة والأخوات وغيرهم ممن لا يمكن قهرهم في التضامن ورفض الاستسلام. لماذا يجب أن نكون سجانين لبعضنا البعض، وليس محررين لبعضنا البعض؟

دعونا ندافع عن هذا.

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6 באוקטובר 2024 על מלחמת ישראל מול האנושות

ישראל משחררת את הכלום כדי לצרוך את כולנו בגאות של פראות ניהיליסטית, זוועות, טרור, טיהור אתני ורצח עם, שתוכנן באכזריות על ידי היטלר ופרנקו כדוקטרינת המלחמה הטוטאלית ונבדקה בגרניקה כדי להכניע אותנו באמצעות חוסר אונים, ייאוש וחוסר אונים נלמד. , כי ישראל היא אימפריה של דה-הומניזציה וגניבת נפש.

 את כל זה אני מתריס.

 בפלסטין ולבנון, וברחבי העולם המוצל על ידי פשיזם של דם, אמונה ואדמה וכלואים, כבושים, או בדרך של כיבוש ושליטה אימפריאלית על ידי מדינות קרסראליות של כוח ושליטה, אויבי המין האנושי וזכויות האדם האוניברסאליות שלנו זורעים. חלוקה, מימוש רעיונות של אמונה, גזע וזהות לאומית בשירות לשלטון.

 לזה עלינו להתנגד.

 כשהם באים בשבילנו, כפי שתמיד עשו וירצו מי שיעבדו אותנו, הבה ימצאו לא מין אנושי שנטש את התקווה וזה את זה, אלא המין האנושי המאוחד וחבורת אחים, אחיות ואחרים שאי אפשר לכבוש בסולידריות. וסירוב להגיש. מדוע עלינו להיות כלואים זה של זה, ולא המשחררים זה של זה?

 זה נותן לנו להגן.

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October 7 2025 We Become A Hobgoblin’s Broken Mirror: Black Saturday

     In Palestine and Lebanon, our taxes buy the deaths of children. And their mothers, among other civilian noncombatants.

     My estimate of the Palestinian dead is 800,000, around one third of the population; this from the witness of my own eyes, having fought in liberation struggle throughout this terrible war of terror against hope, hate against love, and steel against flesh.

     Among all of the negation of our truths which Israel’s War Against Humanity has wrought, here are two truths which emerge from the legacies of our unfolding history we will never again be able to unsee or to avoid confrontation with; there is no right of defense against a people you are Occupying, and no moral equivalence between the violence used by a slavemaster and the violence used by a slave to break his chains.

      In the face of mass protests throughout America and the world, met with repression of dissent and propaganda by the state and both our political parties in a Great Wall of Silence, we persist in refusing to de escalate the conflict using the Boycott, Divestiture, and Sanction of Israel to end a genocide in which we are complicit.

     America has abandoned our principles of universal rights and our duty of care for others, and any pretense to morality or legitimacy as a democracy; this was among the many goals of Black Saturday, and both Israel and America took the bait.

     Where the Party of Treason and Tyranny is an enthusiastic sponsor of autocracies and state terror globally including Israel, the Democratic Party has maintained a strategic silence regarding our complicity in genocide and crimes against humanity, refusing to acknowledge it as a historical fact or the peace movement which drove Genocide Joe out of nation’s election, at a critical Defining Moment of our nation and with the future of democracy at stake, but replaced him with an overseer of the carceral state who wishes to rain doom upon the helpless migrants at our border and on the Palestinians whose nation is a Bantustan of slave labor and a concentration camp Occupied by an enemy to whom only their fellow Jews are truly human.

      I’m calling her Kommandant Kamala, as the salvation of both the Israelis and the Palestinians as equals and fellow human beings never became the center of her campaign, rather than enforcement of our dominion at our border and in our colony of Israel.

      Traitor Trump is worse than either Genocide Joe or Kommandant Kamala, for he believes in nothing and wishes only to amass wealth by building a riviera of casinos for elites on the bones of a people.

      The first rule of American politics is; nobody messes with the grift.

       In America, both our political parties betrayed us and abandoned the idea of our universal human rights, which was among the primary goals of Netanyahu when he committed this atrocity in collusion with Hamas. Sadly there was nothing new in this, not in seventy years of Israeli tyranny and terror sponsored by American taxes, vast military aid, and impunity conferred by our diplomatic cover and permission. No velvet glove, just the iron fist.

      Of course this is due to the nature and dynamics of power, and the recursive forces of fear, power, and force which act to centralize power to authority and subjugate slave castes through fear, thought control, and violence. All states are embodied violence, and in this democracies are proving no better than tyrannies.

     We have changed so little since the Pharaohs and priest-kings of the first city-states set themselves above all others as interpreters and spokesmen of the gods, and hired brutal thugs with aristocratic titles to keep the slaves at their work. I was hoping we were better than that.

     Civilization falls with the derelict antiquity of Israel and a Holy Land long abandoned by any merciful god, consumed by The Nothing we have summoned with the rain of death and terror, as our capacity for empathy withers under forces of degradation and dehumanization. Soon we too will become nothing, like the children we murder from a sanitized remove, for whom we feel no pity, mercy, or compassion, as they are not white and therefore beyond the circle of belonging and otherness on which our elite hegemonies of wealth, power, and privilege are constructed.

    The enemies of liberty wish to enslave us through divisions of ethnicity, faith, and historical national identity, categories of authorized identity largely constructed by elites in service to power, and through strategies of commodification, falsification, and dehumanization, to hollow out the values of democracy through subversion and capture of our ownership of ourselves and of human being, meaning, and value. This too we must Resist.

     This has been a terrible two years as our humanity becomes a Hobgoblin’s Broken Mirror; that which unites us as human beings has been shattered, and we are captive in the strange reflected images of its discontiguous surfaces. But we need not let this stand.

    Among the first questions which confront us in bringing a Reckoning to any systems of oppression, tyranny and carceral states of force and control, fascisms of blood, faith, and soil, subjugation to hegemonic elites of wealth, power, and privilege, and violations of our universal human rights is that of just cause or casus belli; who is responsible for these crimes against humanity?

     Within days of Black Saturday I was at the scene hunting the perpetrators, and what I found was a nest of vipers. What happened was a set of recursive and interdependent causes allied in a primary event of fracture and disruption which remain occluded still; including a coup within Hamas against its leadership, especially those targeted for assassination later by Israel on a false claim of having ordered the attack, by a Hamas faction opposed to peace in conspiracy with Netanyahu’s regime perpetrated this tragedy, but not alone. Several other groups, at least two whom are nominally enemies, a criminal syndicate with no political ideology whatever, plus a IDF Recon team, Sayaret Shaked as I knew it in Lebanon long ago or a successor force, which specializes in committing atrocities against Islamic groups while disguised as Arabs to sow division, were in the lead elements of the attack force, and joined quickly by opportunists of various kinds. Within days the special operations forces of several nations were in the mix, including allies of Palestine from the Iranian Dominion of Lebanon, Yemen, Syria, and Iraq as well as Russian intelligence and special operations forces, possibly with some of their African allies including Sudan’s RSF. This means Hamas cannot free all the hostages, because some are held by groups beyond their control including Israeli agents.

      But there is more, much more; an unknown third party infiltrated both Israeli and Palestinian organizations to play them off against each other for purposes I cannot guess but are obviously inimical to both, and to global peace and security. This is a long game, and our opponent as yet remains in the shadows.

     Who has both the skill and the motive to do this?  Cui bono?

     Netanyahu benefits, because this keeps him in power and gives him a causus belli for the imperial conquest and dominion of the Middle East and the Final Solution of the Palestinians; and his key ally Trump benefits in our election by staining the armour of Biden and Harris with cruelty and complicity in genocide, and in dividing the Left vote through ideological fracture, though both are trapped by decades old policies and alliances much as the belligerents of World War One were trapped in a system of alliances and set piece strategies which ensnared them with the assassination of the Archduke and brought the utter collapse of the old world of the aristocracy it was designed to protect, and kept in check by the vast wealth and political power of AIPAC and other cabals of wealth and power, and both Trump and Netanyahu benefit by making the idea of human rights meaningless, as does Trump’s puppetmaster Putin and other tyrants of the Fourth Reich or otherwise.

      But the legitimacy of Israel and America are a cost no one in either nations governments or intelligence and special operations communities would trade for these wins, and though the Fourth Reich, by which I mean a network of descendants of actual Nazis who have infiltrated the American state and others for seventy years, of which Trump is a figurehead and the de facto Fuhrer, clearly has the Long Game plans, the resources, and the genius, evil though it may be, to do this, no Nazi would ever help the Zionist state of Israel become an empire. This leaves the Russian FSB and its other intelligence agencies and Spetznaz forces, also with both the patience or vision, resources, and skill to do this, which may have been developing for decades; but Russia is committed to advancing her ally Iran’s dominion of the Middle East, which makes her the primary enemy of Israel and the Arab-American Alliance, and we have fought savage proxy wars in Syria and elsewhere to prove it.

     No, our nemesis and the true perpetrator of Black Saturday is not Russia or Iran, nor the Fourth Reich, and only partially Trump and Netanyahu equally with the jihadist faction of Hamas which I believe to originate with its blood enemy and rival for control of Gaza Al Qaeda; we face an unknown enemy willing to engineer a genocide to advance its mysterious goals, and all I can tell you about them is that they are far from done with us.

     The identification, exposure, and destruction of this unknown enemy and countering its interventions in human history is now my primary long range goal. Though we must also combat and bring a Reckoning for fascism and the black tide of identitarian nationalism and tyranny which threatens to engulf us, which is related to our unknown enemy in ambiguous ways.

     We live in interesting times.

      Where are we at now?

     A major objective of the attack was to spike the peace and solidarity with Palestine movements in Israel. Its a major reason why the Netanyahu regime conspired in the attack and why it targeted peaceniks. The result is an Israel without a Left, and a casus belli for the conquest of her neighbors and the centralization of power to the state. Many elements created the tragedy, but service to power was the reason Israel opened the gate, literally, and sent an IDF recon unit disguised as Arabs to provoke atrocities. This was authorized personally by Netanyahu and others at the top command of the state.

     None of this can minimize the crimes of others involved, but neither Hamas, Israeli agents inside Hamas, al Qaeda, Iranian allied elements, nor Assad regime agents and Russian intelligence and special operations forces, all of whom were involved, are responsible alone. Hezbollah and others cheered them on afterward, but Lebanon had nothing to do with it, and factionalized as she is may not be capable of foreign adventurism of this kind; Israeli has certainly worked hard to ensure it.

     Of the actual perpetrators, we have liberated Syria and brought a Reckoning to the Russian directed and Iranian connected component of this crime, the al Qaeda organization in Palestine was nearly wiped out by Hamas before the event, some of which actions I participated in, and conflicts with Iranian forces in Yemen destroyed their regional threat, and many of the individual perpetrators, both Israeli and others, are now dead from fighting each other or from internal conflicts. This leaves the Israeli regime and high command, who must be tried for war crimes and publicly brought to justice to restore the international rule of law and the idea of human rights on which democracy depends, and their terrible campaign of racist and theocratic genocide and imperial conquest and dominion to be ended through Boycott, Divestiture, and Sanction. In the end there will be peace only when there is justice, and I believe we must create a future secular state of United Israel and Palestine in which all citizens are equal.

     Let us return to First Principles with a simple question; Who is suffering and in need of mercy? It is a similar question to the one I ask to determine when and how to use force and violence, Who holds power?, but with a very different direction as to the unfolding of our future.

     Here in a Holy Land divided by the sectarian particulars of how to be human together in accord with the will of the Infinite as universal brotherhood and love, crimes which define the limits of the human are perpetrated against our most innocent, utterly powerless, and incapable of threatening anyone; children. Children whom the enemy of our humanity, the state of Israel and its sponsors including America, either brutalize and kill with glee in the hysteria of power or refuse to see and recognize in silence and complicity. And our history surfaces one figure to represent all of the children sacrificed to power and hate, and doomed by the complicity of silence.

     I ask you now, all of humankind, to abandon the path of our dehumanization and renounce genocide, ethnic cleansing, wars of conquest and dominion, and crimes against humanity.

      I ask, I beg, I demand; I ask you in the name of Anne Frank.

     As I wrote in my post of October 10 2024, Black Saturday: A Nation Divided Against Itself In Service To Power By Weaponized History, Faith, Race, and National Identity; Palestine Versus Israel, Liberation Struggle Versus Imperial Colonial Occupation, Round Ad Nauseum In An Endless Litany of Woes, Atrocities, and Horrors;

Forward: to my comrades in the Palestinian Resistance:

     Hello everyone;

    I have some thoughts on the recent events in Gaza, Gaza where I have fought  and lost someone I loved, and actions by Hamas whom I have fought alongside and count as my brothers in revolutionary struggle; actions of October 7 or Black Saturday which include the taking of hostages and murder of families, war crimes which have made peace impossible in the near future and have delegitimized the cause of liberation of Palestine by making it synonymous with dehumanization and atrocities. Such is the nature of power, and of fear weaponized in service to power.

    This now is my Resistance in the cause of the peoples of Palestine and Israel, a people divided by history and sectarian theocratic terror. I question the origins and motives of such actions, which trade a tactical goal of demonstrating that Netanyahu’s alt-right monsters cannot deliver the security by which they subjugate Israel, for a strategic one of legitimacy, and will not only weld American support to the tyrant but grant him permission and immunity for the Final Solution of the Palestinian problem he has long dreamed of.

     How can we salvage something of our humanity from this?

     Herein I invite question, and dreams of a better future than we have the past.

     Thank you for hearing me.

     Hamas has brought the Chaos to the American Empire and disrupted the legitimation of Israel by the Arab American Alliance versus the Imperial Dominion of Iran, and in reaction to the relentless genocide of the Palestinians by the state of Israel now captured by Netanyahu and his alt right band of thieves.

     Here now is the fulcrum of change and reckoning for seventy years of Israeli state terror and imperial conquest in an amoral and loathsome apartheid regime which inverts the values of its founding by becoming the death camps its citizens escaped, and betrays the hope and ideal of a refuge from hate and sectarian division as a reflection of the Nazis from whom they have internalized oppression as fascisms of blood, faith, and soil.

     Hamas has shattered all of this, potentially, with the myth of state surveillance and control as useful and effective means of subjugation of the slave castes of any state, and the myth of the invincibility and supremacy of Israeli intelligence and military hegemony of which it is a figure of the might of carceral states, tyrannies, and empires, and the calculated reprisals by Israel which will follow are designed by Hamas in this provocation to delegitimize Israel and fracture the solidarity of her allies and collaborators in terror, of which America remains the principal sponsor and villain.

     But the purposes of Israel in collaborating with Hamas in this crime against their own citizens are very different, and it remains to be seen which of these futures will become real; a free and independent Palestine as Hamas wishes, or a Middle Eastern Sparta and an Empire of Greater Israel as the Netanyahu regime wishes.

      In either case, the Rashomon Gate is open, and we must write our own future stories or others will write them for us.

     So many of the reactions to this tragedy both here among my friends and in the news media seem baffled, caught in the forks of a classic dilemma in which our heroes and our villains trade places, for in this stunning slave rebellion wherein the victims of Occupation and soon genocide and erasure have attacked their masters, the Wretched of the Earth with whom we might normally empathize have violated two of our most cherished moral values and rules of conduct; they are not defending but attacking, which makes justifications for war and the use of social force irrelevant though this ahistorical interpretation of events ignores seventy years of oppression and authorizes the conqueror by classifying the liberation struggle of their victims as terrorism, an argument we can therefore nullify as pro Israeli misdirection and the apologetics of power, and a second and far more serious point; Hamas has taken hostages and killed civilians including children, war crimes which violate our universal human rights and place the perpetrators beyond all laws and all limits.

      In this the perpetrators of Black Saturday have offered moral equivalence to Israel, and Israel has taken the bait. Which of them will be harmed more by this is in question, especially regarding internal Israeli society and the state, but both will be harmed greatly.

     A friend has written an apology for statements born of compassion which might be confused with support of Israel as a state rather than as a people, a distinction which makes all the difference; and to this I have written the following reply:

     There are no good guys in this story, just a people divided by history brutalizing each other with a savagery that threatens our humanity itself. I have fought in Gaza and lost someone there, and from my witness of history I say there is only one kind of truth which does not become a Rashomon Gate when faith is weaponized in service to power by those who would enslave us, and this is true of both sides in this or any war; Who is bleeding? Who is suffering? Who requires acts of grace and mercy? 

     Not who merits compassion, for often there are no innocent, and as Shaw teaches us in Pygmalion with the iconic speech of Alfred Doolittle this places a moral burden on victims which is unjust; merely who is suffering and needs our help, in this moment, always the only time we have.

     Solidarity of action, resistance, and liberation struggle all come after this; Tikkun Olam, a Jewish concept of reparative justice and praxis or the action of values, which I often describe as healing the flaws of our humanity and the brokenness of the world.

     You have nothing to apologize for; states work very hard to confuse and conflate legitimation of the state with defense of those in whose name it claims to act, using narratives of victimization, for who wears the white hat is a hero and beyond question. All states do this, for it is the nature of power to become centralized to authority as force and control. Among the true horrors of identity politics is awakening to realize that one is the beneficiary of a genocide, of slavery, of patriarchy, of unequal power in any form.

     So we are lost in Atherton’s Wilderness of Mirrors; lies, illusions, rewritten histories, falsification. But it is my fate to question all things, and many of them do not bear the test of unbelief.

     Always pay attention to the man behind the curtain.

     In this case I question the origins and motives of a blitzkreig which demonstrates the vulnerability of Israel, a tactical objective, at the cost of strategic goals; the immediate results include unifying global support of Israel and dividing the crucial solidarity between the anti-Netanyahu democracy and peace movements within Israel from the liberation struggle of their slave caste, the Palestinians, which was until this disruptive event in the process of becoming one united nation.

     Cui Bono? Neither Palestinians nor Israelis, though in the imperial totalitarian state of Israel and its fascisms of blood, faith, and soil they share a common enemy. Netanyahu and his regime benefit, though his promise of security for the people of Israel has been proven illusory and the feared Israeli intelligence and military a paper tiger as Hamas intended; whether this weakens or strengthens his hand is yet to be seen.

     Security is an illusion, one convenient for tyrants in the manufacture of consent to be subjugated. In this area of liberation struggle the victory of Hamas in breaching the Wall has been an unambiguous good.

     Bring down the Wall, all the walls. Not only the walls of our borders and prisons, but the walls of ideas between peoples most of all. In the long run, only this will bring us peace and a United Humankind.

     To make an idea about a kind of people is an act of violence.

     No matter where you begin with divisions of belonging and exclusionary otherness, you always end up at the gates of Auschwitz.

     Why, O Israel, reproduce the conditions of your historic trauma as the prison guards, with others cast in your former role? Why, when we could be guarantors of each other’s universal human rights in a free society of equals? Why must we be each other’s jailers, and not each other’s liberators?

     Let us emerge from the legacies of our history, and create ourselves anew.

     What happens next?

     Disruptive and polarizing events often confront us with a choice; who is your white hat and who your black hat in this story? Whose play will you back when they enter the arena at high noon? We will begin to become human when we free ourselves of this tyranny of good and evil, so vulnerable to the lies and misdirection of those who would enslave us and who claim to speak and act in our name, especially in theocracies. For as Voltaire wrote; “Those who can make us believe absurdities can make us commit atrocities”. Gott Mitt Uns; it is the most terrible battlecry, for it authorizes anything.

       Today the empire begins to strike back, as Biden declares that America will stand with Israel, with the state in exacting revenge through conquest and not with her people in freeing the hostages mind you, in the abominable reprisals Netanyahu promises, having been handed by his enemies immunity and sanction for the Final Solution to the Palestinian Problem he has so long dreamed of. Both this immediate trigger event of Total War as a doctrine created by Hitler and Franco and tested at Guernica and the conditions which created it are consequences of American complicity, for we as a nation have failed to enact the Boycott, Divest, and Sanction policies against Israeli state terror and tyranny which might have prevented it, and if we are to be liberators and not conquerors we must at minimum now pressure Israel to lift the Blockade of Gaza and recognize Hamas as its legitimate government. Let us send humanitarian aid, not armies.

      If we send warships to help Israel conquer Palestine, and not humanitarian aid to the Palestinians, America loses and our enemies win. 

      Netanyahu and Biden have declared intentions to answer force and fear with greater force and fear, as Israel accepts the offer of the moral equivalence of terror by her partner in this dance, Hamas. This will bring not lesser but greater terror, not democracy and a free society of equals but the centralization of power to totalitarian states of force and control. From the perspective of Israel and America or of any state, this is the true purpose of external threats.

     As my father once said; “Politics is the art of fear, and fear is the basis of human exchange. Fear is an untrustworthy servant and a terrible master; so, whose instrument will it be?”

     Of the recursive forces of fear, power, and force which are the true origin of evil and of its forms as violence, war, and police states, I say to you this one true thing; fear and force cannot answer fear and force. Only love can do this, and the redemptive power of love can free us from the Wagnerian Ring of Power, from falsification, commodification, and dehumanization.

     Why are we each others jailors, and not each others liberators?

       Here is the memorial I wrote for my friend, assassinated in Gaza by an Israeli sniper during the fighting in 2021; June 21 2022, We Balance the Terror of Our Nothingness With the Joy of Total Freedom, the Flaws of Our Humanity With the Redemptive Power of Love, and the Brokenness of the World With Our Absurd Hope For the Limitless Possibilities of Becoming Human; Death is the ultimate life disruptive event, the mirror image of Chaos as creative force and the adaptive potential of a system.

     This day I have re-enacted the stages of grief process as I relive an event of a year ago, caught in the labyrinth of its story, and as always with such complexes of memory, history, and identity I emerge through its passage with changed perspective.

     Some stories can shatter our lives, but also free us from the legacies of history and the limits of our former selves.

    This is a story which has become interwoven with my annual reading of Sartre’s works in celebration of his birthday, a juxtaposition which I find wholly appropriate, illuminating, and strangely hopeful.

    Are we not the stories we tell about ourselves, to ourselves and to others? 

     We choose our friends and lovers from among those reflections which embody qualities we wish to assimilate to ourselves or fully integrate into our consciousness and personality; and it is the interface between these two bounded realms, the Ideal and the Real, which I am driven to interrogate today.

     Here is where the art of questioning lives, at the intersection of Socratic method and classical rhetoric, the dialectics of history, and the problematization of our motives, feelings, and processes of ideation through the methods of psychotherapy.

      We speak of the juxtaposition of imaginal and actual realms of being as a form of Dadaist collage as pioneered by Tristan Tzara and instrumentalized as methodology by William S. Burroughs which creates the universe of our experience, of the discontiguous, relative, ambiguous, and ephemeral nature of truth described by Akutagawa in Rashomon Gate and the methods of fiction exemplified by Raymond Queneau  as applied to identity and self construal, and idealizations of masculine and feminine beauty as dyadic forces of the psyche which work themselves out through our relationships with ourselves and with others. These three parallel and interdependent processes shape who we become, and how we instrumentalize others in our self creation.

     We must first own the fact that dealing with our memories of someone is not the same as the lived experience of our history; it is all one sided and has been moved into an interior space of performance, and in which reimagination and transformation is ongoing. The map is not the territory, as Alfred Korzybski teaches us, nor is our idea of a person equal to the actual person themselves.

     What parts of myself do I embody as a figural space into which to grow in the character whom I have thought of as Cleopatra, with all of the ambivalence, power, legacies of cultural history, and liminality such an identification implies, how do I imagine her now, and what kind of story have I cast us in?

     I think of her now in terms of Rachel McAdams’ wily, sophisticated, and transgressive Irene Adler in Sherlock Holmes, as she became throughout the twelve years of our work in liberation struggle for the independence of Palestine, with elements of Millie Bobby Brown’s fearless, brilliant, and utterly without boundaries Enola Holmes as she began, bearing onward the colours of a beloved and presumed martyred family member in the course of investigating his disappearance. I am reasonably certain that this is not how she saw herself.

     For illumination as to how a Palestinian woman might imagine herself, the characters she may choose to play as role models and the stories she may embody as ritual enactments, even a highly unusual one such as she, we may look to the wonderfully rich culture of Palestine’s female film directors and authors; of auteurs Annemarie Jacir, Maysaloun Hamoud, Mai Masri, and Farah Nabulsi, and of novelists Susan Abulhawa, Liana Badr, Ghada Karmi, Sahar Khalifeh, Hala Alyan, and Sahar Mustafah.

     Bearing in mind that all such reading lists are nothing less than a set of authorized identities. As Margaret Atwood so splendidly demonstrates in her works, our intertexts are primary in the construction of our identities, including those of sex and gender, as mimesis and as dialectical processes of history.

     And this is where it never ceases to be fascinating, the study of human being, meaning, and value and the limitless possibilities of becoming human. For in the sphere of our relationships with others, parallel and interdependent with our relationships between the masculine and feminine halves of our psyche, each co-evolves with the other in recursive processes of growth and adaptation to change in the construction of identity.

     I say again; we interpret the actions of others and form relationships on the basis of our self-construal and ideas of ourselves, and we use our relations with real people to shape who we wish to become.

       How does this work out in real life? As a personal example of the discontiguous gaps of meaning in the interfaces between bounded realms of masculine and feminine personae, a free space of creative play, I offer the artifacts of memory of a figure which may or may not align with the martyr I know only by her Code Name: Cleopatra.

      Of the Last Stand in which we met and forged an alliance, betrayed and caught in a trap which we turned against our enemies who had trapped themselves in with us, which I think of as the final battle scene in the film Mr & Mrs Smith, this operatic quest was set in motion by the conflict of dominion between Hamas and al Qaeda in Gaza during August of 2009, during which the forces of light prevailed over those of darkness in the victory of Hamas, with Israel playing each against the other through infiltration agents, spies, deniable assets, and use of a special Recon team masquerading as various Arab factions to commit atrocities against presumed rival Arab groups in a classic policy of divide and conquer. This space of play was complicated by clan vendettas such as hers, and the usual political and religious fragmentation, crime syndicates, mercenary forces, tribalism, corruption, and the shadow wars of foreign states.

     Our paths crossed several times over the next twelve years, always in memorable circumstances, sometimes as allies and others as rivals, often as both. Which of these is the real and true version of her, or of myself? Such iterations of our images are without number, like the captured and distorted selves in funhouse mirrors aligned to reflect into infinity.

     Wilderness of Mirrors, a phrase from T.S. Eliot’s Gerontin, is one I use to describe the pathology of falsification of ourselves through propaganda, lies and illusions, rewritten histories, state secrets, alternate realities, authoritarian faith which devours truths. This I contrast with its opposite, journalism and the witness of history as the sacred quest to pursue the truth. We are made counterfeits of ourselves by systems of elite hegemonic power such as patriarchy, and by those who would enslave us, through capture of our stories as theft of the soul.

     James Angleton, evil genius of the C.I.A.’s Counterintelligence Service on whom John Le Carre based his character of George Smiley, infamously used the phrase in this sense as well, and it has become universalized throughout the intelligence community he shaped and influenced during the Second World War and its aftermath the Cold War. Writing in reference to David Martin’s biography of himself entitled Wilderness of Mirrors, Angleton described it as a “myriad of stratagems, deceptions, artifices, and all the other devices of disinformation which the Soviet bloc and its coordinated intelligence services use to confuse and split the West … an ever fluid landscape where fact and illusion merge.” And of course, everything he ascribed to the Soviets was true of himself, his own agency, and America as well, and of all states, for all are houses of illusion.

     The Netflix telenovela Operation Mincemeat uses the phrase, in a story about the creation of a fictitious officer bearing documents designed to trick the Nazis into preparing for the invasion of Europe somewhere other than Sicily, a series I watched with rapt attention because each of us is created by our stories exactly like this false identity attached to the body of a derelict. Within each of us, a team of authors, archetypes and transpersonal figures like the anima which concerns us here, create our personae through stories, a network of memories, histories, and identity; and they do so for their own purposes, which we do not always understand.  

     As T. S. Eliot has written in Gerontin, “After such knowledge, what forgiveness? Think now

History has many cunning passages, contrived corridors

And issues, deceives with whispering ambitions,

Guides us by vanities”

      We are such stuff as dreams are made on, as Shakespeare teaches us in Act IV, Scene 1 of The Tempest, a line spoken by Ariel. For if we are ephemeral and insubstantial beings, constructions of our stories, this also means that the ontological nature of human being is a ground of struggle which can be claimed by seizures of power.

      The first question to ask of a story is, whose story is this?

      Always there remains the struggle between the stories we tell about ourselves and those told about us by others; the masks we make for ourselves and those made for us by others.

      This is the first revolution in which we all must fight, the struggle for ownership of ourselves.

      Who then shall we become? Asks our self of surfaces, images, and masks which each moment negotiates our boundaries with others. 

     To which our secret self, the self of darkness and of passion, the self that lives beyond the mirror and knows no limits, unbound by time and space and infinite in possibilities, replies; Who do you want to become? 

     As I wrote in my post of June 21 2021, The Hope of Humankind: On Becoming Living Autonomous Zones as Agents of Chaos and Transformative Change; A friend has written in despair of our significance and hope for the liberation of humankind, of the impactfulness of our lives and our struggles which balance the flaws of our humanity against the monstrous and vast forces of a system of dehumanization, falsification, and commodification; for to be human is to live in a state of existential crisis and struggle for the ownership of ourselves.

     Today is the birthday of Jean Paul Sartre, and so this event finds me reading once again his magnificent reimagination of Jean Genet in Saint Genet: Actor and Martyr; Genet who set me on my life’s path with the Oath of the Resistance in Beirut during the summer of 1982.

     Israeli soldiers had set fire to the houses on my street, and called for people to come out and surrender. They were blindfolding the children of those who did and using them as human shields.

     We had no other weapon than the empty bottle of champagne we had just finished with our breakfast of strawberry crepes; I asked “Any ideas?”, at which he shrugged and said “Fix bayonets?”

     And then he gave me a principle of action by which I have lived for thirty nine years now; “When there is no hope, one is free to do impossible things, glorious things.”

     He asked me if I was going to surrender, and I said no; he smiled and replied, “Nor will I.” And so he swore me to the Oath he devised in 1940 in Paris at the beginning of the Occupation for such friends as he could gather, reworded from the oath he had taken as a Legionnaire. He said it was the finest thing he ever stole; “We swear our loyalty to each other, to resist and yield not, and abandon not our fellows.” So it was that I became the bearer of a tradition now over eighty years old and forged in the most fearsome and terrible conflict the world has ever known, shortly before I expected to be burned alive in the second of my many Last Stands.

     This was the moment of my forging, this decision to choose death over subjugation, and ever since being struck by it I have been a bell, ringing. And like the Liberty Bell with its iconic crack, I am broken open to the suffering of others and the flaws of our humanity. This has been the greatest gift I have ever been given, this empathy borne of a sacred wound, and I shall never cease the call to liberty, nor hesitate to answer as I am able the call for solidarity with others.

     This morning I awoke to a call to identify the body of a friend missing and believed killed in Gaza by Israeli terrorists in the savage street fighting which followed the rocket attacks of last week, which I was unable to do; I searched for my friend in this sad and ruined form, like the skin of a wild thing which has sung itself utterly away, and could recognize nothing.

    Where is my friend, agile, lithe, mercurial, fearless, insightful and quick witted, who always had four scenarios running and three escape routes, who survived against impossible odds through improvisation and leveraging chaos, whose vision could discern true motives within the secret chambers of the human heart and play them like an instrument as songs of rapture and terror, who chameleon-like and protean could shift identities as needed and behind their masks move among her enemies unseen?

      I never knew her true name; perhaps she no longer had one, as is true for so many of us who play the Great Game of futures and the possibilities of becoming human, a term popularized by Rudyard Kipling in the novel Kim. My own names are numberless as the stars, like those of an actor who has played multitudes of roles in films and theatres of many kinds.

     She first entered my orbit during the victorious struggle of Hamas against al Qaeda for dominion of Gaza in August of 2009 in Rafah, an Egyptian Palestinian drawn into the maelstrom of war like countless others by family duty and vendetta.

    Yet she said no to Israeli authority at great peril when she could have said yes and become a slave, stood in solidarity with others when she could have run; this was a choice, one which confers agency, autonomy, and self-ownership as a seizure of power in a limited and deterministic context. Refusal to submit is the primary human act, one which cannot be taken from us, wherein we become Unconquered and free, and able to liberate others.

     So it is that we may escape the wilderness of mirrors in which we wander, a realm of lies and illusions, captured and distorted images, falsification and the theft of the soul. For the authentic self, the image which we seize and claim as our own, flies free of its mad circus of seductions and traps. Hence we achieve our true selves and form, in rapture and exaltation as beings of our own uniqueness.

    Impossible that such grandeur could be reduced to its material form, like the abandoned shell of a fantastic sea creature which has grown beyond its limits and moved on, to realms unknown.

     The lines spoken by Hamlet while holding the skull of his friend Yorick came unbidden to my thoughts; “Here hung those lips that I have kissed I know not how oft. Where be your gibes now? your gambols? your songs? your flashes of merriment, that were wont to set the table on a roar? Not one now, to mock your own grinning?”

     For twelve years you danced with death, and danced away laughing, until today.

     Farewell, my friend; I’ll see you in the eyes of the defiant ones, who bear your fire onward into the unknown, and with it I hope your laughter. Our successors will need both fire and laughter, if the future we win for them is to be equal to its price, and worth living in.

     Our lives are like the dragon’s teeth sown in the earth by the Phoenician prince Cadmus from which warriors arise; from each, multitudes. For we live on as echoes and reflections in the lives of others, in the consequences and effects of our actions, in the good we can do for others which gathers force over time, and in the meaning, value, and possibilities we create.

     How can choosing death and freedom be better than submission to authority and its weaponization of fear and force?

     My experience of accepting death in confronting force and violence finds parallels in the mock executions of Fyodor Dostoevsky and Maurice Blanchot, and I’m not done challenging state terror and tyranny and forces of repression. I’m going to stand between people with guns and their victims in future, as I have many times in past, and here I find resilience among my motivating and informing sources; Sartre’s total freedom won by refusal to submit, and Camus’ rebellion against authority which renders force meaningless when met by disobedience, give me the ability to claw my way out of the ruins and make yet another Last Stand, beyond hope of victory or even survival.

     And all who are mortal share these burdens with me. In this all who resist subjugation by authority are alike as Living Autonomous Zones, bearing seeds of change; we can say with the figure of Loki; “I am burdened with glorious purpose.”

     We are all Nikolai Gogol’s hero in Diary of a Madman, caught in the wheels of a great machine he services, like Charlie Chaplin in his film Modern Times. But we know that we are trapped and enslaved, and we know how and why; we know the secrets of our condition which our masters would keep silent, and in refusing to be silent we can free ourselves and our fellows. This Michel Foucault called truth telling; a poetic vision of reimagination and sacred calling to pursue the truth which bears transformative power.

     So here I offer all of you words of hope for moments of despair, the horror of meaninglessness, the grief of loss, and the guilt of survivorship.

     Your voice has defied our nothingness, and resounds throughout the chasms of a hostile and dehumanizing world; gathering force and transformative power as it finds a thousand echoes, and begins to awaken refusal to submit to authority and to heal the pathology of our falsification and disconnectedness. 

    The voice of even one human being who bears a wound of humanity which opens him to the pain of others and who places his life in the balance with those whom Frantz Fanon called The Wretched of the Earth, the powerless and the dispossessed, the silenced and the erased, who in resistance to tyranny and terror, force and control, becomes unconquered and free, such a voice of liberation is unstoppable as the tides, an agent of reimagination and transformation which seizes the gates of our prisons and frees the limitless possibilities of becoming human.

    Despair not and be joyful, for we who are Living Autonomous Zones help others break the chains of their enslavement simply by condition of being as well as action; for we violate norms, transgress boundaries of the Forbidden, expose the lies and illusions of authority, and render the forces of repression powerless to compel obedience.

      This is the primary revolutionary struggle which precedes and underlies all else; the seizure of ownership of ourselves from those who would enslave us.  

     Such is the hope of humankind.

                  Through a Lens, Darkly: The Anniversary of 2025

Two Years of Genocide: Reporting and Surviving in Gaza  The Stream- Al Jazeera

Gaza Faces Renewed Displacement and Bombardment Amid Escalating Conflict

Al Jazeera October 3 2025

Israel intensifies Gaza bombardment for a second day despite US pressure to stop  Al Jazeera October 5 2025

Witness of Greta Thunberg, the girl who cannot lie

https://www.facebook.com/share/v/16VGA3wimW

The ruin of Gaza: how Israel’s two-year assault has devastated the territory

https://www.theguardian.com/world/ng-interactive/2025/oct/07/the-ruin-of-gaza-how-israel-two-year-assault-has-devastated-the-territory

A place of ghosts and memories: kibbutz residents ponder return after 7 October

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/oct/07/kibbutz-residents-ponder-return-home-after-hamas-attack-israel?fbclid=IwY2xjawNSHzJleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHh-JCUwaVi0WJHFnj_d54syItwHiK4QAvclR4Sr-PH1jOANAEY9b1lZvMVF3_aem_UbujkxUArc1vHEYx1ckwKA

The Zionist consensus among US Jews has collapsed. Something new is emerging

https://www.theguardian.com/world/commentisfree/2025/oct/07/american-jews-zionism

Diplomacy’s lowest point: how the Israel-Gaza conflict was mishandled

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/oct/07/diplomacy-lowest-point-how-the-israel-gaza-conflict-was-mishandled

Disappearing people, disappearing morals – how two years has changed Gaza and Israel

Two years after 7 October and the kidnap of my parents, hate is in fashion. For all our sakes, we need compassion

Israel and Hamas begin indirect talks as hopes rise of ending Gaza war

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/oct/06/israel-hamas-begin-indirect-talks-hopes-rise-ending-gaza-war

How likely is it that Trump’s Gaza plan will work?

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/oct/05/how-likely-trump-gaza-plan-work

Mamdani’s statement on October 7 anniversary draws ire from Israel

New York City’s mayoral candidate criticized after he commemorates Israeli victims and Palestinian war victims

         The Order That Was Fractured

Echoes of a Lost Gaza   Al Jazeera documentary

Palestine Before the Gaza War

Jenin, Jenin  

Gaza Mon Amour – Official US Trailer

The Time That Remains

Salt of the Sea

             Scratchings on the Wall of History, like the nail marks on a coffin lid by someone who has been buried alive

No Other Land

From Ground Zero

One year of Israel’s war on Gaza: A war of firsts  Al Jazeera documentary

Marking a year since 7 October attacks – in pictures

https://www.theguardian.com/world/gallery/2024/oct/07/marking-a-year-since-7-october-attacks-in-pictures?CMP=share_btn_link

One year on, Gazan families mourn their dead and question what future holds

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2024/oct/02/one-year-on-gazan-families-mourn-their-dead-and-question-what-future-holds?CMP=share_btn_url

US Jewish groups mark 7 October anniversary amid growing fractures

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2024/oct/02/jewish-groups-7-october-anniversary?CMP=share_btn_url

World leaders mark first anniversary of 7 October attack on Israel

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2024/oct/07/world-leaders-first-anniversary-7-october-hamas-attack-israel?CMP=share_btn_url

‘The pain will never leave’: Nova massacre survivors return to site one year on

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2024/oct/07/nova-festival-massacre-mourners-return-7-october-anniversary?CMP=share_btn_url

In the midst of war, Benjamin Netanyahu is a liability who can only make things worse. He must go, by Simon Tisdall

Hamas attack has abruptly altered the picture for Middle East diplomacy, by

Patrick Wintour

Israel attack is Hamas imposing itself on wider Middle East diplomacy, by

Peter Beaumont

Down with Netanyahu’s government! Stop the imperialist-backed Zionist onslaught against Gaza!

https://www.wsws.org/en/articles/2023/10/09/gvpr-o09.html?fbclid=IwAR0G56NTO0n5kUzpqqbQ1H5g_FDAMbv2iBvPYhWllg6Yv_2xfEm_GQi151o

                References

Tear Down the Wall, by Pink Floyd

Diary of Anne Frank full movie 2009

Operation Mincemeat Netflix trailer

Charlie Chaplin in The Factory

Song: “Monster” – Imagine Dragons (cover by Runaground on youtube)

With film montage of Marvel’s Loki

     Here I offer all of you words of hope for moments of despair, the horror of meaninglessness, the grief of loss, and the guilt of survivorship.

Zazie in the Metro, by Raymond Queneau

Rashōmon and Seventeen Other Stories, by Ryūnosuke Akutagawa, Jay Rubin (Translator), Haruki Murakami (Introduction), Yoshihiro Tatsumi (Illustrator)

The Posthuman Dada Guide: Tzara & Lenin Play Chess, by Andrei Codrescu

Shift Linguals: Cut-Up Narratives from William S. Burroughs to the Present,

by Edward S. Robinson

Mosaic of Juxtaposition: William S. Burroughs’ Narrative Revolution,

by Micheal Sean Bolton

Word Cultures: Radical Theory and Practice in William S. Burroughs’ Fiction,

by Robin Lydenberg, William S. Burroughs

Hamlet: Screenplay, Introduction And Film Diary, by Kenneth Branagh (introduction and screenplay), William Shakespeare

Saint Genet: Actor and Martyr, by Jean-Paul Sartre

The Wretched of the Earth, by Frantz Fanon, Jean-Paul Sartre (Preface)

Kipling’s Kim, a Longman Cultural Edition, by Tricia Lootens, Rudyard Kipling

Diary of a Madman and Other Stories, by Nikolai Gogol

Parrhesia

Discourse and Truth: The Problematization of Parrhesia, by Michel Foucault

The Marriage of Cadmus and Harmony, by Roberto Calasso

The Idiot, by Fyodor Dostoevsky, Anna Brailovsky (Translator)

The Instant of My Death / Demeure: Fiction and Testimony, by Maurice Blanchot, Jacques Derrida

Science and Sanity: An Introduction to Non-Aristotelian Systems and General Semantics, by Alfred Korzybski

The Rebel: An Essay on Man in Revolt, by Albert Camus

A Life Worth Living: Albert Camus and the Quest for Meaning, by Robert Zaretsky

Gerontin, by T.S. Eliot

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47254/gerontion

Wilderness of Mirrors: Intrigue, Deception, and the Secrets that Destroyed Two of the Cold War’s Most Important Agents, by David C. Martin

The Tempest, by William Shakespeare

The Wilderness of Mirrors; why are we each others jailors, and not each others liberators?

           Negotiating the Interface Between Bounded Realms, a Study in Film and Literature: the Anima or Inner Woman of my Platonic Ideal Versus the Ghosts of Memory of a Lost Friend

How I remember our meeting, betrayed and standing together against the world: Mr & Mrs Smith final gunfight scene https://youtu.be/zIxGhLILsNs

            How I imagine her now:

Rachel McAdams’ Irene Adler in Sherlock Holmes Montage to Britney Spears’ version of Bobby Brown’s My Perogative

Enola Holmes Montage to Fifth Harmony’s That’s My Girl

Cleopatra: Histories, Dreams and Distortions, by Lucy Hughes-Hallett

          How Palestinian Women Imagine Themselves, in Film:

Salt of the Sea, film by Annemarie Jacir

In Between, film by Maysaloun Hamoud

The Present, film by Farah Nabulsi

3000 Nights, film by Mai Masri

Soraida, a Woman of Palestine, documentary film by Tahani Rached

           How Palestinian Women Imagine Themselves, in Literature:

Mornings in Jenin, by Susan Abulhawa

Against the Loveless World: A Novel, by Susan Abulhawa

The Eye of the Mirror, by Liana Badr

In Search of Fatima: A Palestinian Story, by Ghada Karmi

Passage to the Plaza, by Sahar Khalifeh

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/52061970-passage-to-the-plaza

Salt Houses, by Hala Alyan

The Beauty of Your Face, by Sahar Mustafah

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/45894170-the-beauty-of-your-face

19 Varieties of Gazelle: Poems of the Middle East, by Naomi Shihab Nye

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/342068.19_Varieties_of_Gazelle

Arabic

7 أكتوبر 2025 نصبح مرآة مكسورة لغول

في فلسطين ولبنان، تشتري ضرائبنا موت الأطفال. وأمهاتهم، من بين المدنيين غير المقاتلين الآخرين.

من بين كل إنكار حقائقنا الذي أحدثته حرب إسرائيل ضد الإنسانية، هناك حقيقتان تنبثقان من إرث تاريخنا المتكشف لن نتمكن أبدًا من تجاهلهما أو تجنب المواجهة معهما؛ لا يوجد حق للدفاع ضد شعب تحتله، ولا يوجد تكافؤ أخلاقي بين العنف الذي يستخدمه سيد العبيد والعنف الذي يستخدمه العبد لكسر سلاسله.

في مواجهة الاحتجاجات الجماهيرية في جميع أنحاء أمريكا والعالم، والتي قوبلت بقمع المعارضة والدعاية من قبل الدولة وكلا حزبينا السياسيين في جدار الصمت العظيم، نستمر في رفض تصعيد الصراع باستخدام مقاطعة وسحب الاستثمارات وفرض العقوبات على إسرائيل لإنهاء الإبادة الجماعية التي نحن متواطئون فيها.

لقد تخلت أمريكا عن مبادئنا المتعلقة بالحقوق العالمية وواجبنا في رعاية الآخرين، وأي تظاهر بالأخلاق أو الشرعية كديمقراطية؛ وكان هذا من بين الأهداف العديدة للسبت الأسود، وقد ابتلعت كل من إسرائيل وأمريكا الطُعم.

حيث يعتبر حزب الخيانة والاستبداد راعيًا متحمسًا للأنظمة الاستبدادية والإرهاب الدولي على مستوى العالم بما في ذلك إسرائيل، فقد حافظ الحزب الديمقراطي على صمت استراتيجي فيما يتعلق بتواطؤنا في الإبادة الجماعية والجرائم ضد الإنسانية، رافضًا الاعتراف بها كحقيقة تاريخية أو حركة السلام التي طردت جو من الانتخابات ولكنها استبدلته بمشرف على الدولة السجنية التي ترغب في إنزال الدمار على المهاجرين العاجزين على حدودنا وعلى الفلسطينيين الذين تعتبر دولتهم بانتوستانًا للعمل القسري ومعسكر اعتقال يحتلها عدو لا يعتبره سوى إخوانهم اليهود بشرًا حقيقيين.

إنني أطلق عليها لقب القائدة كامالا، ما لم يكن خلاص الإسرائيليين والفلسطينيين باعتبارهم متساوين وبشراً مثلها يصبح محور حملتها، بدلاً من فرض هيمنتنا على حدودنا وفي مستعمرتنا إسرائيل.

وبالطبع يرجع هذا إلى طبيعة القوة وديناميكياتها، والقوى المتكررة للخوف والقوة والعنف التي تعمل على تركيز القوة في يد السلطة وإخضاع طبقات العبيد من خلال الخوف والسيطرة على الفكر والعنف. إن كل الدول تجسد العنف، وفي هذا لا تختلف الديمقراطيات عن الطغيان.

لقد تغيرنا قليلاً منذ وضع الفراعنة والملوك الكهنة في دول المدن الأولى أنفسهم فوق كل الآخرين كمترجمين ومتحدثين باسم الآلهة، واستأجروا بلطجية وحشيين يحملون ألقاباً أرستقراطية لإبقاء العبيد في عملهم. كنت أتمنى أن نكون أفضل من ذلك.

إن الحضارة تنهار مع سقوط فلسطين ولبنان، حيث تذبل قدرتنا على التعاطف تحت قوى الإهانة والنزعة الإنسانية. وسرعان ما نصبح نحن أيضاً لا شيء، مثل الأطفال الذين نقتلهم من مكان معقم، والذين لا نشعر تجاههم بالشفقة أو الرحمة أو التعاطف، لأنهم ليسوا من ذوي البشرة البيضاء وبالتالي خارج دائرة الانتماء والاختلاف التي بنيت عليها هيمنتنا النخبوية على الثروة والسلطة والامتياز.

إن أعداء الحرية يرغبون في استعبادنا من خلال الانقسامات العرقية والإيمانية والهوية الوطنية التاريخية، ومن خلال استراتيجيات التسليع والتزوير والنزعة الإنسانية، لتفريغ قيم الديمقراطية من خلال التخريب والاستيلاء على ملكيتنا لأنفسنا وللوجود البشري والمعنى والقيمة. وهذا أيضاً يجب أن نقاومه.

لقد كان هذا عاماً رهيباً حيث أصبحت إنسانيتنا مرآة مكسورة؛ لقد تحطم ما يوحدنا كبشر، وأصبحنا أسرى للصور المنعكسة الغريبة لأسطحه المتفرقة. ولكن لا ينبغي لنا أن ندع هذا الأمر قائماً.

من بين الأسئلة الأولى التي تواجهنا في محاسبة أي أنظمة قمع واستبداد ودول سجنية تعتمد على القوة والسيطرة، وفاشية الدم والإيمان والأرض، والخضوع للنخب المهيمنة القائمة على الثروة والسلطة والامتياز، وانتهاكات حقوق الإنسان العالمية، هو السؤال عن السبب العادل أو ذريعة الحرب؛ من المسؤول عن هذه الجرائم ضد الإنسانية؟

بعد أيام من السبت الأسود، كنت في مكان الحادث أطارد الجناة، وما وجدته كان عشًا من الأفاعي. ما حدث كان مجموعة من الأسباب المتكررة والمترابطة المتحالفة في حدث أساسي من الانقسام والاضطراب الذي لا يزال مخفيًا حتى الآن؛ بما في ذلك الانقلاب داخل حماس ضد قياداتها، وخاصة أولئك المستهدفين بالاغتيال لاحقًا من قبل إسرائيل بناءً على ادعاء كاذب بأنهم أمروا بالهجوم، من قبل فصيل حماس المعارض للسلام بالتآمر مع نظام نتنياهو الذي ارتكب هذه المأساة، ولكن ليس وحده. هناك العديد من المجموعات الأخرى، اثنتان منها على الأقل أعداء ظاهريًا، وعصابة إجرامية ليس لها أيديولوجية سياسية على الإطلاق، بالإضافة إلى فريق استطلاع تابع لجيش الدفاع الإسرائيلي، أو فرقة شاكيد أو قوة خليفة، والتي تتخصص في ارتكاب الفظائع ضد الجماعات الإسلامية بينما تتخفى في هيئة عرب لزرع الانقسام.

ولكن هناك المزيد، المزيد والمزيد؛ فقد تسلل طرف ثالث غير معروف إلى كل من المنظمات الإسرائيلية والفلسطينية لتأليبهما ضد بعضهما البعض لأغراض لا أستطيع تخمينها ولكنها معادية لكليهما وللسلام والأمن العالميين. هذه لعبة طويلة، ولا يزال خصمنا في الظل حتى الآن.

من لديه المهارة والدافع للقيام بذلك؟ من المستفيد؟

نتنياهو يستفيد، لأن هذا يبقيه في السلطة ويعطيه سببًا للحرب من أجل الغزو الإمبراطوري والسيطرة على الشرق الأوسط والحل النهائي للفلسطينيين؛ ويستفيد حليفه الرئيسي ترامب في انتخاباتنا من تلطيخ درع بايدن وهاريس بالقسوة والتواطؤ في الإبادة الجماعية، على الرغم من أن كلاهما محاصر بسياسات وتحالفات عمرها عقود من الزمان ويخضع لسيطرة الثروة الهائلة والقوة السياسية للجنة الشؤون العامة الأمريكية الإسرائيلية، ويستفيد كل من ترامب ونتنياهو من جعل فكرة حقوق الإنسان بلا معنى.

لكن شرعية إسرائيل وأمريكا هي تكلفة لا يمكن لأحد في حكومات الدول أو مجتمعات الاستخبارات والعمليات الخاصة أن يتاجر بها من أجل هذه الانتصارات، وعلى الرغم من أن الرايخ الرابع، الذي أعني به شبكة من أحفاد النازيين الفعليين الذين تسللوا إلى الدولة الأمريكية وغيرها لمدة سبعين عامًا، والتي يعد ترامب زعيمها والزعيم الفعلي لها، لديه بوضوح خطط طويلة المدى والموارد والعبقرية، مهما كانت شريرة، للقيام بذلك، فلن يساعد أي نازي دولة إسرائيل الصهيونية على أن تصبح إمبراطورية. وهذا يترك جهاز الأمن الفيدرالي الروسي ووكالات الاستخبارات الأخرى وقوات سبيتزناز، أيضًا مع الصبر أو الرؤية والموارد والمهارة للقيام بذلك، والتي ربما كانت تتطور لعقود من الزمن؛ ولكن روسيا ملتزمة بتعزيز هيمنة حليفتها إيران على الشرق الأوسط، وهو ما يجعلها العدو الأول لإسرائيل والتحالف العربي الأميركي، وقد خاضنا حروباً بالوكالة وحشية في سوريا وأماكن أخرى لإثبات ذلك.

لا، إن عدونا الحقيقي والجاني الحقيقي لأحداث السبت الأسود ليس روسيا أو إيران، ولا الرايخ الرابع، بل ترامب ونتنياهو بشكل جزئي ومباشر على قدم المساواة مع الفصيل الجهادي حماس الذي أعتقد أنه نشأ مع عدوها اللدود ومنافسها على السيطرة على غزة القاعدة؛ نحن نواجه عدواً مجهولاً على استعداد للهندسة لإبادة جماعية لتعزيز أهدافه الغامضة، وكل ما يمكنني أن أخبرك به عنهم هو أنهم بعيدون كل البعد عن الانتهاء منا.

نحن نعيش في أوقات مثيرة للاهتمام.

دعونا نعود إلى المبادئ الأولى بسؤال بسيط؛ من يعاني ويحتاج إلى الرحمة؟ إنه سؤال مشابه للسؤال الذي أطرحه لتحديد متى وكيف نستخدم القوة والعنف، من يملك السلطة؟، ولكن باتجاه مختلف تمامًا فيما يتعلق بتطور مستقبلنا.

هنا في أرض مقدسة مقسمة حسب التفاصيل الطائفية لكيفية أن نكون بشرًا معًا وفقًا لإرادة اللانهائي كأخوة وحب عالميين، تُرتكب جرائم تحدد حدود الإنسان ضد أبريائنا، وعجزنا التام، وغير قادرين على تهديد أي شخص؛ الأطفال. أطفال يعذبهم ويقتلهم عدو إنسانيتنا، دولة إسرائيل ورعاتها بما في ذلك أمريكا، بسرور في هستيريا القوة أو يرفضون رؤيتهم والتعرف عليهم بالتواطؤ. ويبرز تاريخنا شخصية واحدة تمثل كل الأطفال الذين ضحوا بالسلطة والكراهية، وحُكم عليهم بالموت بتواطؤ الصمت.

أطلب منكم الآن، كل البشرية، التخلي عن مسار نزع الإنسانية عنا والتخلي عن الإبادة الجماعية والتطهير العرقي وحروب الفتح والسيطرة والجرائم ضد الإنسانية.

أطلب، وأتوسل، وأطالب؛ أطلب منكم باسم آن فرانك.

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בפלסטין ובלבנון, המיסים שלנו קונים מוות של ילדים. והאמהות שלהם, בין אזרחים אחרים שאינם לוחמים.

 בין כל שלילת האמיתות שלנו שחוללה מלחמת ישראל נגד האנושות, הנה שתי אמיתות שעולות מתוך מורשת ההיסטוריה המתגלגלת שלנו, שלעולם לא נוכל שוב להתעלם או להימנע מעימות איתן; אין זכות הגנה נגד עם שאתה כובש, ואין שוויון ערך מוסרי בין האלימות שמשתמש באדון עבדים לבין האלימות שמשתמש עבד כדי לשבור את שלשלאותיו.

 לנוכח הפגנות המוניות ברחבי אמריקה והעולם, שנתקלו בדיכוי של התנגדות ותעמולה על ידי המדינה ושתי המפלגות הפוליטיות שלנו בחומה גדולה של שתיקה, אנו ממשיכים לסרב להסלים את הסכסוך באמצעות החרם, ההסרה וההסרה. סנקציה של ישראל לסיום רצח עם שאנו שותפים בו.

 אמריקה נטשה את עקרונות הזכויות האוניברסליות שלנו וחובתנו לדאוג לאחרים, וכל יומרה למוסר או לגיטימציה כדמוקרטיה; זה היה בין השערים הרבים של השבת השחורה, וגם ישראל וגם אמריקה לקחו את הפיתיון.

 כאשר מפלגת הבגידה והעריצות היא נותנת חסות נלהבת לאוטוקרטיות וטרור מדינות ברחבי העולם כולל ישראל, המפלגה הדמוקרטית שמרה על שתיקה אסטרטגית בנוגע לשותפותנו ברצח עם ופשעים נגד האנושות, ומסרבת להכיר בכך כעובדה היסטורית או כתנועת השלום. מה שהוציא את רצח העם ג’ו מהבחירות אך החליף אותו במשגיח על המדינה הגופנית שרוצה להמטיר אבדון על המהגרים חסרי האונים בגבולנו ועל הפלסטינים שאומתם היא בנטוסטן של עבודת עבדות ומחנה ריכוז שנכבש על ידי אויב שרק אחיהם היהודים הם בני אדם באמת.

 אני קורא לה קומנדנט קמאלה, אלא אם כן, כמובן, הגאולה של הישראלים והפלסטינים כבני-אדם שווים ועמיתים תהפוך למרכז הקמפיין שלה, ולא אכיפת השליטה שלנו בגבולנו ובמושבה שלנו ישראל.

 כמובן שהדבר נובע מהטבע והדינמיקה של הכוח, והכוחות הרקורסיבים של פחד, כוח וכוח הפועלים לריכוז כוח לסמכות ולהכפיף את קסטות העבדים באמצעות פחד, שליטה במחשבות ואלימות. כל המדינות מגולמות באלימות, ובכך דמוקרטיות אינן טובות יותר מעריצות.

 השתנינו מעט מאז שהפרעונים והכוהנים-מלכים של הערים הראשונות הציבו את עצמם מעל כולם כמתורגמנים ודוברי האלים, ושכרו בריונים אכזריים בעלי תארים אצולה כדי לשמור על העבדים בעבודתם. קיוויתי שאנחנו יותר טובים מזה.

 הציוויליזציה נופלת עם העת העתיקה הנטושה של פלסטין ולבנון, כאשר יכולת האמפתיה שלנו קמלה תחת כוחות של השפלה ודה-הומניזציה. בקרוב גם אנחנו נהיה כלום, כמו הילדים שאנו רוצחים ממקום מחוטא, שאין אנו חשים כלפיהם רחמים, רחמים או חמלה, מכיוון שהם לא לבנים ולכן מעבר למעגל השייכות והאחרות שעליו ההגמוניות האליטה שלנו של העושר, נבנים כוח וזכות.

 אויבי החירות מבקשים לשעבד אותנו באמצעות חלוקות של אתניות, אמונה וזהות לאומית היסטורית, ובאמצעות אסטרטגיות של סחורה, זיוף ודה-הומניזציה, לחלול את ערכי הדמוקרטיה באמצעות חתרנות ותפיסת הבעלות שלנו על עצמנו ועל האדם. הוויה, משמעות וערך. גם לזה עלינו להתנגד.

 זו הייתה שנה נוראית כשהאנושות שלנו הופכת למראה השבורה של הובגובלין; מה שמאחד אותנו כבני אדם התנפץ, ואנו שבויים בתמונות המשתקפות המוזרות של משטחיו הבלתי רציפים. אבל אנחנו לא צריכים לתת לזה לעמוד.

 בין השאלות הראשונות העומדות בפנינו בהבאת חשבון נפש לכל מערכות של דיכוי, עריצות ומצבים קרסראליים של כוח ושליטה, פשיזם של דם, אמונה ואדמה, הכנעה לאליטות ההגמוניות של עושר, כוח וזכות, והפרות של זכויות האדם האוניברסאליות שלנו הן של סיבה צודקת או קאזוס באלי; מי אחראי לפשעים האלה נגד האנושות?

 בתוך ימים של שבת השחורה הייתי במקום לצוד את העבריינים, ומה שמצאתי היה קן של צפעים. מה שקרה היה קבוצה של סיבות רקורסיביות ותלויות הדדיות הקשורות באירוע ראשוני של שבר והפרעה, שנותרו עדיין חסומות; לרבות הפיכה בתוך חמאס נגד הנהגתו, במיוחד אלו שנועדו להתנקשות מאוחר יותר על ידי ישראל בטענה שקרית שהזמינה את התקיפה, על ידי פלג חמאס המתנגד לשלום בקנוניה עם משטרו של נתניהו שביצע את הטרגדיה הזו, אך לא לבד. כמה קבוצות אחרות, לפחות שניים אויבים למיניהם, סינדיקט פלילי ללא אידיאולוגיה פוליטית כלשהי, פלוס צוות סיור של צה”ל, סיירת שקד או כוח יורש, המתמחה בביצוע זוועות נגד קבוצות איסלאמיות בעודם מחופשים לערבים כדי לזרוע חילוקי דעות.

יון, היו בגורמים המובילים של כוח התקיפה, והצטרפו אליהם במהירות אופורטוניסטים מסוגים שונים. תוך ימים ספורים היו כוחות המבצעים המיוחדים של כמה מדינות מעורבות, כולל בעלות בריתה של פלסטין מהדומיניון האיראני של לבנון, תימן, סוריה ועיראק וכן כוחות מודיעין ומבצעים מיוחדים הרוסיים, אולי עם כמה מבעלי בריתם האפריקאים. המשמעות היא שחמאס לא יכול לשחרר את כל החטופים, מכיוון שחלקם מוחזקים על ידי קבוצות שאינן בשליטתם.

 אבל יש עוד, הרבה יותר; צד שלישי לא ידוע חדר לארגונים ישראליים ופלסטינים כאחד כדי לשחק אותם זה מול זה למטרות שאינני יכול לנחש אך הן ללא ספק עוינות לשניהם, ולשלום ולביטחון העולמיים. זה משחק ארוך, והיריב שלנו עדיין נשאר בצל.

 למי יש גם את המיומנות וגם את המניע לעשות זאת? קוי בונו?

 נתניהו מרוויח, כי זה מחזיק אותו בשלטון ונותן לו סיבת באלי לכיבוש האימפריאלי והשליטה במזרח התיכון ולפתרון הסופי של הפלסטינים; ובן בריתו המרכזי טראמפ מרוויח בבחירות שלנו בכך שהוא מכתים את השריון של ביידן והאריס באכזריות ושותפות ברצח עם, אם כי שניהם לכודים במדיניות ובריתות בנות עשרות שנים ונשמרות על ידי העושר העצום והכוח הפוליטי של אייפא”ק, ושניהם. טראמפ ונתניהו מרוויחים בכך שהם הופכים את רעיון זכויות האדם לחסר משמעות.

 אבל הלגיטימיות של ישראל ואמריקה היא עלות שאף אחד בממשלות או בקהילות מודיעין ומבצעים מיוחדים לא יסחר תמורת הזכיות הללו, ולמרות הרייך הרביעי, שבאמצעותו אני מתכוון לרשת של צאצאים של נאצים אמיתיים שחדרו לאמריקאים. מדינה ואחרות במשך שבעים שנה, שטראמפ הוא דמות דמות שלהן ולפיהרר דה פקטו, יש בבירור את תוכניות המשחק הארוך, המשאבים והגאונות, גם אם היא רעה, לעשות זאת, אף נאצי לעולם לא יעזור לציוני. מדינת ישראל הפכה לאימפריה. זה משאיר את ה-FSB הרוסי וסוכנויות מודיעין אחרות וכוחות ספצנאז, גם עם הסבלנות או החזון, המשאבים והמיומנות לעשות זאת, שאולי התפתחו במשך עשרות שנים; אבל רוסיה מחויבת לקדם את השליטה האיראנית של איראן במזרח התיכון, מה שהופך אותה לאויבת העיקרית של ישראל והברית הערבית-אמריקאית, ונלחמנו במלחמות פרוקסי פראיות בסוריה ובמקומות אחרים כדי להוכיח זאת.

 לא, הנמסיס שלנו והמבצע האמיתי של השבת השחורה הוא לא רוסיה או איראן, ולא הרייך הרביעי, ורק באופן חלקי ומישיר טראמפ ונתניהו באותה מידה עם הפלג הג’יהאדיסטי של חמאס, שלדעתי מקורו באויב הדם שלו ויריבו לשליטה של אל-קאעידה בעזה; אנו עומדים בפני אויב לא ידוע שמוכן להנדס רצח עם כדי לקדם את מטרותיו המסתוריות, וכל מה שאני יכול לומר לך עליהם הוא שהם רחוקים מלהסתיים איתנו.

 אנחנו חיים בזמנים מעניינים.

 הבה נחזור לעקרונות הראשונים בשאלה פשוטה; מי סובל וזקוק לרחמים? זו שאלה דומה לשאלה שאני שואל כדי לקבוע מתי וכיצד להשתמש בכוח ובאלימות, מי מחזיק בכוח?, אבל עם כיוון שונה מאוד לגבי התפתחות העתיד שלנו.

 כאן בארץ קדושה מחולקת לפי הפרטים העדתיים של איך להיות אנושיים יחד בהתאם לרצון האינסופי כאחווה ואהבה אוניברסליים, פשעים המגדירים את גבולות האדם מבוצעים נגד התמימים ביותר שלנו, חסרי הכוח וחסרי היכולת שלנו. של איומים על מישהו; יְלָדִים. ילדים שהאויב של האנושות שלנו, מדינת ישראל ונותני החסות שלה כולל אמריקה, או מתאכזרים והורגים בשמחה בהיסטריה של הכוח או מסרבים לראות ולהכיר בשותפות. וההיסטוריה שלנו מעלה דמות אחת שמייצגת את כל הילדים שהוקרבו לכוח ולשנאה, ונידונו בשל שותפות השתיקה.

 אני מבקש מכם כעת, כל המין האנושי, לנטוש את נתיב הדה-הומניזציה שלנו ולוותר על רצח עם, טיהור אתני, מלחמות כיבוש ושליטה ופשעים נגד האנושות.

 אני שואל, אני מתחנן, אני דורש; אני שואל אותך בשם אנה פרנק.

October 6 2025 Love as a Divine Madness: a Celebration of Mad Hatter Day  

     We celebrate the beginning of the Halloween season, wherein we let our demons out to play, a time of masquerades, the performance of secret identities, violations of normality and transgressions of the boundaries of the Forbidden, reversals of order, the embrace of our monstrosity, of the reimagination and transformation of ourselves, and the pursuit of new truths through ecstatic trance and poetic vision, with our new national holiday of amok time, Mad Hatter Day.

     The Mad Hatter acts as a psychopomp or guide of the soul in Alice in Wonderland, and Alice is a Holy Fool like Parsifal, but he and Alice are also figures of a single whole person and the story one of hierosgamos or heavenly marriage; like Catherine and Heathcliff in Wuthering Heights, a myth into which Sylvia Plath and Ted Hughes cast themselves so disastrously.

     Jean Cocteau’s Beauty and the Beast interrogates this myth of idealizations of authorized masculinity and femininity as Freudian horror and Sadeian transgression. But it is also a primary myth of reimagination and transformation which signposts the inherent fluidity of identities of sex and gender.

     What does love do? Love sublimes us into a unitary being, erases our limits as individuals defined by our form and liberates us from the event horizon of our flesh.

     Love is a madness, but it is a madness which bears redemptive and transformational power, and a force of liberation which can return to us our true selves and allow us to transcend the limits of our form and inhabit the imaginal spaces of others.

     Love also reveals to us our true selves; a lover has the power to see the truth of others, and to reveal to others their true selves, and models thereby an ideal of human relationships. We choose partners who can help us become the person we want to be, and who embody qualities we wish to assimilate to ourselves; a healthy relationship returns to us and helps us discover our true and best selves. To love is to transform others by the power of our vision to see who they truly are and set them free.

     A lover is both a Pythian seer of truths who like Michelangelo can free us as images captive within the matrix of our bodies and our material and social context, who in naming us like Adam naming the beasts defines our truth, and an inverted figure of Medusa, goddess and monster, a victim cursed for the crimes of her abuser like Hester Prynne in The Scarlet Letter, and whose power to turn men to stone appropriates the dehumanizing and objectifying power of the Male Gaze and transforms it into the power to see others true selves and release them to be free, and to mutually assimilate the qualities of the other and transform them both.

     Love is a divine madness which defiles and exalts, reveals truths and confers authenticity, and the redemptive power of love can make glorious and beautiful the flaws of our humanity and bring healing to the brokenness of the world and the pathology of our disconnectedness.

     As I wrote in my celebration of Lewis Carroll, I Sing of Madness, Vision, and Love: Lewis Carroll, on his birthday January 27; I practice the art of believing “six impossible things before breakfast”, but only those I claim or create myself; this is my faith, though if asked directly I normally quote either Keats; “I am certain of nothing but of the holiness of the Heart’s affections and the truth of Imagination—What the imagination seizes as Beauty must be truth—whether it existed before or not—for I have the same Idea of all our Passions as of Love they are all in their sublime, creative of essential Beauty”, or Rumi; “Let the beauty you love be what you do”, depending on who is asking, and in what language and nation.

    To Lewis Carroll, Surrealist and philosopher of poetic vision, we are indebted for this primary insight which reconciles the transcendent truth of Keats and Romantic Idealism as developments of the western mystery tradition from Plato with those truths immanent in nature and written in our flesh.

    His great book Alice in Wonderland, like Mozart’s Magic Flute, encodes the mystery tradition, for which his primary sources are Plato, the Biblical Book of John the Evangelist which forges a faith of the Logos, and Coleridge’s Primary Imagination; but he also attempted to write a Summa Theologiae or seed of becoming human which can unfold itself within the mind of its readers as transformation and transcendence.

     Dense with word games of the Italo Calvino-Georges Perec variety and mathematical-philosophical puzzles which are satirical metacommentary on the great thinkers of his time, Alice in Wonderland is intended to transmit the whole of a classical education, but is also a Socratic dialog which questions the premises of our civilization. Few such total reimaginations have ever been attempted.

    I discovered Wonderland through the brilliant work of the mathematician Martin Gardner, which has been updated as The Annotated Alice: The Definitive Edition, when as a sophomore in high school I joined a reading group at the local university, carried along in the wake of my best friend, four years older than myself and a former Forensics student of my father, Doc (given name Brad) Hannink.

     This occurred during my teenage James Joyce-Ludwig Wittgenstein fandom and immersion in magic, a special form of seeking hidden realms of wonder behind the mirage of the world as performed in my father’s underground theatre as a form of Surrealist ceremonial magic and like a Frankenstein’s monster made of unlike parts, our family faith and history which combines voodoo, werewolf mythology, and bent versions of Grimm’s fairytales from our Bavarian origins with his Beatnik friend William S. Burroughs’ Chaos magic which assimilated medieval ceremonial magic, Crowley, and Lovecraft into Bataille’s Acephale cult of Nietzsche, both related to a love of languages and the occult as hidden systems of meaning. These enthusiasms of my youth foundered by my senior year on my failure to teach myself to read Kabbalah, as I discovered it is written not in Hebrew but in languages I could find no one to converse with or learn from, Aramaic and Andalusi Romance.

      But as a fifteen year old steeped in the occult, the iconography of Surrealism, the esotericism of Finnegan’s Wake, Korzybski’s General Semantics, and the Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus, paradigms in which secret worlds lay behind this one which operate by different laws as informing, motivating, and shaping forces of our own, I loved that Alice always questioned authority and regarded her as an anarchist hero and a figure of Socrates, and this remains the primary meaning of the work for me. Alice enacts parrhesia, what Foucault called truth telling, and I saw in her someone I wished to become.

      As I wrote in my post of January 8 2022, Let Us Bring A Reckoning; Politics is the art of fear as the basis of exchange and the origin of authority and unequal power as systemic evil in the Wagnerian Ring of fear, power, and force, as balanced with the desire to belong, but it is also about poetic vision as reimagination and transformation; to dream an impossible thing and make it real, as Washington did in crossing the Delaware to create America and as Alice teaches us when recounting the Six Impossible Things in her battle with the Jabberwocky. Herein the inherent human power of reimagination is deployed as a strategy of revolution against overwhelming force and tyranny.

      On the way to fight a dragon, and seeing it for the first terrible time, Alice remarks to the Mad Hatter in Tim Burton’s beautiful film; “That’s impossible.”

    To which the Hatter says, “Only if you believe it is.”

    “Sometimes, I believe in six impossible things before breakfast.”

     “That is an excellent practice, but just now, you really might want to focus on the Jabberwocky.”

     Just so.

      Kobo Abe takes tea at the Mad Hatter’s of an afternoon; Gogol has set his words on fire and is made of a holy light which is used in place of a chandelier, Kafka elicits squeals of delight from Alice with his hideous Gregor Samsa form, Klimt’s giant apelike Typhoeus and his daughters Madness, Illness, and Death run amok in ecstatic Bacchic dance with the Triple Goddess Lasciviousness, Wantonness, and Intemperance while Lovecraft tries to put something with tentacles back in its box.

     There is always an empty chair for you.

      Here follows some things I have written for the Festival of the Mad Hatter, which I celebrate as a three week Orphic vision quest which begins the month of Halloween, in three stages of one week celebrating madness as love, transgression, and vision, beginning on the National Mad Hatter Day of October 6 followed by stages on the second and third Sundays of the month, this year today, the 12th, and 19th.

     This week I celebrate madness as love, with all of its redemptive and transformational power, and perform acts of love as solidarity in resistance and liberation struggle where ever men hunger to be free.

      This is my special madness, this loyalty to and solidarity with my fellow human beings in revolutionary struggle against systems of oppression and  tyranny, of commodification, falsification, and dehumanization; but the world is also mad, and my path is to place my life in the balance with all those whom Frantz Fanon called The Wretched of the Earth; the powerless and the dispossessed, the silenced and the erased, and to become a fulcrum and change the balance of power in the world.

       I write to you from a hell of nightmares, death, atrocities, and terror dreamed by an Israel which defines the limits of the human and has become, in reproducing the conditions her people once escaped, a museum of private Holocausts.

     Here and elsewhere I Resist tyranny and terror to claw back something of our humanity from the darkness.

      No matter where you begin with divisions of elite belonging and exclusionary otherness, with fascisms of blood, faith, and soil, with the subversion of our equality and the abandonment of our principle of universal human rights, you always end up at the gates of Auschwitz.

     There are no Israelis, no Palestinians; only people like ourselves, and the choices we make about how to be human together.

     In the end, all that matters is what you do with your fear, and how you use your power; do something beautiful with yours.

     As I wrote in my post of July 18 2021, Of Love and Desire as Forces of Autonomy and Liberation; In my previous journal entry of yesterday I provided a brief outline of the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator test as a tool of discovery and description of the processes of masculinity and femininity as interdependent aspects of a whole personality, in the context of gender identity and performance.

      So we come to the final category of our interest here, sexual orientation. The most important thing to know about human sexuality as a dimension of experience is that it involves the whole person. Whereas a personality test can tell you who you are, and who others are or wish to represent themselves as, it cannot tell you who or what you desire. Desire remains ambiguous, and that is its great power as a force of liberation and autonomy. 

     The second is that desire is uncontrollable as the tides, an inherently anarchic and chaotic force of nature which is nonvolitional and for which we cannot be held responsible, unlike our actions toward others.

    In this I speak to you of truths which are immanent in nature and written in our flesh; we must claim our truths and celebrate what Walt Whitman called the songs of ourselves as victorious seizures of power, freedom, and joy.

     Love and desire are innate capacities of reimagination and transformative rebirth, which like Dorothy’s magic ruby slippers cannot be taken from us and bear the power to send us home to our heart’s desire, to restore to us the self  which is truly ours.

      My flesh is a map of private holocausts, written with silent screams, nameless loves, causes lost and won and both purchased with horror, pain, grief, life, and far too often that of others and not my own, ephemeral signs of our secret histories and the lies and illusions which capture and distort our images in a wilderness of mirrors and the pathologies of our falsification and disconnectedness.

     We have but one escape from the limits of our flesh and the flags of our skin; and this is love. In love we transcend ourselves and become exalted; through the redemptive power of love we may heal the flaws of our humanity and the brokenness of the world.

     As I wrote in my post of March 13 2021, A Year of Quarantine in Retrospect;

The quality of our humanity is not fixed, but always in motion, like the turbulent systems da Vinci studied in his fountain and which later with new mathematics came to be described as chaos theory. Identity is a process which is fluid, and our emotions are instruments with which it creates itself.

      We create ourselves over time, through our history of defining moments; human being is a prochronism, a history expressed in our form of how we solved problems of adaptation. What we call our self or our soul is no different in kind from the exoskeleton of an insect or the shell of a sea creature.

     And we create ourselves through our interdependence with others, our relationships, friends, families, communities, and the systems of signs thereof. 

     Human being has in this scheme three orders of relationships; persona, history, and interdependence, and all of it is in motion, dynamic and inherently unstable.

     Impermanence is the defining quality of nature and the material universe; so also is the controlling metaphor and condition of human nature, being, and identity our ephemeral, transitory, and protean forms. Nature is a mirror which reflects itself, and like the Hobgoblin’ fragmented mirror in Hans Christian Andersen’s The Snow Queen, reveals endless possibilities of becoming human; the inward and outward halves of the cosmos also create and define each other in mutual coevolution, like Escher’s Drawing Hands.

    Humans are naturally polyamorous in the sense that we are animals which can enjoy all pleasure and are enculturated to be otherwise; we are shaped by sociohistorical forces in the sphere of gender identity and sexual orientation to deny our true nature. It is normality which is deviant, and from which misogyny, the system of Patriarchy, and other destructive illnesses of the spirit arise; fear weaponized in service to power, fear of otherness but also of nature and ourselves. Here is the true origin of evil as the social use of force and violence in self-hatred.

     As Goethe wrote in Faust; “Let us extend our lives through our bodies in all directions possible”.

     For me the origin of human evil is in unequal relationships and the Wagnerian Ring of fear, power, and force, pathologies of violence and dominion which as with the figure of Alberich the dwarf require the renunciation of love as their price; not in the Violation of Normality and its taboos, the Transgression of the Forbidden, or the Defiance of Authority, three things I count as sacred acts in pursuit of the truth of ourselves, but in the systemic and structural injustices and inequalities of hegemonic elites, their lies and illusions which falsify us and steal our souls, and the state tyranny and terror of brutal force and control which we must resist and refuse to submit to, that we may become autonomous and free as self- created and self-owned beings; for power and force are meaningless when met with disobedience, and in the moment of our refusal to submit to authority we become Unconquered and free. 

     I say again; human sexual orientation is not a spectrum with endpoint limits, for whatever you imagine as the most extreme transgressions in any direction becomes a boundary of the Forbidden which I guarantee you others have violated and exceeded, and also implies moral judgement when it is impolite to ick someone else’s yum and is moreover an illusion in a universe where good and evil do not exist beyond our actions toward others, but a Moebius Loop of infinite possibilities, and we are born and exist by nature everywhere along it at once. All else is limitation and control imposed artificially as dominion, captivity, and falsification by authorized identities, or a seizure of power and self-ownership in revolutionary struggle against such narratives, hierarchies, and divisions.

     Writing of love in Letters to Milena, Franz Kafka gives us this witness; “I wish the world were ending tomorrow. Then I could take the next train, arrive at your door in Vienna, and say, Come with me, Milena. We are going to love each other without scruples or fear or restraint. Because the world is ending tomorrow.

    Perhaps we don’t love unreasonably because we think we have time, or have to reckon with time. But what if we don’t have time? Or what if time, as we know it, is irrelevant? Ah, if only the world were ending tomorrow. We could help each other very much.”

     Here is the true origin of Nietzsche’s idea of Eternal Return as a test and praxis of Authenticity, and it recalls to me something I once said to Jean Genet. He had sat down at my table after my friends and I made our morning race against death, crossing a sniper alley to reach a cafe in Beirut that had the best strawberry crepes in the world.

     “I’m told you do this every day, steal breakfast from death.”

     To which I replied, “It’s a poor man who loves nothing beyond reason, and has no pleasures worth dying for.”

     He smiled and said,” I agree”; this was the beginning of our conversations at breakfast in the days of the terrible siege, which would reset the path of my life. He saw me, Genet did, and set me free to create and discover my true self on the path of the Resistance.

      My wish for all of us is that we may find such friends who can reveal to us our true selves and offer figural spaces into which to grow; such is my functional definition of love.

     Through love and desire we pursue a sacred calling to discover our truths, truths which are immanent in nature and written in our flesh. Herein also we escape the limits of our flesh as we become sublimed and exalted in unification with others, who free our captive images from the wilderness of mirrors which falsify us. Love is an instrument with which we may liberate and empower each other and restore to one another our autonomy and authenticity.

     Love and desire are forces of liberation, uncontrollable as the tides and inherently anarchic. They are our most powerful weapons against authority and tyranny; for they can neither be taken from us nor limited.

      Love like you have laughed in the face of your executioner, for this is exactly what love is. 

       Herein I cite a marvelous article by Babette Babich, professor of philosophy at Fordham University in New York City. Of her exploration of the kinds of love, she writes in The Philosophical Salon of the Los Angeles Review of Books; “I was trying to go beyond the four in question, to xenia, the rights of a guest, a key notion for a political theorist. It refers to the love of the stranger, which is crucial today in an age of migrant crises and which entails the hospitality we owe the guest. The principle of hospitality is important in the Bible, where Abraham hosts strangers who turn out to be Jehovah and his angels. It is also related in Greek myth, where an old couple, Philémon und Baucis, sacrifice all they have to host two vagabonds, offering kindness to gods in disguise: Zeus and Hermes, the god who mediates all encounters between the mortal and the divine.

     The classical list, as C.S. Lewis and others detail it, is: storgē, love of the home or the family; philia or friendship, which we hear in philosophy as love of wisdom; eros which is what we’re most interested in — taking us back to the #metoo movement, including questions of men and women in love. (One of the reasons we continue to find Alan Rickman’s betrayal of Emma Thompson in the 2003 Love, Actually so disquieting is that this is a compound betrayal of storgē/philia/eros.)  — And then there is agapē, a pure, specifically selfless love, in contrast to eros, which is anything but selfless.  Agapē is anticlimactic, and even St. Augustine, praying for grace, prayed to be perfect but, as he famously wrote, not yet.

     The hierarchy of kinds of love mirrors — to tell a fanciful, proto-evolutionary story — the story of our lives. We’re born into storgē, family love, the love of home and hearth. That can be conflicted to be sure, as Robert Frost reminds us: ‘Home is the place where, when you have to go there, / They have to take you in.’

     Thus, we’ve just gone through the holiday season dedicated to storgē, as also reflected in Love, Actually and the 1946, It’s a Wonderful Life.  Philia, friendship, is included in marriage, as well as at school. Then, there is the theme of love matters at university, and eros—hence, the connection to St. Valentine’s day. Finally, some of us reach agapē, pure love, love for its own sake, love of god especially.

     I emphasized, as Plato and Augustine do, that we all want love, and it is love that draws us upward as Goethe notes, improving everything about the world and about ourselves. I also pointed to the sharper, darker sides of love: that it can break us, or bend us down, to use Hölderlin’s language for love’s near and future danger to us.

     Falling in erotic love is like falling into a maelstrom of intoxication, and there are always low points: the Greek poet, Anacreon compares it to being knocked flat by a blacksmith’s hammer, as Anne Carson cites him in her book, Eros, the Bittersweet. ‘Sweetbitter’ is the Greek glukúpikron in Sappho’s poem to Eros: a word order inverting our English convention and so much truer to life: glukú sweet, pikron, bitter.  Thus, the Greeks emphasized the negativity or visceral disaster that is the impact of love. As Archilochus writes: it rips your lungs out. Actually.

     And we’re all for it: we long for it, we want it. Eros undoes us, and the same lyric where we encountered the word, glukúpikron, we find lusimélēs, limbs dissolved, mingling one into another. The song originally recorded by the Big Bopper, Chantilly Lace in 1958, and featured in several films, including the 1973, American Graffiti, rhymes the intoxication effected by Chantilly, her walk, her laugh — the Greeks have the same enthusiasms — and the results that ‘make the world go round,’ transforming the singer, unhinging him, lusimélēs, the modern poet’s phrase make me feel real loose, indeed, make me act so funny, make me spend my money, punctuated. And that is the point of it: that’s what I like.

     Eros is dangerous, Plato tells us. He is the oldest god, he is the youngest god, and everything about him is dyadic, despite, or more accurately, because of the dangers.  Michel Foucault wrote about dietetics and strategies that might enhance the positive and reduce the negative, but, in the end, Cupid’s arrow is an engine of death, and talking of that takes us to Freud.

     I looked to philia to highlight what love actually does, and I spoke of Nietzsche on love as a hermeneutic tactic along with one of Fordham’s teachers from a few decades before my time, Dietrich von Hildebrand, because, in addition to ideals closer to agapē, he spoke of intentio benevolentiae to highlight the generosity Nietzsche emphasized. This is the generosity we can bring to everything we want to understand whether books, events, or people.

     When we love, we give the other the benefit of the doubt, cut them all kinds of breaks.  When we fail to love, we lack generosity and what is more, we are prone to resentment, disdain, anger.  Love is about generosity. It is about not minding faults, and the love of wisdom, philosophy, is or can be, beyond analytic anger, hermeneutically generous in the same way: faults and all.”

What is to be done? Alice Slays the Jabberwocky:

Jefferson Airplane – Go ask Alice

The hatter recites the jabberwocky poem

http://thephilosophicalsalon.com/twitter-hearts-and-valentines-day-on-philosophy-and-love/

https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/09/02/salvador-dali-alices-adventures-in-wonderland/?fbclid=IwAR2xHm6rl0zJS-zpldZ42KMqNJMYPfwpjzOTx9ZBwxyFDIoJZFYH3hIw7bQ

                       Lewis Carroll, a reading list

The Making of Lewis Carroll’s Alice and the Invention of Wonderland, Peter Hunt

The Annotated Alice: The Definitive Edition, Lewis Carroll, Martin Gardner

 (Introduction and notes), John Tenniel (Illustrator)

Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland Decoded: The Full Text of Lewis Carroll’s Novel with its Many Hidden Meanings Revealed, by David Day

Behind the Looking-Glass: Reflections on the Myth of Lewis Carroll,

Sherry L. Ackerman, Karoline Leach

Alice in Space: The Sideways Victorian World of Lewis Carroll, by Gillian Beer

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/29362357-alice-in-space?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_78

    The Nonsense of Kant and Lewis Carroll: Unexpected Essays on Philosophy, Art, Life, and Death, by Ben-Ami Scharfstein

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18526677-the-nonsense-of-kant-and-lewis-carroll?ref=nav_sb_ss_1_121

Alice’s Adventures: Lewis Carroll in Popular Culture, Will Brooker

October 5 2025 Let Us Be Wolfmen: Embrace the Wildness of Nature and the Wildness of Ourselves

    On these Nights of the full moon, a cosmic event of enormous powers of change and transformative rebirth, let us embrace our monstrosity as Bringers of Chaos in the destabilization of Order, disbelief and disobedience of Authority, subversions of Law which serves power, violations of normality and other people’s ideas of virtue, transgressions of the Forbidden, and seizures of power from Authority in revolutionary struggle.

     To all those who would enslave us as tyrants of unequal power, let us bring a Reckoning. 

     Now is the time of the Wolf and of the sacred hunt as love and as solidarity in liberation struggle, dyadic forces of the embrace of nature. Here is a ground of struggle signified by the figure of the wolfman as embodiment of our true nature uncorrupted by the subversions, lies, and falsifications of Authority; the image of human nature and our best selves.

    Who are we when liberated from the legacies of our history and systems of unequal power? What is this truth we pursue, in the pursuit of those truths immanent in nature and written in our flesh?

     As I wrote in my post of February 14 2022, On the Redemptive and Transformational Power of Love: the Case of Valentine’s Day and the Festival of the Wolf; Valentine’s Day is a holiday we can celebrate as an unambiguous good, without conflicted historical legacies; named in honor of a man who was executed on February 14 278 AD for performing gay marriages in defiance of Imperial law, adelphopoiesis or brother-making which refers to his marrying Roman soldiers not to their girlfriends but to one another, the wedding of same sex couples legal under Christian law which Emperor Claudius II forbid as related by John Boswell in his Same Sex Unions in Premodern Europe.

      The modern custom of sending messages to one’s lover, whether a forbidden love or not, originated in 1415, with a message sent by Charles, Duke of Orleans to his wife while he was imprisoned in the Tower of London.

      So we have in one holiday defiance of authority, transgression of the Forbidden, and the injunction to seize the gates of our prisons and be free.

     But this holiday is far more ancient, dating from the sixth century BC and encoding the historical memories of primordial rites of fertility called Lupercalia, the Festival of the Wolf. Rites which echo through our flesh and find form not only as Valentine’s Day as a celebration of the uncontrollable and liberating power of love which exalts us like a madness, but also as a form of the Wild Hunt which we know as the story of Red Riding Hood and the Wolf.

Angela Carter got it nearly right in The Company of Wolves; so also with season two, episode three of The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina.

     Midnight approaches, and as I ready my wolfskin for the sacred Hunt I think not of the ravishment of our passion but of the redemptive and transformative power of love, of its unique function as a force of healing and reconnection, and of transgression of the Forbidden and defiance of authority as a seizure of power over the ownership of oneself.

     Of this I have written tonight a spell of poetic vision, awakening, and transformation, which I share with you here. Good hunting to you all.

          Love Triumphs Over Time

     When first I learned of love,

And realized that in loving others we humans were not merely escaping

the boundaries of our lives and the flags of our skins

As transcendence, rapture, and exaltation

But discovering ourselves and those truths written in our flesh

And the limitless possibilities of becoming human

Among the unknown topologies of being marked Here Be Dragons

In the empty spaces of the maps of our Imagination

Beyond the doors of the Forbidden

Where truths are forged,

     And in the years since I have always known this one true thing;

We are more ourselves when we are with others

Who see our truths and make them real

Because humans are not designed to be alone

For we are doors which open one another

And restore each other to ourselves in an indifferent world

When we are savaged and broken and lost;

     Love is the greatest power of all the forces

which shape, motivate, and inform living things

Love creates, love redeems, love transforms,

Love triumphs over the pathology of our disconnectedness

From Beauty, from the Infinite, and from the community of humankind;

Love triumphs over Time.

    Thus for the embrace of the wildness of nature and the wildness of ourselves as love; also it manifests as solidarity in Resistance, seizures of power, and revolutionary struggle. As I wrote in my post of May 24 2022 The Problematization of Tuesday: Why Do We Celebrate Tyr’s Binding of Fenris One Day Each Week?;

     How much of our humanity are we willing to sacrifice in order to confront and limit evil?

     This is always the true question of Resistance; not of the origin of evil in the Wagnerian Ring of fear, power, and force, of the renouncement of love as the cost of power nor the redemptive power of love to free us from its grip and from those who would enslave us, not of our dehumanization, commodification, and falsification as theft of the soul nor of our power to become Unconquered and free in refusal to submit to authority, not of addiction to power and the hierarchies of belonging and exclusionary otherness of hegemonic elites of wealth, power, and privilege and fascisms of blood, faith, and soil nor of seizures of power and revolutionary struggle for the ownership of ourselves against authorized identities of unequal power. The questions we must face are simply this; how much of ourselves are we willing to trade for our liberty?  How much of our humanity can we trade to secure the humanity of us all, without becoming something less than human?

     Resistance is always War to the Knife, under imposed conditions of struggle against those who do not recognize us as fellow human beings, and who have shifted the ground of struggle beyond all limits and all laws, beyond the limits of the human and the boundaries of the Forbidden to subvert and degrade our humanity and all human being, meaning, and value, and here is where we must meet them.

     This is a space I know well, and have lived in since Jean Genet swore me to the Oath of the Resistance in 1982 Beirut, and from which I speak to you now. I am become the Abyss which gazes back into you.

     Who so ever acts to subjugate us beyond all laws and all limits may hide behind none. I am a hunter of tyrants and fascists, and mine is a hunter’s morality. Anything which takes away our power to resist is a lie of the enemy; and here I mean the false moral equivalence of the violence used by the slave master and the violence used by the slave to break his chains, as Trotsky teaches us in Their Morals and Ours. Let us give to fascists, tyrants, and all those who would enslave us the only reply it merits; Never Again!

     Here the myth of Fenris and Tyr may illuminate us, for in sacrificing his hand to bind the wolf which represents his animal nature as all devouring need there is an exchange of qualities, a hierosgamos and transformative rebirth as they unite and become dyadic forces. It is a myth which reflects and refers to the human transformation of wolves into dogs, our competitors as apex predators into partners in hunting and war, the key event of domestication which gave us a crucial edge in survival over our own predators, and in which the breaking of the oaths and bindings which create and sustain the universe, human nature, and civilization are part of the processes of self creation and transformative rebirth, the work of Chaos in the reinvention of the world and our liberation from imposed orders of meaning and authorized identities.

     Of Chaos as the principle of freedom I have written often and will again, for I am a Bringer of Chaos and a maker of mischief for tyrants; but here I wish to speak to you of the true nature of the myth of the Binding of Fenris as a metaphor and allegory of our primary ground of struggle as our relationship with the wildness of nature and the wildness of ourselves.

   For there are two paths we can travel in this; that of control and domination of our nature, as Freud described us with his delicious phrase as “polymorphosly perverse”, chthonic forces to be surmounted and harnessed in becoming adults, or that of Jung, who wrote of shadow work as unification with our monstrosity, especially that which provokes disgust, revulsion, fear, and horror in us.

    Here is a myth we can interpret and live as binding our animal nature in terms of domination of nature, or as binding together with our animal nature as equal partners in interdependence and as a primary human act of becoming. One leads to exploitation of nature, doomed attempts to control nature, and inevitably to our own extinction; the other to harmony, interdependence, and a sustainable civilization.

      First we must situate the figure of Fenris as an archetypal wolf in the context of our fear of nature and its myths and allegories, and then interrogate the consequences of our denial of our own nature for how we have chosen to be human together.

     As I wrote in my post of October 27 2021, Of Monsters, Freaks, the Limits of the Human and the Tyranny of Normality: the Figure of the Werewolf As Controlling Metaphor For the Wildness of Nature and the Wildness of Ourselves; Many of our modern pathologies of disconnectedness from our nature and from one another are born of the need for control and of fear of our inchoate passions as threatening otherness, an internalized oppression which has riven the human soul, divided and abstracted us from ourselves as part of the processes of nature.

     This is a madness of inauthenticity, power, dominance, vanity, greed, myths which valorize war and authorize elite hierarchies of belonging and exclusionary otherness as fascisms of blood, faith, and soil, all of which arise from an Original Lie of separation from and ownership of nature as in the allegory of Adam Naming the Beasts.

     Patriarchy, racism, sectarian division, and other identitarian forms of power, operating in mutual interdependence with capitalism and its prefigural developmental stages of elite hegemony and political forms aristocratic monarchy and nationalist imperialism, all find anchorages in civilization as control of threatening nature and our fear and hatred of ourselves.

     Jung described the primal disunity we must heal within ourselves; “The psychological rule says that when an inner situation is not made conscious, it happens outside, as fate. That is to say, when the individual remains undivided and does not become conscious of his inner contradictions, the world must perforce act out the conflict and become torn into opposite halves.” He was speaking of psychosis and the work of reintegration and becoming human, but it applies equally to dialectical civilizational processes of history wherein we have found ourselves conflicted and at war with nature on multiple fronts. Here Jung has given us a great power; how we may free ourselves of the legacies of our history and authorized identities, and escape the limits of time and fate as the unfolding of design beyond our own choosing. Like the works of Gertrude Stein, Jung describes a process of liberation and self-creation as a teleological revolution which unbinds us from the laws of the universe with which Authority seeks to harness our nature in service to power.

     Here I think also of Camille Paglia’s magisterial critique of Patriarchy as a civilizational task of controlling nature, Sexual Personae: Art and Decadence from Nefertiti to Emily Dickinson.  In the case of Emily Dickinson, metaphysical ax murderess whose poetry is a savage and relentless struggle with Patriarchy and avenging of its countless victims, she writes;” Even the best critical writing on Emily Dickinson underestimates her. She is frightening. To come to her directly from Dante, Spenser, Blake, and Baudelaire is to find her sadomasochism obvious and flagrant. Birds, bees, and amputated hands are the dizzy stuff of this poetry. Dickinson is like the homosexual cultist draping himself in black leather and chains to bring the idea of masculinity into aggressive visibility.”

    Personally I adore Emily Dickinson as a figure of Liberty; she reminds me of an ancestor of mine who was a member of the Paris Commune, an anarchist revolutionary, abolitionist, and suffragette called the Red Queen in reference to the character from Alice in Wonderland, after her preferred method of assassination. Once the true nature of our captivity and enslavement by elites has been realized, and Authority exposed as a seducer and betrayer whose apologetics of power are but lies and illusions, the choice between freedom and rebellion or dehumanization and subjugation becomes horribly clear, a chiaroscuro of terror and the grandeur of resistance.

    So also with the plunder and capitalist exploitation of our common natural resources in service to wealth and power which is driving the existential threat of ecological collapse and human extinction, for it is rooted in the same fear, drive to dominance and control, and internalized oppression as in the sexual terror of Patriarchy or the white supremacist terror which threatens our democracy. 

    Our lives become expressions of the stories we tell about ourselves, to ourselves and to others. This I call the Narrative Theory of Identity, and in the context of liberation and revolutionary struggle to win a reimagined humanity which heals our disunity with nature through the embrace of our otherness and our true and authentic selves which dwell among the chasms of darkness of our passions, through transgression of the boundaries of the Forbidden, refusal to submit to Authority, violations of normality and other people’s ideas of virtue, and other Acts of Chaos and Transformation, we may heal the flaws of our humanity, the brokenness of the world, and the origins of evil in the Wagnerian  Ring of fear, power, and force which Schiller identifies as “the disgodding of nature.”

    We are beasts with the souls of beasts, and this is not a degradation but an exaltation and a glorious thing, for nature is beautiful and so are we.

     Here I look to stories of our own to balance those of submission to Authority and denial and control of our nature. William S. Burroughs, whose bizarre fairytales haunted the nights of my youth, forged such a myth in his novel The Wild Boys, which I describe in my celebration of his work as follows; The Wild Boys envisions feral youths in rebellion against the Authority that created them, set in a dystopian future in which man’s animal nature has been  betrayed by civilization but which also has the power to redeem him, the final part of his Anarchist trilogy which extends his recurrent theme of werewolves as symbolic of our essential wildness and unconquerable nature and a type of Nietzschean Superman; beyond good and evil.

     As he wrote it during the period of his visits, I have often wondered how much of it was drawn from his conversations with my father, who mythologized our family history with the absurd claim that we are not human but werewolves, beings of the Wild Hunt, otherness, magic, and darkness, unbound by any law and with the blood of ancient terrors in our veins; historically our family had been driven out of Bavaria in 1586 at the start of a forty-four year period of witchcraft persecutions and the savage Cologne War and Protestant Expulsion, a prelude to the Thirty Years War which killed a third of European peoples among its theocratic horrors and is a direct cause of America’s principle of Separation of Church and State and why a secular state is foundational to any democracy. Martin Luther, then a notorious witch hunter and torturer of innocents, called us Drachenbraute, Brides of the Dragon, a unique term of Othering which I regard as an ancestral title of splendid grandeur and a cherished legacy of my family history.

     The Wild Boys extends the Enlightenment ideal of the natural man as uncorrupted by civilization and unlimited by its boundaries, as truths immanent in nature and written in our flesh, a historical development and like the Toad which Nietzsche feared he must swallow and Burroughs claimed to be possessed by a line of succession from Rousseau to de Sade to Nietzsche to Bataille to Burroughs and then myself, in a reversal of Freud’s ideology of civilization as restraint and control of our nature.

     David Bowie created his character of Ziggy Stardust based on The Wild Boys; Anthony Burgess’s A Clockwork Orange and H.G. Wells’ The Island of Doctor Moreau here mingle and intertwine. Certainly it is among the many stories I have adopted as part of my personal myth and identity, which include Milton’s rebel angel, the visions of William Blake, Mary Shelly’s Frankenstein, Cocteau’s film Beauty and the Beast, and the iconography of Hieronymus Bosch and of Gustav Klimt’s Beethoven Frieze as pantheon and ancestral origins with the wonderful image of the titan Typhoeus as a chthonic ape with his three gorgon daughters Madness, Illness, and Death to one side and the triple goddess of Lasciviousness, Wantonness, and Intemperance to the other; really, what more could one ask for? 

     Such myths offer models of harmony with nature in the figure of the werewolf as a controlling metaphor for the wildness of nature and the wildness of ourselves. Rather than a thing of clay animated as the toy of a tyrant God of alien and unfathomable motives who seeks to bind our nature to his laws as in the Abrahamic faiths, we can free ourselves from the dehumanizing legacies of our Patriarchal and Authoritarian histories by looking to counter-narratives of freedom, such as the werewolf defined as a being of wildness and uncorrupted nature.

      Myths about were beings tell us how we humans view ourselves and our relationship with the natural world in specific historical contexts.

    The bite of transformation is an interesting metaphor, especially as a metaphor of coming out and of truths written in our flesh, and is akin to other forms of the medical model of madness which describes transpersonal and other states of awareness as a degradation or dehumanization rather than participation in something greater than we are, and as an intrusive force from outside rather than a sign of our natural condition, which Freud so deliciously termed polymorphosly perverse; allegories and metaphors of the desacralization of nature and the falsification of ourselves, part of the story of the human cost of the industrial and authoritarian age like the loss of magic.

      In terms of story, there are many unexplored possibilities for the reimagination of were beings as heroes of authentic being versus normality and the tyranny of other people’s ideas of virtue, and champions of the powerless and the dispossessed, the silenced and the erased.

     Like the exhibitions in a carnival freak show, monsters help us define our limits and establish boundaries and normalities by providing examples of the truly other.

     What is human?

      Transgression explores and redefines our boundaries; indeed is necessary to growth and the discovery of possibilities of being. Let us parse the meaning of our reactions to violations of norms and to the truly other with great care, particularly with regard to the use of social force and control to authorize normality and codify virtue.

     As the anthropologist Sam Dubal relates in his book Against Humanity: Lessons from the Lord’s Resistance Army, modern Uganda provides a case study of the tribal warrior societies our werewolf myths are based on, a group who modeled themselves on gorilla warbands to achieve a higher state of being than human and reawaken our connection with nature and our natural selves, and whose acts of terror were in part ritual transgressions of the Forbidden. While the anticolonial warriors of the 19th century Leopard Society in Africa, Boxers in China, or Thugee in India may not be accessible to us, in the LRA we have ready examples of the use of savaging and primalism in war, such as I grew up with as a family legacy, and in the struggle of enslaved peoples to free themselves from the dehumanization of our civilization as imperialism and capitalism.

      When thinking about werewolves we must place our mythologies in the context of stories told about them as monsters and figures of terror by their enemies, just as the Christians did the Viking berserkergangr with whom they struggled for dominion of Europe, a civilizational conflict of tyranny versus liberty.

      The people they fought for tell different stories; in Romania they still perform the Bear Dance in honor of an ancestor of mine, a deified Roman general whose name, Laelianus, is on Trajan’s Column in Rome.

     All divisions and hierarchies of exclusionary otherness authorized by those who would enslave us demonize the many in service to the power of the few.

     To make an idea about a kind of people is an act of violence.

      How we imagine and honor the wildness of ourselves is reflected in how we imagine and honor the wildness of nature; our idea of the werewolf reflects our relationship with our animal nature, and with nature itself. If you think of your animal nature as evil, hostile, subhuman, barbaric, a thing of bottomless appetites to be controlled as Freud conceptualized what he provocatively called our polymorphously perverse nature, it is a fearsome thing, a degradation checked only by the restraining force of law; the doctrine of the innate depravity of man, corollary of original sin, being the basis of all law and of the carceral state, an idea very useful in the centralization of power and subjugating us to authority.

     But if instead our freedom and wildness is beautiful, and nature to be celebrated rather than feared, humankind is restored to wholeness and harmony with nature. This is perhaps a better way to study the idea of our wildness and harmony as animals and beings of nature expressive of its forces; look inside yourself and question your feelings and ideas about sex, death, and the possibilities of becoming human in a universe of imposed conditions which owe nothing to normality and other peoples ideas of virtue, and in which good and evil as absolutes or inherent laws of nature do not exist, for these are human words and become real only through our actions.

     To be a Wolfman is to be without limit and free, Living Autonomous Zones, to transgress the boundaries of the Forbidden and dwell among the unknowns of our maps of human being, meaning, and value. To live in harmony with our nature is to abandon dominion and live as one wild thing among others in a free society of equals, without tyrants, elites, or inequalities, for all living beings are equal and merit honor, especially the ones we must consume or meet in battle as brother warriors to find the truth of ourselves.

      Do not be deceived by the lies and illusions of those who would enslave us and steal our souls; our wildness is a thing not of terror or debasement, but of freedom and of beauty; and it awaits within you as a wisdom of your own darkness, which holds nothing which is not yours. Claim your wildness, and be free.

     As written by Octave Mirbeau in The Torture Garden; “Monsters, monsters! But there are no monsters! What you call monsters are superior forms, or forms beyond your understanding. Aren’t the gods monsters? Isn’t a man of genius a monster, like a tiger or a spider, like all individuals who live beyond social lies, in the dazzling and divine immortality of things? Why, I too then-am a monster!”

      I question and challenge the idea of normality, the authorization of identities, and the tyranny of other people’s ideas of virtue.

     One could think of the Binding of Fenris as slavery, abjection, degradation to an animal state or pathological denial of our nature which results in unequal social power as patriarchy, hegemonic elites, capitalism and ecological devastation; or its mirror reverse, marriage, interdependence, and harmony with nature.

     When you begin to question the boundary and interface between normality as authorized identity and transgression as seizure of power, between subjugation and liberty, the grotesque and the beautiful, idealizations of masculinity and femininity, of madness and its forms as love, transgression, and poetic vision, and to challenge the tyranny of other people’s ideas of virtue, you enter my world, the place of unknowns and the limitless possibilities of becoming human, marked Here Be Dragons on our maps of human being, meaning, and value.

     As we glory in the liminal time of this year’s Halloween celebrations, I say to you all, my brothers, sisters, and others; Welcome to freedom and its wonders and terrors; to reimagination, transformation, and discovery. May the new truths you forge bring you joy.

     Thus I write of the wolf that lives within us, in celebration of Halloween; sometimes you have to let your demons out to dance.

Chilling Adventures Of Sabrina | Lupercalia 3rd Event Hunt

Warren Zevon – Werewolves Of London (Official Music Video)

Little Red Riding Hood -sung by Amanda Seyfried

Red Riding Hood trailer for film starring Amanda Seyfried

The Company of Wolves, Angela Carter

The Wolfman, trailer for 2004 film starring Anthony Hopkins & Benicio del Toro

The Wolfman:  Benicio del Toro Transforming Into a Werewolf and Rampaging Through London

An American Werewolf in Paris film trailer

Critique of the Disney Special Werewolf By Night

A Study of Primalism: Buffy the Vampire Slayer season one, episode 6 The Pack

A Study of Savaging: Hold the Dark film trailer

She-Wolf: A Cultural History of Female Werewolves, Hannah Priest (Editor)

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/23529039-she-wolf

Phases of the Moon: A Cultural History of the Werewolf Film, Craig Ian Mann

The Werewolf in Lore and Legend, Montague Summers

Werewolf Histories, Willem de Blécourt  (Editor)

The Book of Werewolves, Sabine Baring-Gould

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1534461.The_Book_of_Werewolves

Monsters of the Gévaudan: The Making of a Beast, Jay M. Smith

1961 Hammer film The Curse of the Werewolf

https://archive.org/details/the-curse-of-the-werewolf

The Werewolf of Paris, Guy Endore (novel on which the 1961 Hammer film The Curse of the Werewolf was based)

The Island of Doctor Moreau, by H.G. Wells, Margaret Atwood (Introduction)

The Wild Boys: A Book of the Dead, by William S. Burroughs

Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars: The Motion Picture

https://ok.ru/video/363578067518

Against Humanity: Lessons from the Lord’s Resistance Army, by Sam Dubal

Sexual Personae: Art and Decadence from Nefertiti to Emily Dickinson, by Camille Paglia

The Torture Garden, by Octave Mirbeau

The Hieronymus Bosch Tarot Deck Walkthrough by Travis McHenry.

Martin Luther’s idea of witches as Drachenbraute

https://aeon.co/essays/how-economic-behaviour-drove-witch-hunts-in-pre-modern-germany

Romania’s Bear Festival

Tibetan Buddhist Cham Dance

October 4 2025 61st Anniversary of the Berkeley Free Speech Movement

     This October we celebrate the 61th anniversary of the Berkeley Free Speech Movement, in which students challenged and triumphed over the gatekeepers of authorized identities and access to power in our society, the hierarchs of the university system. Today marks the first mass protests at Sproul Hall; but the struggle for freedoms of speech and of the press, the right to expose and protest injustice and of freedom of information, the right to test, witness, and tell truths, neither begins nor ends with the courage of the people in mass action throughout that pivotal fall semester on a university campus, but belongs to all of us, everywhere and at all times, as a common legacy of humankind.

     Among the transformations of meaning and value won for us by the students who risked their futures to win a better future for all of us is the championing and valorization of our rights of free speech and of protest which informed and enervated all subsequent movements for social justice as a liberating force, a reclaiming of education as a Platonic Ideal and democratizing force which derives from the Greek educatus, meaning to bring forth rather than to stuff in facts and obedience to authority, the seizure of power by students as the owners of their own public institutions, structures, systems, processes, and outcomes and products of education from hegemonic forms of elite membership and power in the academic sphere as the key means of producing citizens needed for democracy and a public life of co-ownership of our government, and finally the revisioning of education as both truth telling and witness as a sacred calling to pursue the truth.

    There is a demonstration I performed every year on the first day of Forensics class at Sonoma Valley High School which I call Becoming a Fulcrum, and which you may find relevant to our work in electoral process and revolutionary struggle; “This is a fulcrum” I would say, placing an object on my desk, and placing an oblong object across it, “it balances a lever. When your parents ask you what you are learning in Forensics, tell them you are learning to become a fulcrum, and change the balance of power in the world.”

   For the best explication of why democracy matters, why the idea of a free society of equals lies at the heart of our liberty and of human being, meaning, and value, why it is the one thing we must never abandon or lose hope of making real, read I.F. Stone’s magisterial The Trial of Socrates. For each of us stands in the shadow of Socrates and must face with him the choice between submission to authority and freedom, regardless of its cost.

    As described by the co leader of the Free Speech Movement in his book Hal Draper’s Berkeley: The Student Revolt, with an introduction by Mario Savio; “In a dynamic conflict, there is not merely a majority and a minority: the opposition is not a homogeneous whole. A section may be neutralized, dropping opposition altogether, without coming over to the active side. Another section, while remaining in opposition, may be so infected by uncertainty — so tacitly impressed by the appeal of the position which it formally opposes — that its opposition is enervated in practice. Just as a given force exercises a leverage proportional to its distance from the fulcrum, so a fighting force exercises a leverage in conflict which is proportional not simply to its numbers but also to the strength of its convictions and the firmness of its followers.”

    In the immortal words of Mario Savio that began a generational reimagination and transformation of America and our civilization; “There is a time when the operation of the machine becomes so odious, makes you so sick at heart, that you can’t take part; you can’t even passively take part, and you’ve got to put your bodies upon the gears and upon the wheels, upon the levers, upon all the apparatus, and you’ve got to make it stop. And you’ve got to indicate to the people who run it, to the people who own it, that unless you’re free, the machine will be prevented from working at all!”

Mario Savio’s Put Your Bodies Upon the Gears speech

Charlie Chaplin’s The Factory

50th Anniversary Free Speech Movement UC Berkeley, film by Diane Sharp

            What is education for?

The Trial of Socrates, I.F. Stone

Discourse and Truth: The Problematization of Parrhesia, Michel Foucault

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18631427-discourse-and-truth?ref=nav_sb_ss_2_9

          Free Speech and Our Universities As a Forge of American Democracy, a retrospective of my writing

December 11 2023 What is Hate Speech? What is Anti-Semitism? Who Decides What Is Permitted, and How Shall We Enforce Limits On Each Other’s Freedoms? Case of the Repression of Dissent By Universities Beholden to Special Interest Money

March 11 2025 Free Speech Versus State Sponsorship of Genocide and Repression of Dissent: Case of Mahmoud Khalil

April 12 2025 This Passover, Stand Against Genocide. This Passover, Stand With the Children: the Peace and Divestiture Protests and Occupations

              The Free Speech Movement of 1964 UC Berkeley, a reading list

Berkeley: The New Student Revolt, Hal Draper, Mario Savio (Prologue)

Fifty Years of Free Speech: Perspectives on the Movement That Revolutionized Berkeley, The Daily Californian (Creator), Meg Elison

The Free Speech Movement: Reflections on Berkeley in the 1960s, Robert Cohen (Editor), Reginald E. Zelnik (Editor)

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1054536.The_Free_Speech_Movement

Essential Mario Savio, Robert Cohen (Editor)

Freedom’s Orator: Mario Savio and the Radical Legacy of the 1960s, Robert Cohen

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6794746-freedom-s-orator

https://jacobinmag.com/2020/09/berkeley-free-speech-movement-hal-draper

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